911 sugar
775 UPFs
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215 smoke free
1 binge free
1 keto
I took some time this morning to reflect on the past few days.
Honestly, the exact same thing happened as with my last relapse: I behaved like I didnât have an eating disorder.
Meaning, I wasnât really staying in my green circle and practicing active recovery. I was spending way too much time in my yellow circle, because itâs more comfortable and doesnât need any effort. I ignored that I was heading toward my red circle, because it was easier.
I slacked on the daily work for my recovery, and a relapse is just the natural consequence of that.
Iâm really glad Iâm not beating myself up over it, but can just look at it analytically, learn from it, and do what needs to be done today so I can live binge-free again.
Itâs so good to know weâre all in this fight together and I donât have to do it alone. Thanks for letting me share here. Love you guys 
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Day 4
I almost caved this afternoon. I felt overwhelmed, tired, stressed, irritable, and physically weak. I had the brief thought to go and eat something. Thankfully I was able to recognize that the thought was me wanting to emotionally eat. I did check my hunger levels to make sure that I wasnt actually hungry (which I wasnt). So i started taking deep breaths and praying to my HP to have the obsession of food removed from me. I reminded myself that Im not in control of whats happening around me (the things that were causing me stress), and then focused on relaxing my tense shoulders. The urge to eat eventually went away. I ate a normal supper afterwards which was planned. AND I didnt feel the need to overeat either.
Im so happy to have finally worked thru some stress. Normally i cave. So im happy to be going to bed tonight abstinent from compulsive eating and compulsive behaviours 
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Day 2004 : No binge today. 
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912 sugar
776 UPFs
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I havenât bothered weighing myself for months. Today I went to a different drugstore to pick up my daughterâs eyedrops and there were some sample scales. I got on, and of course, it was more than I would have liked, and I am ruminating on it. Maybe it would be less in the morning? Where am I in my cycle? Maybe I should have a short period of dieting to trim down a bit and then get back to mindful eating? So silly, I was pretty ok with my body until I saw that damn number.
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216 smoke free
2 binge free
2 moderate keto
I had a wonderful day with my partner. We visited a beautiful spa. Itâs my birthday today and I am really happy I had a happy, light, beautiful day, filled with love and gratitude.
Hugs to all of you 
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Day 2005 : No binge today.
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913 sugar
777 UPFs
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Belated happy birthday dear, @DanielaJ 
Do I get it right that your bâday is 22nd of May?
Anyways, I am wishing you all the best 
Loooots of happiness and love and all your dreams to come true 
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Day 2006 : No binge today.
@DanielaJ If it was your birthday recently, happy happy belated birthday!!! 
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915 sugar
778 UPFs
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Yes, it is Thank you friend. I had a wonderful day.
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Day 218 smoke free
4 binge free
4 moderate keto
I am doing good with my recovery tools and very grateful for being binge free.
Have a peaceful day, everyone!
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12 hours
I had like 5 days in until last night. I ate something on my âdo not eatâ list as it can trigger the food obsession to come back. I dont even know if i binged (I think I did tho). I ate those Special K bars (not sure if u know what those are). They are sweet and 100 calories a pack. Well i ate 4 packs in 1 sitting. They are small but i still ate 4 of them 
So I decided that i needed to reset. But im still working on this and Im noticing that i have made progress in alot of areas. The 12 steps of OA is really helping me be more self aware, helping me in my relarionships with others, and in just being a better person all around.
Hope everyone is doing well! Seems like u all are Have a great day everyone!
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Day 2007 : No binge today.
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Glad to hear you had a nice birthday, @DanielaJ
I was double checking because it was my dadâs bâday too. I have him over in the UK now, we were also celebrating 
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Hi @Butterflymoonwoman
Itâs interesting. Do you consider a binge based on amount of calories then? 
Because otherwise Iâd say that a few small bars is not a binge (especially if you used to eat much more than that). But obviously it seems that youâre bothered by eating it because a) itâs on your list of trigger foods (which I assume you want to avoid) and b) has high calories.
I never counted calories so for me it was always only about amount of the food rather than anything else. Iâve never thought about it from your point of view.
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916 sugar
779 UPFs
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219 smoke free, 5 binge free, 5 moderate keto.
Happy with my eating, still struggling with food noise, especially in the evening. Ugh, I wish I could make it disappear.
Have a peaceful day, everyone
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