Welcome Freckles.
Our addiction to alcohol or any DOC is so fucking powerful. Look how powerful it is with you in your own words. 
”I gave up drinking last year for two months and during that time only good things came into my life.”
Yet we still think we can drink.
Addiction is Satans finest work and I don’t believe anyone can over come addiction by themselves. We all need help fighting that bastard. There is a great bunch of people willing to help in this forum. I will try and copy and paste some resources for you to look at.
My wife and I drank together a really long time. My poison. And it is poison. Was a nice bottle of Cabernet. So I get the wine thing. Wifey and I had a good talk almost a year ago when I told her how serious I was to committing to my sobriety. She has been very supportive. But she still drinks. I’m only responsible for my sobriety.
One day at a time.
Think of all that you have to be grateful for when you’re not drinking and write it down every day. There’s a gratitude thread on here. You’ll see me there every single morning for the past 366 days. I have some much to be grateful for and I write it down every morning. Puts me in a great frame of mind for the day.
Sorry if I’m so long winded. Just reached my one year sobriety here and it’s such a blessing. I guess I’m a little hyped up 
