So sorry that the cravings were bad. Our addiction really does like to try and keep us in isolation. So grateful you did not delete the app. More grateful that you didn’t feed the cravings.
Glad to hear the surgery went well overall and your baby is recovering. Sending healing vibes and home she recovers quickly 
Well done @Blanka. I am so glad you didn’t delete the app. I heard someone say at a meeting that while we were in the rooms feeding our sobriety our addiction was out in the carpark doing pushups. It really does seem that way. Such a relief to know that we can come here, call someone, get to a meeting, go for a walk, have a hot bath, get into bed with a film on Netflix, and so on to get through it. We just have to trust those that have gone before us on this road when they tell us it gets easier in time.
All these special people with thousand plus days can’t be wrong! Hope you have a good day sober today. x
@Lastry @Sticky @JazzyS @LittleMissL Im so very grateful for having you here and in my life, for many years I was trying to do this alone, such a game changer having you around 
Exercising is what I want to come back to. I used to love it. Even worked as a fitness trainer when I was young 
have a lovely, sober as fxxk day 
xxx
Please be strong, I believe in you, maybe I should change the name of this thread for ‘Blankas and Stickys check-in’? 
lol, I think that would be good for both of us, and we started on almost same day. We could check on each others here, share our experiences and hopefully have others supporting us… let me know if you are in?
10 days sober, almost 11pm here and I just realised I didnt feel any cravings today. None!!! So it is possible! And maybe it really is getting easier in time!
Congratulations on your double digits !!!
@Sticky Great work on not giving in to the cravings. I love that you came here and read …I found that to be super helpful on my really hard days
You two are doing amazing… keep stacking up the days 
Woo Hoo 
Congratulations on your 10 days Blanka
Great Job 
Thats so funny 
lol thanks
Ten days is a big deal.
I’m glad you found us.
Yes I know. Addicted brain tactic lol ‘They are fighting back!!! They won the battle but the war is not over! Lets trick them to believe that they are safe so they loose their guards…’ but we lived and we learned right? 
So my friend… your name is in, this thread is officially yours to check-in every day… no way back this time!!! Have a lovely sober day and keep us posted xxx
Whatever works best for you and a bit of pressure is good LOL you are being watched now 
‘especially this thread’ LOL, thank you!!! That’s because this thread is the best! 
I’m 2 days behind you (please never ever let me get ahead of you ) 12 days tomorrow. Today working all day and as expected (after dealing with too much nonsense at work) on my way from work I had to speed up to safely pass by the local supermaket. Cravings easy to manage and I made it and I am back home now and I feel so very good!
I need your advice guys, mabe just reassurance… its personal but also alcohol related so I think you might be the best people to ask. In exactly 1 week my ex boyfriend is having his birthday, big one. Our relationship broke around 3 months ago, for me it is still fresh, Im slowly coming to terms with being without him. Our 1 year relationship even though lovely was very intense, full of ups and downs, also full of alcohol… Alcohol was always there mainly because of me, he loved seeing me relaxed so bottle of champagne was always waiting for me in his fridge. I was quite honest with him about my drinking problem but he was always reassuring me saying that I judge myself to harshly and that I can drink in moderation ( which I usually failed). So… to the point… I don’t know if I should contact him (text/call/email) on his big day… I feel like I should… like I want to… but what if he answers, what if he will want us to meet up… I know myself and I know that could be too much to handle without alcohol… very high risk of relapsing. I feel safe and calm where I am now and when I miss him I am not even sure if I really miss him or maybe just my old lifestyle.
I know you cant tell me what to do but I do appreciate your opinions xxx
I think you have answered your own question. Knowing that a reconnect would lead to a relapse is not a healthy relationship to gravitate towards. I know it hurts and you do miss the relationship/ maybe the lifestyle or both but this will heal.
In my opinion it is best to make a clean break. Any time I tried to stay connected with my ex (even if it was just texting and nothing else)- we always ended up back together. I had to block him and not go back.
And give this topic a read also, it could help straighten out your thinking. Remember, our thinking, our logic, is twisted by years of drinking, and like they say in AA - “I shouldn’t go into my head alone, it’s a bad neighborhood.”
@JazzyS @SinceIAwoke thank you, I know I am still so fragile, like I cant handle feelings without alcohol, lets be honest few days ago I had bad cravings after just visiting hairdressers lol i laugh but it is sad, I feel like I need to avoid life to stay sober, I cant wait to be stronger than that… I guess I need to make recovery my priority, someone here quoted their therapist ‘whatever you put before sobriety, you will lose’…
