2 days no binging!
I found it suspiciously way too easy yesterday 
Even my bf ate chocolate and I was happy to have just 1 row 
What has happened? I donāt care, just please last it like this!
Feeling good but am bloated because I am on my period now. A bit of pain and discomfort. Lets see how this will affect my eating today.
@acromouse congrats again on 60 days no UPFs 
and your week+ no overeating/binge
@Jana1988 Iām glad the shower changed your perspective 
and I hope that things will continue like yesterday for you 
16 days no crisps, no takeaways.
0 days no sugar, no binge-eating.
Checking-in with yesterdayās numbersā¦
I went to the local shop to try āone last experimentā with a few groceries, because I was craving jam on toastā¦ It did not turn out well. They didnāt sell sugar-free jam, so I begrudingly bought regular jam, thinking I could control it and ājust have a littleā, I couldnāt, I ended up bingeing jam on toast last night, and then this morning I ate the rest from the jar with a fkin spoon, it was vile, I didnāt even like the taste, but I still couldnāt stop myself! No more experiments.
My findings from monitoring my blood glucose levels show me that my body cannot tolerate carbs well at all, not even complex ones, so I will stick to my low carb, high protein diet, and hopefully things will be better and more stable.
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Day 1271 : No binge today. 
17 days no crisps, no takeaways.
0 days no sugar, no binge-eating.
Checking-in with yesterdayās numbers.
No further incidents to report, my counter for no sugar or binge-eating ticked over to 1 day an hour ago. No plans for that to change before I check-in later tonight.
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197 sugar
61 UPF
68 gluten
47 dairy
9 overeating
Day 1272 : No binge today.
198 sugar
62 UPF
69 gluten
48 dairy
10 overeating
I have 4 days without binging. Eating nutritionally good and big enough dinner helps. I need to learn to cook 2 meals for myself (1 lunch and 1 dinner), rather than be snacking in the evening instead.
Unfortunately I caught flu and I feel pretty rough today. Not sure if I manage to eat regularly as e.g. now I donāt feel like having a breakfast at all. Good is that I also have no desire to eat anything sweet eitherā¦ Maybe a good time to get rid of sugar from my life 
Anyway. Iām going to rest a bit more before I asses whether I am able to WFH or if I need to call sick.
Congrats on your progress! And get well soon 
@acromouse congrats on double digits for no overeating
@Jana1988 feel better soon š©µ
18 days no crisps, no takeaways.
1 day no sugar, no binge-eating.
Checking-in with yesterdayās numbersā¦
Had strong cravings for chocolate yesterday, which I rarely ate even before I was diabetic, or in my usual binges, so it was fairly easy to resist but still uncomfortable. Today so far, all is well, except there is quite a lot of glucose in my urine and blood, because I still eat the porridge for breakfast because I want to use it up and my meal replacements havenāt arrived yet, they will today though, I received a text from the courier.
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19 days no crisps, no takeaways.
2 days no sugar, no binge-eating.
A lot of anxiety today. I craved chocolate again this evening and felt the compulsion to go to the shop very strongly, but then remembered my shakes delivery came toda, and I found a chocolate caramel flavoured one, and it satisfied the craving which felt good. 132 calories Vs the 1090 calories that I would have had, much better!
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Day 1273 : No binge today.
I had a big dancing session. Over 8k steps on my counter and 50 heart points! So that was fun for sure! 
@Jana1988 I hope you have a speedy recovery from the flu. I know being sick isnāt fun. Sending healing prayers/thoughts. 
Great job on resisting the craving by getting something healthier, @CATMANCAM! Every win counts!
Wow, nearly 200 days since you had sugar, @acromouse! Keep it up, youāre doing great! And good job with your other counters too!
@Aleyadaisey What kind of dancing did you do?
@CATMANCAM Iām sorry you are experiencing anxiety. I find this often difficult and then food/eating comes as a distraction to mind. Good job on choosing a better option. I hope your meal replacements will make your situation easier.
199 sugar
63 UPF
70 gluten
49 dairy
11 overeating
My hormonal upheavals are currently so bad, I canāt even say if I am overeating. I know I am eating more then usually as I experience far more hunger.
@Aleyadaisey your prayers had to be heard because I am feeling much better today! Yesterday, I slept through the day and barely moved, today I am all okay, just left with annoying cough which disturbs everyobody in the house 
Today marks 5 days without binging. Yesterday was fairly easy. I had only little bit of food in the evening otherwise I didnāt feel like eating at all. Iād think that I may be hungry today, lets see. So far Iām fine with coffeeā¦
I am useless at sitting at home, especially today we have a nice sunny day, so I aim to go for a walk today and hope that it will be fine. Tomorrow a big ride was planned but I donāt think it would be wise to go. Itās hard because now when I feel better I am super tempted
I am going through some unpleasant emotions, too. I donāt know how to deal with them. Itās mainly disgust and a bit contempt. I donāt want to feel it. Any advice how to get rid of these? I know I probably must find the ability to change my point of view on the situation but itās quite hard for me.
Let me shareā¦
So I was ill because my boyfriend was ill. He is now feeling much better, but he still doesnāt look 100% in the morning. Yesterday we were expecting visitors in the house (my bfās brother with his gf). They were coming around 8pm and sleeping over which means carrying out a matrace out of the garage through the garden to the house for them. Normally my bf with his mum does it because there are spider webs everywhere in the garage and so I donāt go in there.
However yesterday my bf forgot about the matrace and left the house for some time out with friends and wasnāt coming back any soon. His mother got angry that he didnāt carry the matrace out of the garage and I said that his brother can do it as well. His brother is an adult, big and a strong guy, believe me, he could easily do it. But no, their stubborn mother just went and carried it out herself. When I saw her out of the window, I absolutely didnāt understand why sheās doing it. Not only that it was so stupid but she was also destroying the matrace by dragging it on the stones sheās got in the garden. That pisses me off because the matrace is mine and my bfās when we buy a house.
Her reasoning then was that she didnāt want her other son carrying it after working the whole day and then travelling here. He works from home with PC (nothing physically demanding) and he doesnāt drive, so all the travelling was just sitting in the car for 2.5hours Instead, sheād rather my bf who also worked the whole day and is after illness wanted to do that. And that way of her thinking makes me unbelievable angry, because I just donāt get it. Theyāre both her children but sheās always over protective only of the younger one. Itās disgusting in my head and I donāt know how to change this thinking.
Any opinions? You can be honest. Maybe I am wrong to think like this? I really donāt know. I honestly wish I wouldnāt give a 
but as I love my bf a lot and it is a behaviour against him (at least in my mind) I am finding really hard to be emotionally detouched.
Hey there,
I hear you. My brother in law has some very exhausting behaviours but my parents in law always treat him like a poor baby and even enable this. I have been dealing with this for almost 30 years now. I canāt imagine living with them. I would go up in a cloud of smoke from my anger every fucking day.
Iāve seen this kind of dynamic over and over with other people too. Sometimes itās very toxic to everyone involved and everyone around. So please come here and vent. Your feelings are totally valid.
But from my experience you canāt get rid of your feelings or your thoughts. What you can do is try and find ways to deal with them. The first step might be getting out for a walk, or somehow out of the immediate situation. Clear your head. Next might be learning some mindfulness tools to help you observe your feelings, your reactions, your own thoughts. This practice has helped me tremendously. Another thing is to separate what is your side of the street so to speak. You cannot change how your mother in law or anyone else for that matter thinks or behaves. You donāt even have to understand why people do something. Take care of your part. Find out where you might want to set some boundaries. But also understand that you will always - no matter where you are in your life - experience uncomfortable feelings and thoughts. If itās not your mother in law it will be something else.
If you should be interested: I started this free 40day Mindfulness Daily course with Jack Kornfield and Tara Brach. Itās about 10min per session. I really enjoy it.
@acromouse Thank you very much for your insight! It helped a lot 
After I vented here I also wrote my diary which sometimes gives me clarity about some stuff. And I was thinking that what Iām trying to do is basically to gain control over the situation even though I canātā¦ So that is basically what you said, too.
I was thinking that I must probably leave this for people involved to sort this out betweem thelselves and if my bf doesnāt mind to be treated this way, thatās something I must accept as heās an adult and should speak for himself.
Youāre right. I am kinda living in between lives now, just waiting for to move out and itās like if my life now is on pause. All is planned for āWHENā. It feels like the only way to deal with my current situation but in reality it only brings me stress for last about 4-5 long years. Me and my bf agreed to go to rental if we donāt find a house this summer. My hope is to be gone for winter, because I donāt want to be here anymore for a very long time. My bfās mum is a negative person who constantly complains about everything and itās exhausting and I try to avoid her as much as I can, but it puts lots of stress on me as you maybe can imagineā¦
I donāt want to cry hear hahaha. I am surviving this and I donāt feel sorry for myself. Just exhausted.
Will 100% have a look at that mindfulness course. Thank you for itā:heart:
Hugs and love friend. Toxic living conditions suck all live and energy out of you. I totally get it. And your āspecial personā 
sounds like a hand full. Constant negativity, not respecting otherās needs and boundaries. That must feel like having to be on guard all the time which does not lessen the stress we deal with on a normal day 
Just freestyle dancing and having fun with it.
Day 1274 : No binge today.