378 sugar
242 UPF
116 gluten
116 dairy
52 mindful eating
Mindful eating is a bit fluctuating right now. All those panic attacks, anxiety and my current health situation making it difficult at times. But I try to be as nice to myself as possible.
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Day 4:
No binge eating
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Youāre doing extraordinary well, @acromouse and keep inspiring me 
I really wish for you to feel more yourself soon and better without any issues 
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Day 1453 : No binge today. 
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379 sugar
243 UPF
117 gluten
117 dairy
53 mindful eating
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Day 5
No binge eating
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Day 1454 : No binge today.
I hope you feel better soon @acromouse. Panic attacks are no fun. Sending supportive hugs your way.
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@Jana1988 thank you š©µ Iām glad you found some true friends here
@acromouse feel better soon š©µ
145 days no ice cream.
30 days no sugar.
5 days no crisps, no binge-eating.
0 days no takeaways.
So I managed not to have one on Monday, but I think that was only because I had leftovers that I decided to eat instead of waste. Iāve had one every night since then too. Continuing to use despite negative consequences is where I am at once again with the takeaways.
I had to be very assertive yesterday, because the diabetes nurse hadnāt even requested bloods ahead of our phonecall next Tuesday. Thankfully I do get on quite well with the nurse that does my testosterone shots, and she did agree to do the bloods once I explained how the past few months have been and that I have a scheduled appointment for my diabetes on Tuesday.
I wasnāt going to check-in until Iād got back on track, but I think itās helpful regardless of how Iām doing.
š©µ
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@CATMANCAM The idea of not checking in until ā¦ (fill in the blanks) is IMO a part of addiction. It is this thought that you can present yourself to the world only if ā¦ This is a very toxic thought. It took me quite a while to understand that. As long as you have parts of you, you feel like you need to hide from everyone, your addiction has a hold on you. At least that is my experience. Good job on checking in despite those thoughts and your troubles 
380 sugar
244 UPF
118 gluten
118 dairy
54 mindful eating
The timer tells me no UltraProcessedFood since 8 months. I remember trying gluten free bread at that time. It didnāt suit me. Iām glad that stuff is no longer part of my eating.
Iām feeling slightly better today than the last days. Thank you all for caring 
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Day 1455 : No binge today.
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@acromouse very true, maybe this is how I should also view my not going for walks because I donāt want to be seen at the size I am. Thanks for your support. š©µ
146 days no ice cream.
6 days no crisps, no binge-eating.
0 days no takeaways, no sugar.
I decided last night was going to be my last takeaway, because Iāve now had all of my addictās āfavouriteā ones. Last night I even had a small dessert, there definitely would have been a bit of sugar in it, so Iāve reset that counter too.
I am determined to check-in with 1 day tomorrow morning. The interesting thing about last night was; the portions are small, and I was hungry, but I struggled to eat much of it, so I had to eat the rest later on. I am hoping this is because Thursday night was my first night completely off my first medication, and if so, this will make things much easier going forwards. 
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381 sugar
245 UPF
119 gluten
119 dairy
55 mindful eating
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Day 7:
No shopping
No binge eating
No Grubhub
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Day 1456 : No binge today.
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@Sissychris39 Congrats on a whole week Sheena!
382 sugar
246 UPF
120 gluten
120 dairy
56 mindful eating
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@Sissychris39 congrats on your week 
147 days no ice cream.
7 days no crisps, no binge-eating.
1 day no sugar.
0 days no takeaways.
I let myself down yesterday evening 
I was so sure I wasnāt going to continue to harm myself with junk food. I really hate it when I canāt trust myself.
I accept that this is a very difficult time of year for me, for a multitude of reasons. It was this time in 2021 when I relapsed on cocaine aftrer 459 days.
Iāve got zero self-respect at the moment and I am basically living like an animal. I take care of my cats, but severely neglect myself. I donāt know why but I just seem to get worse not better.
Everything just feels so overwhelming, thereās so many things I used to do as part of my daily routine, I just donāt feel like Iāve got the energy to do any of it. I donāt know how to go about trying to build things back in, and more.
š©µ
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Thank you so much!
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Ty and congrats to you too!
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Day 8:
No binge eating
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Day 1457 : No binge today.
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