My son’s girlfriend sent me video footage of him blowed out on Fentanol last night. Needless to say I got zero sleep. Going to be teaming up with her and my little sister who specializes in getting people into good rehab facilities today to make another attempt to try to save his life. He’s so far out there I’m not sure he even knows he needs help anymore. My husband is furious with him and has given up all hope but I can not. Thanks for listening. 
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This must be extremely difficult for you. As a mom, we wish we could take all their troubles and pain away. All you can do is keep offering help without enabling. Hopefully, this next attempt will be the one he grasps on to. Keeping you both in my thoughts and prayers.
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It sure is the most difficult thing I’ve ever had to face in life. I’m getting exhausted from lack of sleep and constant worry. Thank you so much Lisa 
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I am so sorry friend. I can’t even imagine the mental and emotional turmoil you must be experiencing. I do hope that you all are successful in getting him help. The addiction is so deceiving and makes one believe that they don’t have a problem or that they are in control.
Big hugs to you and do hope you are able to manage some sleep soon. 
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Thank you so much Jazzy I sure do too. 
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Im so sorry youre family is going thru this. I hope you can get him into a rehab and he wants it. You wanting someones sobriety more than they do doesnt get em sober
Sending strength and the serenity prayer wisdom your way
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Thank you so much! You are so correct.
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Good morning SoberV
@SoberVigilant
I guess it’s not a good morning for you. I just read this and was thinking of you. But scrolling through to find a “reply” I see your morning is shit. You don’t need my Al-Anon bullshit right now.
Fuck. I’m so sorry.
Don’t give up on him! I know you won’t. I didn’t have any Al-Anon back when we got our kids into a rehab. I know that hopeless chaos. Just call some rehab. Maybe someone at a good rehab can guide you in what to do. If not. Try another one. I have found some that take a hard line stance that they, your son, have to call themselves. But how can they? I’m so sorry you are going through this.
Sending you prayers healing thought peace whatever you want.
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Thank you so much Dazercat.
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I can’t imagine how horrible it is to watch such video. Disturbing. Hurting. Helpless. Sorry @SoberVigilant
The only support I can offer is hugs and prayer. You are in my mind. Both. 
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It was awful. Thank you so much
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Update… My son’s girlfriend just called finally. She took him to the ER last night. They had to wait about 5 hour’s. By that time he had sobered up some and got mad and left. He’s refusing all treatment at this time but I’m going to be hopeful that someday soon he will change his mind. Sorry for the pitty party this morning as I was worried sick about him and still am but I’m thankful to know that as of right now he’s better than he was last night. I want to thank all of you for your kind word’s and prayers. That means so much to me.
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Not a pity party my friend…you were distraught over your son’s condition and the not knowing. Grateful that you came and let out your feelings and sought comfort/ compassion and support here. We are here for you in whatever way we can be. Sending loads of love and hugs your way.
I can’t even imagine what you must be dealing with and want you to know that we are here to listen any time you need.
Thank you for the update. I too hope that he would want to seek help soon.
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I’m so sorry for all the turmoil your going through right now 
I couldn’t think of anything worse than watching my child go through this shit . I know it doesn’t help the way you feel but I’ll keep praying for you both and hope you can find some peace and sleep tonight 
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Jazzy thank you again so much. I was mentally and physically drained from it all.
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Thank you so much
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I can’t even imagine how difficult it is. My only wish is that he chooses the path you showed as soon as possible 
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Thank you Sunny I do yoo
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It’s hard to celebrate Al-Anon milestones since I relapse daily. But I don’t beat myself up anymore about that. I recognize it and move on. And on. And on.
I’m impressed with my 2 years and 4 months of Al-Anon recovery and I can see the difference in me.
And I’m Joyously Content 
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Coming here to get a few things off my chest.
The court date is approaching, 7th October. The deadline to remove the cars & stuff is approaching, 15th October.
My ex comes over to take away his clinkers and stones several times a week over the last 4 weeks. He brought a lot of stuff to the disposal site. Today I slept in, went to the kitchen to make tea and wondered what was different. He removed the oldtimer that parked in front of the kitchen window. The small trailer is gone. Of course without any notice or saying hello.
I should be happy that finally he moves out his stuff I’ve been looking at daily. I’m not. I feel empty, tired, abandoned, unloved. I question myself if I suffer from a mild form of Stockholm Syndrom. It hurt me daily to see his stuff, it reminded me of our past, good and bad, it gave the fake impression that he is still here somehow.
In december we will be divorced for 2 years and I really worked on letting go and moving forward. What the heck is wrong with me that I now feel like he is leaving me? Brainwash through the presence of his stuff and ignoring me and my needs? Fuck, he does all this because the authorities ordered to remove it, otherwise the wouldn’t move a finger. And I was really looking forward to it. Now it feels like I’m not ready for this change.
I know this weird cocktail of feelings will pass too. I’m so tired of waiting, changes, all the mess in my life caused by the separation, that I have to adapt again and again and again.
I’m annoyed that I feel overly grateful for my ex removing the stuff for the waste disposal. Like me doing nothing and him doing everything 
He really managed to engrave “you are fat and lazy” in my psych. I hate hate hate these old patterns to come up over and over again. Fuck going to the hardware store for milk.
Well, maybe I’m just stressed, exhausted from a busy week and probably get a cold, I need a lot of blankets today to keep me warm. Tea, sleep and meeting friends at an excellent restaurant will hopefully help to feel better.
Thanks that I can come here and vent.
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