Hey guys and girls. After a few months hiatus from the site, I’m back and need your support once again. In fact when I logged in today, it would have been my year anniversary sober today. Huh. Except I started drinking again in August. One weekend in August, then a couple parties in September and October, then a few more nights in November after my husband asked me for a divorce, then throughout December I was on track to go back to my hard drinking patterns of before. But today I’m stopping myself. I know if I start drinking the way I used to I’ll probably kill myself from depression. The 8 months sober I did was amazing, and I feel like it’s not as hard this time as it was a year ago.
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We’re excited to have you back! Get back at it. A sober life is always going to be a happier one.
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Welcome back, I wasn’t here to meet you last time but looking forward to seeing you around and sharing in your wisdom learned
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First, welcome home. I am happy you came back.
Second, I am sorry about the divorce. Regardless of whether it’s for better or worse, it’s still a difficult thing, I know.
Last, you know what I am going to say about saying “no” to the drink that matters…the first drink, and saying “no” to the hardest person to say “no” to…yourself. What are you prepared to do to make this real?
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I don’t know Stevie. All I can do is be sober today and go forward and hope that I can make sense of this mess and create a new life. Funny thing is that I started drinking again because my husband seemed like he missed me drinking socially. I could sense the distance between us and thought maybe I could be a social drinker. But I can’t. He doesn’t even realize my drinking escalated so quickly, except since he came out and asked for the divorce, whence I went off the deep end for the last month. What should I do?
I literally just shared my off the wagon story too. Felt like i could control it. I feel like to stop I sit and do nothing like no life wth
Escalate. Where you going to meetings before your relapse? If not, then I would suggest this. Meetings are my next step, if I were to ever relapse. If you were going to meetings, did you have a sponsor? If not, then this would be an escalation. Were you exercising regularly or meditating before to help relieve stress? If not, I’d highly recommend doing this.
Your next step is pretty much up to you, but your success requires this. What you did before worked, but for whatever reason, it stopped or you stopped, but I would figure out the escalation step now, and nothing says it has to only be one step.
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Welcome back. Is AA apart of your program? If not I suggest checking out a meeting, they’ve been super beneficial to me.
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Welcome back, was hoping you were okay. Sorry to hear about the drinking and problems with your husband. Drinking sure is not going to help that. For me, I would focus on my sobriety one day at a time…however that looks for you. Talk to your husband, be honest, see where you are both at and how you can move forward in a positive way.
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Drinking and a marriage that is breaking down dont really mix well.
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Welcome back 
hope you do well with this attempt and look forward to reading more of your posts
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Thanks Sassyrocks. I was maintaining ok until the divorce bombshell. I honestly didn’t see it coming at all- especially after almost a year of sobriety. I guess it was just too little too late. I am going to be sober one way or another. Now isn’t the time to drink myself silly again.
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I stopped being vigilant and forgot how insidious alcohol can be. Last year was my first real try at sobriety. This was a relapse pure and simple. Now I know what that feels like.
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You have the right attitude…sober, no matter what!!
Exactly! I don’t have enough experience to give you advice but I can tell that you know what it takes. Feel free to pm me if you want to vent. Trust me, not being in a relationship is much better than being in a bad relationship, however hard the transition is. Hang in there. Much love. 
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Hmmm escalate. I guess I do need some extra help this time. Especially because of the extra emotional issues I’m dealing with.
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If something is chasing you, you escalate by running faster. If something is blocking you, you escalate by hitting harder. Same applies to addiction: If the nail won’t go, get a bigger hammer.
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Just for today! Everyday! You got this! Nice to meet you and welcome back 
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Well, that didn’t pan out. I am back, one day sober after a 3 year bender. Only by the grace of God was I not arrested or end up in the hospital or dead. I can’t believe it, I really am am alcoholic, and God help me to be sober again…I so embarrassed, I have reset a few times in the last year and posting this was sooo hard. But I can’t chicken out. I need face the truth so I can move ahead.
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Welcome back. Here’s to one day down…you can do this 
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