Whatever it takes. I seem to need to consume copious amounts of carbs too. 
- Coffee. One more early shift followed by a late shift tomorrow. I can do this. Just like I can keep myself clean and sober one day at a time. In fact staying sober and clean is a lot easier because I really want to do that. I love the sober and clean me. Nothing good came for me from using. Now I really see the trouble I am in and now I have the possibility to do something about it all. Thanks for being here. It helps. You help. Have a good sober and clean day all. Love from Amsterdam.
Day 37. Checking in. Counseling this morning. Feeling really calm and happy.
- A lot of growth has happened this month I feel. I don’t want to sound so up and down all the time but that’s just how I am I guess. I thought that would be different since being sober. But if anything it’s more extreme because, well my previous up and downs before were caused by alcohol or numbed by it etc.
Well here I am feeling better today after a rough couple weeks. Just for today I am happy lol
Day 423 
Survived yesterday, but it was a tough one. No cravings at the end of it, but as it were natural I took my reward of chocolate.
Normally I would have drank.
Today is me time I decided, so I go shopping with my 18 year old daughter in Den Haag. We go by train, it’s more then 1 houre traveling.
Counting the days…next week I’ll see the final design my tattoo artist made for my 1 year sober back tattoo 

Aw thank you my friend
I wouldn’t be here without you guys!
@Girlinterrupted congratulations on your 50 days sober. So so glad to see your numbers growing.
Day9 sober here and excited. I think I can do it no matter what. I need my sobriety back and enjoy being present.
@Jenyoyo thanks 
@Mno God bless your soul!!! Your check in and all your posts brings light to this thread. You are such a gift here!!! 


Thank you 
Mooie munt
Congrats
@Shell on your 1 year of sobriety. Wishing you plenty sober days always. Blessings!

Checking in
Thank you
x
Ha, I’ve missed the cat. Well done Shell! 
He missed you too! 
@SoberWalker tattoo goals = awesome!
Day 73 Not much to add other than it’s damn cold outside. I’d rather stay home, drink coffee by my fake fireplace heater and read forum posts.
Day 134
Bit of a bad night’s kip, little one up and down all night so unsettled as not feeling too good, lots of hugs and tlc
Another day with cuddles and cartoons
Work tonight, stamina or coffee massive, lol 



Thanks for the kind words mate and appreciate it. She must of picked it up at school god love her but the cartoons are more entertaining tbh haha

Hollands next work model
