Ooooh!!! Give meetings a go. What have you got to lose? 
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@anon12657779 @C_8 @keiti
Thanks for your support and input
I guess I’ve been scared to attend the first meeting. I am sure I will feel differently after the first one. Not sure where the fear comes from.
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Fear of the unknown?
Fear of the finally, kinda making it official.
Here I am, I am an alcoholic!
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@Dolse71 Congratulation on 80 and 40 days. That’s great. Thank you for your honesty and your encouragement to us newbies.
@anon65470292 I can relate so much. I felt quite anxious today about work, so I had loads of sweets. This happened a few times now and there is this voice in my head telling me, that it is fine, that I have to reward myself with sugar, because I’m not drinking. I want my life back as a reward. I don’t want to trade compulsive alcohol consumption for compulsive sugar consumption.
@Girlinterrupted I’m sorry, that the process takes so much longer. I hope everything goes smoothly eventually. Thank you for sharing your story here every day.
It’s day 25 for me. Almost a month. I’m glad I decided to stop drinking. It wasn’t easy today. I want to create some kind of “first aid kit” with tools and strategies that I can use to deal with stressful and emotional situations.
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Geo, you have a way with words and humor, lol.
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Yesterday(1/20/20) I hit 2 years!!! It’s been a crazy journey so far but I’m loving it!!
How are my sober twins?!
@CaptAZ
@Serenity412
And anyone else I missed?
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Day 4 .
Today was quite hard for me ! Nothing special happened, but I made complex my day by myself ! 
. So I decided that during normal work day I could make some “ trading on line” with raw materials, in order to earn some extra money . What a stupid idea!
I already know that this is not for me , as I am an alcoholic and this kind of job cause me anxiety and bad feelings. Anyway I did it without thinking that if I want to stay sober, I can’t make these kind of things.
So … at the end the trading was quite good but I risked too many money but apart money I risked my shaky sobriety!!
So the teaching of the day for me is : no more stupid things that can give me anxiety or something bad for an alcoholic like me!
I will try to stop these “risky things “ with all my strength and with your help , because reading TS really helps me a lot !!
Now day 4 has gone 
without alcohol and this is most important thing ,but I promise you to try a better day tomorrow ! Hugs to all of you
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Nice one Emily!
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I’m pretty sure that everyone fears their first meeting. Actually in my case, each new meeting (I’ve read a lot about trying different ones until you find where you’re most comfortable). It’s just fear of the unknown. Fear of embarrassment. Fear of ‘owning up’. Wise people here have said that being uncomfortable is a step in the right direction, as you’re making changes / breaking away from old habits
I don’t think movies helped my meeting anticipation! They’re not all doom and gloom!! 
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Ouch…probably a little of both.
Thanks for kicking my arse!!!
(added smileys)
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Geo gets to the point quick!
You’re going to be fine, you gave it to me straight when I needed it!
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Thanks! No room service but tonight they have a complimentary supper, which is fajitas. Was going to order delivery but we’ll save the money and eat here. And free breakfast buffet. Not super fancy but fun nonetheless. Love that there’s two separate bedrooms, kitchen, two baths… almost like a mini apartment. Just had a swim. Little guy had eye surgery just before he was 2 years old. Seeing the eye specialist for annual checkup 
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Love the complimentary supper and breakfast!
Funny story, well kind of, when I detoxed myself this last time I purposely chose a hotel that had the complimentary dinner and breakfast. I was able to gather enough food from both of those to keep me well fed each day! There’s some advise for fellow addicts!
Hope the little guys eyes check out, they are kind of important!
Enjoy your stay!!
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You know I love ya!
Don’t forget to tell us what it was like.
Once you get in there it’ll be cool!
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Day 55. I went to a therapist yesterday to try to work through some of my anxieties and stresses. I want to work on what made me want to drink and get better at handling stress without wanting to check out. I want to check in, even when it’s hard. She gave me a funny bit of homework: spend 15 minutes per day worrying and being present with your fears. Journal what you’re most scared of. If you run out of worries early, you still have to keep sitting with it. I tried it today, realized I felt much better after 3 minutes. Ran out of fears, once I’d let myself look them in the eye they weren’t so awful.
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Nice… it is fun buying stuff with DOC money!!!
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I don’t think that you’re overthinking. I think you’re really mindful and honest and that mindfulness and honesty are an important part of recovery and healing.
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