Welcome to Talking Sober friend. I hope you can find the support you need here. I think you might. I know it’s a great step to post for the first time and I applaud you for doing so.
I’m single so I can’t give you direct advice on how to proceed. But if there’s one thing I learned from becoming sober and clean nearly four years ago, it is that am doing this for myself in the first place. Sobriety and the rest of my life. I’m doing this for me, and the rest follows from that.
Anyway, there are many here that are in the same boat as you. I give you some links to other threads here that try to deal with it. The top one is the most recent and active one I think. Welcome again and wishing you all success.