100 days completed. What a fucking feeling, never thought it was possible. Anyone reading this stick at it as you won’t regret it one bit 
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@Andy79 you still going strong mate?
Yes mate still here… day 103. Well done on the 100. Thought you’d be on day 102 today?
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Daughter’s wedding beginning of July knocked me of the wagon. Every couple of days have 2 or e beere then the weekend comes it’s a 6 pack and a glass of something stronger. So here I am 2 days dry. Gonna try to get through this weekend…
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Sorry mate not been here for a while, I was on a great streak and feeling good, thought I’d broke the cycle so on the euros final day I had a few bottles of beer and everything was fine I went home and thought I’d cracked it. I wasn’t bothered about having a drink at all but my grandad passed a few weeks ago. Anyway his funeral was Friday and I knew I shouldn’t have drank but I did and I’ve completely fucked it up big time. Can’t believe I’ve thrown everything away, had numerous chances to go home but opted against them and then I failed a drugs test so my Mrs has kicked me out. No house no Mrs and won’t wake up every day and see my son and daughter who’s on the way. All that hard work and I’m no straight back to rock bottom. Gutted
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Hey J!
Fellow European binge drinker here, new to this app to track my process - I relapsed as well a month ago after being sober for little over a year. It’s devastating to fall back into the trap of the quick fix - but what’s more important is to keep going. I don’t really know how many times this has happened to me, maybe 4-5 times now, I’m trying to get sober since 5 years - but the periods of time I managed to stay sober get longer and longer.
As an unfortunately expert in relapse: A slip is always a chance to reinvestigate your motivation, discovering the mental loop holes you create in your mind, how content you are with your overall daily life, etc. etc.
I’m so glad you opened up about it on here - honesty is so important. Will you continue to go to meetings?
Sending hope, love and strength from Germany
Elisa
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Today is a new day. All we can do is start fresh and get back to living a life we are proud of. Now you know, you don’t need to make that mistake again. Maybe hit a meeting? Might help.
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You’re learning the hard way that anything you put in front of your sobriety will be lost. Pick yourself up, go to a meeting, find a sponsor and work the program like your life depends on it, because it does. Challenge yourself and do 90 meetings in 90 days.
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Sorry mate I’m gonna be a bit forceful here ….You need to look at things very differently than the way you are ,you were not on a “great streak “it’s not a frickin lucky game of poker (there’s another addiction waiting to happen right there)!!alcoholism is a deadly disease that will and does kill us we will never “crack it “ it’s waiting to take us every time we pick up the first drink I agree with others on here get yourself to meeting be completely HONEST and work a programme of recovery .I wish you well 
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I appreciate your post. It has given me a reminder that no matter how good I feel there is no safe amount of alcohol for people like us. It’s a reminder that if I pick up a drink or or drug my consequences would be harsh and immediate.
Thank you for doing the research so I don’t have to.
Once we have lost the ability to drink safely we can never again get that ability back. Save yourself the trouble and let this be your last attempt at moderation
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@Englishd your a “frank post” legend never stop keeping it real I appreciate you and your tough love
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I’m just some dude who made a bunch of mistakes when I first tried to get sober. I learned a lot of lessons the hard way. I’ve lost everything but my life to my addiction. Eventually I put the shovel down and stopped digging my own grave. I started listening to some people who had actually achieved sobriety and wouldn’t ya know it but many of the things I lost have come back to me.
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I hear you @Englishd 200+AA meetings and back home to my bong then back out for another five years of devastating bottoms untill I almost lost my mind I don’t Mickey Mouse my sobriety anymore
Appreciate the harsh honesty from a few of you, like some of you have said I played the game and lost once again.
Can only look forward now though I can’t change the past and this has put any doubts that I did have about being able to moderate/ control my drinking to bed, it’s just not something I’ll ever be able to do.
Just got to hope I can get back on track and get my head straight for the sake of my child and unborn child.
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Hi @JBux2793 well done for coming back on here and facing your fears and trying again ,I comend you for that as it’s something we will always need in our lives in recovery (strength to push through the bad stuff) . You got a serious amount of days behind you last time odaat and with better tools in your bag you will get it again .I understand you must be really low right now with your partner and children absent but this is where you need to be at right now to concentrate on your recovery please don’t just use AA as an eye opener go back to a meeting work it’s programme or another if that’s your preference but work it ! I wish you love and sober blessings today 
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One of my sponsors always said she speaks for people who didn’t drink that much.
It’s not really about how often we drank its about why we drank.
Totally get this. Wouldn’t drink for a few days but soon as I start next thing its 2 days later I haven’t slept and I’ve drank soooooo much,
Well I’m back went a few days. Then it’s a six pack and a bottle of something. Starting over…
Trying to see the half full glass.
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I can relate to this. I am a binge drinker too. I can go for a couple of days or so without drinking and then I go all out for a few days, till I am physically unwell.
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1 is too many, 100 never enough.
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