What an awful way to start your week.
Addiction sucks!!!
Sending you strength and hugs 
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Thank you SO much Jazzy
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Thank you SO much Dazercat. So glad to hear your son is doing better. We sure do got a lot in common. I haven’t yet but I have looked at their website. Not real sure whats holding me up. I’ve got to do something because days like this it’s too much. Yes he tells me he wants to quit so bad. He just wants his life back but then keeps on using. Hopefully things will start looking up again soon.
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Thank you SO much Lisa. It sure as 
does.
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I used to date a girl who was a drug addict (IV speed) and an alcoholic. We spent weeks together for just being totally wasted from dusk till dawn. It was so destructive relationship that I’m amazed I survived from it. She had a little baby that got taken away by social workers while we were drinking and using shit. I haven’t heard from her a while but last time I checked she had moved to another country, she has a new baby and she’s not using speed anymore but drinking heavily. I truly loved her, she was so sweet, but our love story was doomed from the beginning.
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Did you see my post above?
My daughter’s rehab forced me in to Al-Anon at family week when we found out she was addicted to heroin. I could not even say the “H” word, never mind believe I had a daughter addicted to heroin. After rehab she went out and scored. Same day. And that’s was when my life became unmanageable. She went back out the day she got home from rehab 
It took me 3 or 4 meetings before I found a group of parents that knew what I was going through. And boy was my life unmanageable. Again I have another miracle of recovery through my daughter. I’m 2 for 2 on addicts. But I’m 2 for 2 on recovery.
The 3 C’s
We didn’t Cause it
We can’t Control it
We can’t Cure it.
Big hugs to you my friend.
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Oh my goodness thank God for that! That’s great they’re both in recovery. Sometimes like today I have very little hope but I keep on thinking I know he can do this.I love the 3 C logic you posted.
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Hell
On
Planet
Earth right?
I haven’t had Hope for my wife forever.
But I got a lot of Hope in my life now. In me. And I found Hope in my meetings. Took me about a year or so before I realized I had found Hope in my meetings. But when I did realize it. It felt so good to have Hope back in my life.
When it’s your child though………
It’s so much harder. And you’re his mother.
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It sure is friend.
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Husband is drunk and tried to pick a fight. I’m in bed.
Sometimes I dislike my husband as a drinker but tonight it is a good reminder of who I no longer am. I used to get drunk and sad. I used to be angry that my life was unchanging and that I seemed to be sliding backwards. I used to be very unhealthy and depressed.
Now, I am no longer drinking sad poison on the daily. My life right now is boring, a little self pity here for the pity party, and I won’t always be okay with that. I am okay with boring right now.
No matter how bored I get I won’t be looking at my husband with envy and wanting what he has at the moment. Alcohol sucks the life out of everything.
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I’m sorry about your husband trying to pick a drunk fight.
It sounds like you handled it well. 🩷
I had a similar conversation with a friend of mine earlier.
I’m okay with boring now. I’d take it over the tumultuous ride with alcohol any day.
You’re doing amazing.
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@TrustyBird I’m really sorry your having to go through this shit as you know he’s sick and knows not what he does ,just carry on keeping yourself safe .we all love you on here 
have a cry and congratulate you that your no longer in the madness yourself. I’ll ask my higher power this morning for your serenity tonight. if It doesn’t come and you can’t sleep have a vent on here . We’ve got you
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I’m sorry you’re going through that life draining . Hope today is a much better day for you 
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Sending you hugs and a big catpurr to shoo the boring a bit. Please feel nibbled, tamped, purred and miowed at 
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I had kind of a sulky day today where I made sure to not have a lot of contact with my husband. If he can have a random moody day yesterday I can have mine today. Is this some weirdly co-dependent dance we are doing?
Anyway he is taking my distance and toping it with a heavy dose of manipulative (feeling) sadness texts. Which I am not appreciating. Its almost as if we are vying for victim attention. Gross.
I’ve been trying to fall asleep for the past two hours so I can be asleep before he gets home with zero luck. My co-dependent ass can’t sleep without him in the house. Sigh.
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I’m sorry friend. Sorry you had a sucky day and sorry that you are getting these texts. I do hope you were able to sleep and get some good rest.
Sending you hugs
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Another sleepless night. Tossing, turning and nightmares. According to FitBit I got 48 minutes of good sleep. At least I’ve got my medicine I’m sure it be way worse without it. Still haven’t heard anything from my son since he picked up his dirtbike title. Sigh. Going to be a long day with work. Just wanted to vent. Thanks for listening. 
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Sending you hugs and loving energy. Hope you hear from your son soon.
Positive vibes you way friend…glad you came here to vent
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Thank you SO much Jazzy
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