Day 1353 : No binge today. 
So sorry about your relapse, @CATMANCAM. 
Donāt get discouraged, just try to get back up again. 
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2 days no binge 
I was after my dinner yesterday and I wanted something sweet. While making myself a cup of tea I was thinking about it and I knew itās Ed* who wants it, not me. He was trying to persuade me that it doesnāt matter who wants it and just to grab the little chocolate hidden in the kitchen cupboard. And then I said to myself, āDonāt listen to it today, Jana. Even if itās only today, letās have one evening sweets free. Itās only for tonight.ā And so left the kitchen with only the cup of tea. I was watching TV and had a few more moments thinking about that chocolate, but they werenāt that strong like the initial urge and maybe because the decision has been made by then, I coped fine. Literally just thought about the chocolate and then not in the next second. The thought was only passing by.
When I woke up today, it felt really great that I didnāt eat anything after my dinner. I am so happy, such a nice feeling when one gets to get over urges and triggersā¦ 
I also celebrated 5 years alcohol free yesterday, so itās almost like a double win 
- Ed = eating disorder, but also a name I gave to my ED
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@acromouse indeed. Sorry your hormones are still making things difficult
@Jana1988 thank you well done for 2 days 
@Aleyadaisey thank you
47 days no takeaways.
43 days no sugar.
30 days no crisps.
1 day no binge-eating.
Yesterday it was difficult to ignore my cravings for strawberries and greek yoghurt, and it made me in a really bad mood, like a toddler being told no. But I canāt keep having them every day because Iāve been spending too much money on fruit.
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@Jana1988 First of all: Huge congrats on 5 yeard freedom from alcohol 
Nice idea to give your inner craving voice a name. And good work on recognizing that it is Ed who wants to binge and then making your own decision yesterday 
279 days no sugar
143 UPF
17 gluten
17 dairy
0 compulsive eating
Still hormonally challenged.
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Maybe a binge, maybe not.
But Iāve definitely been eating more this week.
I air fried 2 servings of tater tots, and had 2 bacon and cheese egg bites.
Along with oat milk chai lattes all dayā¦
Lots of sugar in them 
I never felt full today. But seemed to feel hungry every couple of hours and I ate / drank every time.
Writing it out sounds healthy because I am listening to my hunger cuesā¦But didnāt āfeelā healthy. No fruit. Minimal protein. Mostly sugar and carbs.
I have to do better
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Sometimes we have a day like this ā¦ The sugar is likely to be the reason why you constantly felt hungry, because your body burns it quickly and requires more of it. Unlike protein fills you up for longer period of time and is generally better if youāre not doing any cardio exercises or if you donāt have any other energy spend.
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Day 1354 : No binge today.
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@Jana1988 sorry I missed it yesterday, but congrats on 5 years AF 
48 days no takeaways.
44 days no sugar.
31 days no crisps.
2 days no binge-eating.
I ended up having to go to the shopping centre to buy bug spray because I discovered lots of small bugs in my porch and although a lot appeared dead, there were a few on the walls and ceilings so I knew some were alive. Totally freaked me out 
Anyway so I bought healthy food because I was in the vicinity, my inner toddler was happy, but now I need to try not to buy any more.
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Thank you, @CATMANCAM and @acromouse
3 days no binge
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@Jana1988 Well done on staying on track!
@CATMANCAM Sorry to hear about the bugs. Thatās always disconcerning.
@Scorpn Listening to your hunger cues is a great way to navigate. Be nice to yourself. Donāt beat yourself up so much.
280 days no sugar
144 UPF
18 gluten
18 dairy
Since I stopped bingeing I have been conflicted with the definition of that part of my eating behaviour that still troubles me. Iāve tried to call it overeating, compulsive eating, etc.
I still feel like I am not comfortable with the definition what the behaviour is that I want to abstain from. There are a lot of conflicting feelings and thoughts around this.
So I decided to remove my counter for āovereating/compulsive eatingā. Instead I am going to focus on setting the intention to stay present with eating, keeping heart and mind open, investigating this area on a daily basis until I have gained clarity.
Iām still keeping the counters for my trigger foods. There I am quite clear about.
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When I managed to stay away from binging, I also had these urges to over eat/eat compulsivelyā¦also not sure how to name it. It was that moment when I ate more than I would like to but not enough to call it binge. It still troubled me and made me unsatisfied. Maybe itās the same youāre describing?
I never know how to deal with it. To me it feels like fear that I will be hungry once I canāt eat anymore (e.g. after a dinner), so I eat as much and lots of different food for my dinner until I am very full. It doesnāt make me happy but I fear that I will binge if I didnāt eat that much.
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Day 1355 : No binge today.
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Walking 7/28 Days
Day 81 of low carb breakfast.
Iām eating more than the one icecream bar per day that I typically allow myself, so I need to watch that. Otherwise Iāll need to be adding another counter soon.
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Day 10
No binge eating
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You are doing really well
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@Sissychris39 congrats on double digits
49 days no takeaways.
45 days no sugar.
32 days no crisps.
3 days no binge-eating.
So yet again I went to the shop to buy strawberries and mango. I know itās healthy but why does it have to cost 3x as much as crisps!? 
Iām getting to the point where Iām not craving takeaways, sugar, or crisps, I hope this continues because that sense of peace has returned. 
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Thanks so much!
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Thanks, and congratulations to you too!
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@CATMANCAM Glad to hear you are feeling peaceful
Fruit is real food. It has to grow from earth, and rain, and sunshine. Someone has to care for it, pick it, cool it, transport it. Crisps are made from waste - literally. Basically all Ultra Processed Foods are made from waste products of some industry. Waste is usually cheap, it does not have to grow, it does not require extra care, a machine can mix and form and produce it, its shelve life is endless compared to real food.
@Jana1988 You are definitely on to something there. I have a long history of food restrictions due to my decades long digestive issues. Now that I can eat like a normal person again, I have to learn that food is there whenever I need it, that I have access to all kinds of really delicious food, and that I will not be sick for days on after a meal. This probably just needs more time. And now with the hunger pangs and cravings I get during perimenopause my survival instinct and food restriction fears get triggered even more. In the end kindness is probably the best tool here 
@Kareness Look at you walking on 1 of 4 days - statistically speaking. Thatās a good count Sweets tend to creep up on people like that. Especially in times of stress.
@Sissychris39 Congrats on double digits no binges!!!
281 days no sugar
145 UPF
19 gluten
19 dairy
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I am finding my stomach extremely sensitive to different types of food. How did you healed?
I am trying not to restrict, but the consequence is that time to time (often actually) I must be facing discomfort - in the better case, or pain - in the worse case.
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