I woke up 4 or 5 times through the night. Right when I do I think of her and start having a anxiety attack causing me to stay awake for some time, force my brain to travel, and focus on my breathing. I want to call her, I want to dig in deeper, it doesn’t feel like my actions should have ended something so wonderful. But then again, that’s only my side of the story.
@Bigzz. Sorry to hear you are struggling. I hope you sleep better tonight. Maybe some soft rain forest sound in the back ground would help you rest better. 
It got better, only woke up once but had the same thing happen and this one lasted a LOT longer. 