123 days no takeaways.
119 days no ice cream.
4 days no sugar, no crisps, no binge-eating.
Last night was a close one. I’d slept all afternoon so I found it a challenge to fall asleep at my usual sleep time. I thought about TV and crisps, I even semi decided to give myself permission, but I made myself have a porridge first. Next I was pleased to wake up at 11pm having fallen asleep. The shops were closed so I was safe. Now I have the relieved feeling instead of guilt and shame.
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@CATMANCAM Sorry your sleep schedule was so messed up. Would have messed with my mental decision making process too.
354 sugar
218 UPF
92 gluten
92 dairy
28 mindful eating
Today it was cold, and I felt emotional and also kinda bored. I wanted to stress eat lots. I definitely wasn’t actually hungry; I ate three proper meals and even ate some shortbread as a reasonable sweet stress relief. But to no avail, and had to repeatedly distract myself with various drinks like low calorie hot chocolate and mint tea with honey to feel the fullness without actually binging. Well, I survived and am in bed with teeth brushed ready to sleep. 
Sometimes it’s about distracting from the urge. Congrats on winning and eating well despite cravings! 
124 days no takeaways.
120 days no ice cream.
5 days no sugar, no crisps, no binge-eating.
Getting through a guilt-free weekend definitely feels good this Monday morning.
Therapy today. It’s not usually a trigger these days.
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355 sugar
219 UPF
93 gluten
93 dairy
29 mindful eating
Day 1430 : No binge today. 
I am just checking in. So far still on day 0 in binge eating, I am resetting my counter every morning 
But there’s always hope in each morning every day 
It’s evenings what affects me the most, it always has been like this. If I want, I could get through the whole day no eating at all. But once I finish my work, immediately I struggle. Watching TV and binging on sweets is what I am guilty for. I really want to give up sweets!!
I am now a bit weary of Christmas. I am in a state when I can’t manage at home, how will I manage through winter holidays, I don’t know… 
I am going to Czech Rep to see my family and there’s going to be a lots of food and alcohol, all these triggers. Hope I get through it somehow… 
So today is a new day and with a pinch of salt I have new hope and determination and will see how it goes. I made a small plan for myself what to do today and it really is just to stick with it. I think my plan is reasonable just maybe not enough detailed. I must polish this as the day goes
Wishing to everyone pleasant Tuesday 
125 days no takeaways.
121 days no ice cream.
6 days no sugar, no crisps, no binge-eating.
I’m feeling quite unstable and depressed. Also overwhelmed with the stress of Xmas fast approaching, and I have to chose between buying food every day, or buying gifts, I can’t afford both. I was full of rage yesterday and that made me want to crunch (crisps), but I also didn’t want to at the same time.
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@Jana1988 Now that you moved to a new home, maybe you could get rid of the sweets at home to make this easier for you?
@CATMANCAM Hang in there friend 
356 sugar
220 UPF
94 gluten
94 dairy
30 mindful eating
Day 1431 : No binge today.
Sending supportive hugs your way, @CATMANCAM. I hope you feel better soon.
@acromouse @Aleyadaisey thank you both 🩵
126 days no takeaways.
122 days no ice cream.
7 days no sugar, no crisps, no binge-eating.
Really struggling with my MH. Trying to keep playing the tape on how I’d feel even worse if I binged. It is helping that it’s dark outside when I feel the urge, because I don’t feel safe when it’s dark, so I’m less inclined to go to the shop.
Just feeling so overwhelmed. I’m not even off the first med yet, 3 more weeks until then, and I have many other MH meds I’m going to be coming off, so I’m just so worried about how much worse it’s going to get.
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@CATMANCAM Sorry your mental health situation is so difficult right now. Have you spoken with your doctor about these effects?
357 sugar
221 UPF
95 gluten
95 dairy
31 mindful eating
My GP would just want me to increase the dose back up again, but that’s the opposite of what I want. Just hoping it’s my brain recalibrating or something. I need to start going for my walks again to regularly clear my head, but I’m so terrified to leave my flat and be exposed to people. (apart from going to the shop at 7am, which is a completely different type of motivation that I really wish I could channel to do other things).
What symptoms are you having? I get anxiety so bad I cant get out the house sometimes. Sometimes for weeks. It’s awful. Even tho ofc going out the house will totally help w depr.
This shit will take a long time w the meds. You have experience in CBT I thought? Seems to me this would be the perfect situation to apply some of that, med/chemical induced feelings. Maybe you can look some of that stuff up?
Idk sorry I can’t help more. You’re not alone!
I just feel totally emotionally overwhelmed. Anger, Sadness, Shame, Anxiety, Depression, Suidical Ideation (but I’m safe bc of my cats). I can’t look after myself or my environment, so thats all making me frustrated and hate myself even more, even though that’s been an ongoing issue for about 10 years, I’m just hyper aware of it all getting worse and was holding on to the hope of starting ADHD meds and thinking they would help with those things, but now that’s on hold until I’ve finished therapy in July 2026. I don’t even really know what I’m feeling, there’s just a lot of it.
I did get out for my regular walk with the Safe Soulmates voluteer today, and fed some water birds, and the Sun was even shining, but I just felt numbness rather than joy.
I’ve never done CBT. All I’m doing lately is hours of meditation every day. Some days I manage to catch-up on the main checking-in thread here, but I’m missing days regularly and then it takes me a whole day to catch-up.
There’s so much I need to do but I can’t make myself do it. I am a non-functioning human.
Thanks for the support though.
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I feel you I really do. When I feel like this, I downregulate: everything down to basic, expectations wayyy down. Only the immediate things I need to function. Eating as well as I can (not perfect!), housework, animals, light exercise plus anything that brings some comfort. Like reading, TV… Big hug Cam.
My best friend died. I want to eat so badly to numb the pain.
I am so sorry 
I so understand the urge.
Are there other ways you can think of you could try to soothe your pain? More skilful ways? A walk, fresh air, movement, crying under a blanket, a friend, a support group, a massage…
Bingeing will only add to your pain.
