Binge eating recovery daily check in thread (Part 1)

[Aleyadaisey]

Day 732 : No binge today.
Day 68 : No coffee today.

[Faugxh]

Big congratulations to you! That is wonderful!

[Aleyadaisey]

Thank you!

[Aleyadaisey]

Day 733 : No binge today.
Day 69 : No coffee today.

[Scorpn]

[Aleyadaisey]

Great job so far Scorpn!

[Jftself]

That’s right congratulations

[Juli1]

Good job Scorpn
You are doing this very good.

[Juli1]

Day 38: imperfect regular eating

Triggerwarning

I have big problems today.
Judging my body to not be okay at all and much too fat, out of shape.
Don’t want to eat.
I am depressed and having cravings at the same time as struggling with ED.

[Jftself]

That’s wassup on the 38 days of imperfect regular eating. I’m sorry you feel this way but man I feel you. Don’t get me wrong I am happy this moment being clean, and I haven’t purged ever since I told my sponsor about it almost a month ago or so. BUT as far as my body gos I’m really hating it. I recorded myself working and thought omfg I look awful. On the same token I remember on drugs being sucked up on drugs I still thought I was fat. I know it’s a struggle within but I also know for myself anyways that if I don’t like the way I look I need to do something about it. It’s a bitter sweet thing for me right now I love that I’m off drugs but hate how I gain weight. The good definitely outweighs the negative so I have to start doin something like exercise, and eat better blaaah lol. You’re not alone man I’ll be prayin for you. Have a blessed day

[Juli1]

Thank you Anthony!
I will give my best.

I am on holiday and if I want to eat outwards,
I am alone. It’s not really a problem but now it is because my head is making trouble that someone might think bad things about me if “I am eating”.

Man, hellyes everybody has to eat.

Thanks for sharing your thoughts too! I don’t feel that alone now anymore. Worrying if i will go to bed now or eat a bit.

[Scorpn]

@Juli1

I am on holiday and if I want to eat outwards,
I am alone

On holiday, you should treat yourself. Eating, enjoying the views, relaxing. I think taking yourself out to a meal would be a very nice self care thing for you to do. I hope you are enjoying the island

[Juli1]

Yesterday it was fine and okay
to eat outwards

Today it’s too late now.
I am cold and tired.
I will take your advice and go tomorrow again

[Aleyadaisey]

Day 734 : No binge today.
Day 70 : No coffee today.

[Jftself]

I love you’re check ins keep gettin yours sis

[Jana1988]

Happy Saturday
So far my attempts not to binge in bed before sleep were unsuccessful…
But I’m not giving up!
I wish I felt the same way in the evening like I feel in the morning. Full of hope and determination. But the determination dissapears somewhere as the day goes and at the end of it I seem to be left with none. It’s so easy to give in and so hard to resist the temptations and cravings.
What’s important to me is that I’m not back in bulimia with no desire to return to that either That was hell and I wouldn’t like to go back to that never ending cycle.

Now it’s 7.40am here in the UK. So I’ll see how the day goes today… Maybe today I’ll be successful and finally not binging…

I’m wishing you all to have a good day

[Juli1]

I am okay again.

As I ate some almond touron for bedtime or late dinner I won’t reset the timer.
It’s okay in all its imperfectness.

Had nice breakfast with kaki, papaya and
2 spelt toast sandwiches with gouda,
salad and tomatoe

Will go to have a few swims now…
And as I had 14000 steps yesterday,
I will take the bus today

[Aleyadaisey]

Day 735 : No binge today.
Day 71 : No coffee today.

[Scorpn]

I have been stressed today about my mother, and generally about talking with my family…
I tried to eat earlier but couldn’t physically get it down…
So i waited until i was home and warm and less anxious. And i had a pot pie (banquet brand) and a slice of spinach pie (that was supposed to be my food earlier)
So i have made it another day eating.
Whew

[Its_me_Stella]

Congrats on your 2 years Binge free