Another strong day of sobriety, time spent well, healthy food and a happy house. I start the day as I intend to go on always asking for strength, courage, acceptance, forgiveness and freedom of will. Look where will power used to get me, I will go to the shop I will buy alcohol and will drink all day I will also go buy drugs and I will get stoned and I will not eat I will worry I will get anxiety and I will have a bad day every time I go to work I will eventually stop all this for a short period of time and I will do it all over again and again and again.
Thy will not my will.!! Be strong, Be grateful.
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In bed sober, productive day of sponsor, book study and meetings. Found a really good group who just get on with recovery and the solution. Being new to online meetings I stayed with the first one I joined until now and as nice a bunch as they are I donāt want to talk about what kind of day you have had for five to seven minutes, I gain more from 3 minutes of book talk and AA steps and the way the program works than listening to how someoneās car broke down so they said thy will. So today I have learnt, There is a god, you need him and you are not him. Get on your knees and pray for freedom of self will. Be strong, Be grateful.
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Iāve been given a gift today, I canāt see it,touch it, smell it or hear it but I can definitely feel it. If I could share it I would and one day maybe I will but for now I need to keep it and let it grow a bit stronger, let the roots get a good hold so to speak. Maybe youāll see it before I do and ask where I got it from and whether you can have some. By then Iāll be giving it away freely to anyone willing to ask, reach out and take some. I call it sobriety. Be strong, Be grateful.
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I donāt want to be one of those people who stand on the street corner shouting the end of the world is nigh but by the end of the AA program you might well recognise me out there somewhere, except you wouldnāt recognise me bc I would be a completely different person from the one that started it. Do yourself a favour and donāt do this alone. I donāt just mean AA bc you might not feel its for you and weāre not all alcoholics on here but use everything that is available to you and everyone who wants to help you. Surround yourself with support, take whatās useful and leave the rest. Recovery is a WE program not a ME program. Be strong, Be grateful.
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Sober life is still great, AA is still great and learning every day about myself is, you guessed it, still great. Be strong, Be grateful.
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Family time some me time some book study some healthy food some definitely not so healthy food some walking some exercise some meetings some housework a movie a bit of shopping and a bath with a podcast and still found time to be bored. When you drink and take drugs thatās pretty much all you have time for except it really aināt pretty. Still sober and still loving this feeling of freedom. There is a big difference between being sober and being sober and happy, in the past sober was enough but TBH I was just a dry drunk who would try to get to the end of each day and yeah at the beginning youāve probably gotta take what you can get but thatās not who I am today, I love every minute of every day and rather than long for bed time to put me out of my misery I could do with a few more hours to appreciate it a little longer. Be strong, Be grateful.
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I totally agree Paul.
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Step one complete today and want to move to Plymouth bc Road to recovery is now my Home group but 5 hrs away so I doubt Iāll be popping in there for a 2 minute share. I said to my sponsor they must put something in the water bc they are such a great happy positive bunch but thereās nothing in the water, apparently thatās what sobriety does to you and working the steps can make you one of those people. I normally finish with be strong be grateful and yeah definitely always be grateful but you donāt have to be strong, you donāt have to BE anything all you have to do to be sober is three things, Act act and act again.
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Still feel like a walking miracle, only got a little bit of experience but all ready giving it away, once youāve learnt it itās only of use if you pass it on. You might think what youāve got to say is not important but thatās your ego putting you down. Get in meetings, turn that camera on and share, your words can save lives, even if you have 1 day sober there will be someone with 1 hour sober who would love some help to get where you are. So pass it on and as ever be grateful. Act act act.
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More step work today and a meeting, still living and learning Realised today that Iāve never been sober, yes Iāve been drinking on and off for the last few years and even managed to go 18 months without a drink but I was just delaying the inevitable. The only time I will be able to successfully say I was sober will be when I take me last breath, if I havenāt had a drink by then I will know I did it.
I want to die an alcoholic not bc Iām an alcoholic. Be strong be grateful.
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Yes! I want to be taken out doing something much cooler than drinking myself to death.
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if thatās you in your picture sky diving youāll likely get your wish 
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I went skydiving to celebrate my year of sobriety 
it was awesome.
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I used to be fearless then I watched too much You tube and now I get scared crossing the road.
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Must try and slow down mentally, I want everything and I want it now. There goes that self centeredness again raising its ugly head. Step 3 book study today and then will be the big step 4 that everyone seems to fear āoh I canāt tell them this or I feel bad about thatā The only problem Iām going to have is it asks us to make a searching and moral inventory of ourselves, it doesnāt say I want your life story and TBH I donāt dwell on the past Iāve already come to terms with my life and the fact we canāt change anything why should it matter. The fact I have this Iām over it mindset tells me Iām in for a shock bc, Iāve not been right once yet in the last few years and self knowledge avails us nothing.Be open and honest with yourself. Be grateful.
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This mate! This is exactly what I have been trying to say to you. Relax man, ride the waves and let it come.
After all, it is the only thing we can do.
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Another great day not bc anything out of the ordinary happened itās just a great day. Lifeās problems seem so far away, I think I used to be addicted to drama I heard someone say the other day and I can relate to that bc instead of waiting for the next drink I find myself waiting for the next problem and how I will react, the funny thing is Iāve probably had loads of them and havenāt even noticed bc I just got on with it and dealt with everything different. Be strong, Be grateful.
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Off to bed sober again, I really am a walking miracle. Home is good and I mean Laura bc for the last couple of years she has been a thorn in my side as far as AA (A bunch of gang bangers who brain wash you), God (Itās all a load of shit and he wonāt help you), This App (why would one addict talk to another addict you should talk to a professional). Now she is sitting here buying me crosses with the serenity prayer on and AA key rings, never once complains about the time I spend with my sponsor and book study. Work is good, everyone wants to talk to me or have a laugh or generally just be nice. This sobriety is like a magnet it pulls goodness towards you your luck changes, even today I was expecting a parcel of some affirmations coins that went to a totally different address but the person goes to the same gym as my step daughter and mentioned it and sheās like thatās my step dad. Normal people would just open it and keep it or throw it away. Anyway Take it easy and as ever, Be grateful.
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Another sober day, still have not got a clue what is going on. How can you be an alcoholic and drug addict and smoke every day for over 30 years and then stop thinking about it or craving, I wake up every day blessed by a power greater than myself. 
Iāll take it!!
Be Grateful. Be free of self will.
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We arenāt expected to be able to just stop and forget about the cravings and thinking about it. This takes time Paul. You know that. Itās not something that can be dealt with overnight.
At first we have to learn to live with these feelings and as we do we get used to them and defeating them we get stronger, until one day, we find that we donāt think about it very often because we have created a new normal where drinking and drugging is not us anymore.
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