@acromouse wise words,thank you and congrats on your huge win
130 days no takeaways.
126 days no ice cream.
11 days no sugar, no crisps, no binge-eating.
Doing a bit better thankfully
I managed to get some strawberries from the shopping centre yesterday. Weirdly I didnāt eat any until today.
I also did xmas shopping to unburden myself of the pressure of it all. Here lies the issue; I usually pay my car insurance annually (due first week of January), as itās cheaper overall, but any money I spend on food (or anything else unaccounted for) will come out of that money now. So ideally I should live off these shakes and protein porridge, but it makes me so miserable and I donāt want to reset again.
I like to think that if I started to feel like bingeing, I would buy food instead. So I cautiously trust myself.
I have enough food for today and tomorrow, so Tuesday will be my first day attempting not to spend any money.
It would be good to use up all these big bags of shake powder, bc Iād have a lot more space, so I guess Iāll see how it goes, and hope I make the right decisions if it comes to it.
132 days no takeaways.
128 days no ice cream.
13 days no sugar, no crisps, no binge-eating.
I couldnāt even go a few hours this morning without going to the shop. I was only planning to get strawberries, yoghurt, and coffee, but they didnāt have any strawberries still, so then I lost my composure and bought a full days worth of food. I was also craving crisps last night for the first time since I stopped again. Iād eaten my last meal at 4pm. I resisted and had a shake, then put my hypnotherapy track on through my headphones. Then I woke up after the shops had closed.
I had logged into an online meeting yesterday in the evening just to listen in. And while listening I prepared my dinner and started eating. After a while I realised that this was distracting from my meal and not very mindful. So I left the meeting on, but focused on mindfully eating. Interesting how my mind is changing.
@acromouse congrats again of your year of no sugar and also Iāve just seen you are now a mod too, I think youāll do great Iām sorry about your hormonal bs I hope it settles asap.
134 days no takeaways.
130 days no ice cream.
15 days no sugar, no crisps, no binge-eating.
Having a really rough time with my Diabetes. Itās way out of control, has been for a while now. Lots of hyperglycemia symptoms; nausea, stomach pain, blurry vision, migraines, excessive thirst & hunger, fatigue, urinating large volumes atleast every 30mins, chest pain, waking up atleast 5 times in the night, weird facial twitches. Iām testing urinalysis and itās on the highest marker every time, and I tested my blood glucose and it was 21.6! Scary. I think I first started having real food on 28th September, and was already having fruit and yoghurt a few months before that. Iām waiting for a call back from a doctor today, hoping he will just advise me to double my medication. My next HbA1c test is in two weeks time, on 5th December, so that will give a clearer picture of the last 3 months, even if I do increase my meds from tonight.
I have been craving crisps quite badly. I miss the crunchiness and saltiness. Not sure where else to get that combo from. I think I even miss the greasiness, which sounds quite gross. I also miss the behaviour that goes with it, -watching TV.
Just a quick check-in at this thread! Itās been a whileā¦ basically because my eating was out of control again and couldnāt even be bothered to do something about it. Whenever I stop drinking, I need a substitute it seems.
I started listening (at first I thought āyet anotherā) book on ED, but this one seems to be a game changer!! Iām on day 5 of no B & P! A first one in 25 years Iām ashamed to admitā¦
I really recommend listening to this book for anybody with an ED!
135 days no takeaways.
131 days no ice cream.
16 days no sugar, no crisps, no binge-eating.
The doctor called, we are doubling my medication, just one extra pill for the first week, then a second extra pill going forwards after that. He also thinks that wonāt be enough, and that Iāll need a āsecond agentā with my levels being so high. Heās going to ask the diabetes nurse to contact me asap to discuss. I have some more test strips arriving today so I can keep a closer eye on it again.
Therapy today, my first session in eleven days. Iāve been more stable without it, but that makes sense since therapy is deep psychological work around my trauma history.
I also reduced my dose again last night, of the first medication, so Iām prepared for the return of the withdrawal symptoms, but Iāll be okay.
136 days no takeaways.
132 days no ice cream.
17 days no sugar, no crisps, no binge-eating.
Back on my meal replacement diet, itās the only time my blood glucose levels were ever in the safe range. Financial reasons too as previously mentioned, and hopefully some much needed weight-loss.
@Jesile Nice to see you on this thread. Thanks for the book recommendation. Keep coming back
367 sugar
231 UPF
105 gluten
105 dairy
41 mindful eating
Yesterday was technically - itās a leap year - my one year anniversary. One year freedom from sugar, one year on a path of recovery from binge eating, loosing controll, feeling awful about myself, trying to deal with life through addiction.
and congrats on your huge win 
and also Iāve just seen you are now a mod too, I think youāll do great 
