Checking in day 21. Im feeling even worse this morning regarding my sickness. I thought i could have been lucky making yesterday a night on the couch with serious amounts of camomille tea with honey. But no. Normally it helps on my sickness sleeping, but i havent really been able to sleep, since every time i breath it hurts in my throat. If im lucky i have gotten maybe an hour to 1,5 hours of sleep through the night. And i feel so terrible, but have to go to work, since people are starting doubting if im really sick when i call in sick. So i hope they see that and hopefully sends me home.
Day 46 done, and it was a long one. I had to attend a tradeshow for work, our company was one of the vendor’s so I set up and manned the table. There was a good deal of alcohol flowing because it was a late afternoon show. It didn’t bother me as much as annoy me. Not because I wanted to drink, surprisingly I didn’t want to, but just watching how sloshed the attendees and other vendors were getting. Oh, well. I made it through. And now begins day 47 since it’s after midnight here.
Day 451. It’s been a hard couple of days. I’ve been tired, anxious, hungry for connection that isn’t there, frustrated with where I’m at in life, and stressed. I haven’t been able to focus on what I feel I need to. I feel like I’ve hit the maximum activity level I can manage at the moment, and it’s not enough for where I want to take things. I also recently had double medication changes, which has been a bear to adjust to.
But I’m still meeting and on track for every goal I’ve set with my psychologist and everyone else I work with on my mental health. Life objectively is good, I just don’t feel so great about it and myself at the moment.
73 days (just about): just needed to check in. Had a couple of good days and one bad day, I can live with that ratio for now. Still sober, still improving, every day is a new day.
day 500 has started
But called in sick at work and feeling blah
Haven’t done much more then sitting or laying on the couch coughing and sneezing lately. Husband was away abroad for work but he arrived here again yesterday late. So today we can eat normal again. Last days were pizza and take away dinners. Couldn’t cook for my kids.
Well I’m not good at this: beeing sick. I hate it!
I feel so sorry for myself, I hate that feeling. I hate feeling weak.
But beside all that I will reach that 500 number today! Without a doubt!
Thank you for the shout out @Bob123, @anon65470292, @Dolse71 Very sweet of you to think of me. Hope to be my own self again soon. But don’t worry about my sober me, that’s not at stake!
Note at self:
My weekend is here. Not planning on doing much. I got a cold (not as bad as @SoberWalker though, feel better soon Claudia! Happy your husband is there). Run some errands and do some chores. Read and learn a bit I hope. Stay sober and clean. And dream of my upcoming vacation of course. Hope the wildflower season will be just as spectacular as it was in 2017 when I first visited Texas. @JamieG sorry about that lady, some ferocious pets you got! @Francisco1 sorry for your loss. May Rauly rest in peace. @ifs Two recent medication changes James. I’m sure that takes a lot of adjustment. Small steps friend. Keep going and don’t get too frustrated. Not everything can and will go at the speed you want it to. ODAAT. Good times and bad ones. We keep going. I think you are doing absolutely amazing. You’re a huge inspiration.
Have a great day all! Sober and clean that is. Love from Amsterdam and Texas in April 2017.
180 of DOC today. One week away from 180 milestone for full sobriety of substances.
Feels crazy it was about 6 months ago.
I used up to the last moment I could…
I went to the airport and when the train rolled in to take me there I threw away the bud off my last unit. It was 9:30 in the morning if I remember correct.
Well that is all history. Today I will not use and work my sobriety
absolutely effing brilliant, don’t strees about your ill day, I’ll tell what ill is, drinking for the last 500 days. Waking up today clean and sober yep that’s totally sick dude
Morning sober world. Really happy to wake up and see some great numbers today, actually just really happy to wake up , It’s day 89 no alcohol and day 49 no weed and tobacco. Can’t wait until tomorrow I’ve had an envelope sat beside the bed for 3 days with my 3 month sobriety coin in it and I’ll be able to open it. It’s been like Xmas all over again. Be strong today guys and gals, find joy in the little things, @joy don’t know why you’ll be in them??. Find peace in yourself.
Good morning! Checking in at 128.49 days sober and 28.44 days ED free <— still slightly in shock. Not sure when I’ve made it this far with the ED.
I joined a new gym yesterday. The fear and anxiety of just walking in there was beyond overwhelming. It’s a lot smaller than my other gym, and closer to home. I’m spoiled, living in an urban area I don’t like to travel more than 5 minutes, this is like 3, my other one is around 15 or a wee less. I will keep that membership as well so I can take my little one. Anyway, that was huge for me as my social anxiety is reaching new levels. I’m going to fight it as hard as I can. I never feel good enough to be in a gym, like I don’t belong. Now I just have to get there. I have events every night this week, so will start back Monday.
I joined a team of folks from one of my networking groups to do a spartan race in April. I’ve trained zero. I told them I wasn’t going to do it, and they pep talked me and promised I could swing it. It’s a shorter and easier race. So, eff it, I’ll try.
Was out late at a networking event with my new guy last night. It sucked until towards the end when everyone was shitty. I don’t know what it is, but drunk people are entertaining and at the same time I’m so glad I’m not them
Heading in to Day 54. I didn’t hear back about the dog I applied to adopt. I see she has a Facebook rescue page and I messaged a question too but no response. Decided to check his link and it says he’s adopted. Ah well. Guess it’s not meant to be. Hopefully he found a good home. I imagine he got so many applications! When the time is right, the right rescue pooch will come along.
Very sweet of you to think of me. Hope to be my own self again soon. But don’t worry about my sober me, that’s not at stake!
Sorry 
Congrats, 500 days sober, yay! Keep on rocking your sobriety ODAAT!
