Day 66. I was texting with my teenager and joking. She sent the wine emoji. I said nooo, 66 days. She asked if I feel better. I said yes, which isn’t always 100%true but it’s more true than not. She said she was very happy I’m making a positive change. I feel good about it both for me and for my kids, for showing them you don’t need alcohol and you can change for the better at any age.
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Hearted it not because it is a good thing, but because I feel for u.
Weekends are temptation free for me as dh around. Today helping with homework with the 4th grader, take the little one to a park maybe.
Weird benefit, but flossing teeth SO much more!
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Wow that really sucks. Are you ok Darren?
Congratulations on 60 days Kevin!!
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Yep fine Thankyou. I was reversing not concentrating on what I was doing. Just gutted because a little mistake like that can be so costly 
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I have had a rough day with my 19 year old daughter. Its been hard not to run off and grab a drink when she argues with me. Instead i went on a brisk walk and burned off some steam cleaning and decluttering a little. Not giving in!
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It resulted in a beginning of self-acceptence and that’s where the real grwoth and change starts.
This really resonates with me. Thank you for your post 
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Checking in on my day 6. My gout flare up is almost gone so maybe I can actually do something tomorrow. I’m surprised that I havent really had the desire to go to the bar. This isnt necessarily an odd occurrence during the weekend because friday was usually a day to go to the bar, leave and get some liquor, go home, black out, and suffer all of saturday. Today was different. Today I did as much as I could around the house, cooked a healthy dinner, and just have enjoyed relaxing while watching tv and researching random subjects online.
On to day 7.
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Looking good Kevin! That’s great to see… woooooohaaaaaa! 
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Oh no!! Hope you’re ok? Sorry that happens to you my friend.
@Mtrav0040 thank you!!! Day 12 sober. Back to work and to stress is not pleasant. I miss the days of prayer but I try to embrace hardships and not y the o be scared of temptations
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BOOM! Day 48!
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Day 25, i think.
At a wedding right now and I’m a month into a new goal of no booze. It’s a middle circle behavior of mine to drink in excess and besides, it’s poison that never sat right with me anyway. Since I started going ro AA big book study meetings I felt that I needed to be doing this.
I’m taking a break in my room and I can’t work up the desire to go back. The dance won’t be over for 4 more hours. I know my wife probably wants me there but I did tell her that I wouldn’t be drinking. Dancing while sober is a bit petrifying to me at the moment and that wasn’t something I even considered. I feel a bit like a stick in the mud.
Earlier in the day I came close to wrapping up my 4th step and I’m in a bit of a contemplative and raw state. Being around a lot of people is taking it out of me.
I’ll just try to remain present and take breaks to read here when I need to.
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@Shannon1980
That is part one of the Smart tools; find something else to occupy your time to avoid the urge. You are doing great and will make it to a full two weeks!!! Great job on walking. You did two things: 1) get some exercise 2) avoid drinking
Hang in there, you are doing great!!!
Post and keep posting if you need to.
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31 days without alcohol. I’m typically always upbeat, always positive. That’s just my nature.
Overall, I feel fantastic without alcohol.
But the past couple of mornings I’ve woken up grouchy, grumpy, unmotivated, and irritable, especially toward my partner.
Everything he does seems to annoy and I know it’s not fair.
He’s kind, supportive, and wants to be helpful so I feel like an asshole for feeling like this.
But I’m fiercely independent and hate being hovered over.
I don’t talk to him about what I’m feeling. Feelings are difficult for me to talk about anyway which is probably part of the reason I drank so much.
I enjoy numbness and without alcohol I suppose I’m feeling more than I’m used to.
If I know he means well why is he irritating me so much all of a sudden???
Is this normal?
Has anyone had a similar experience/reaction?
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@Shannon1980 totally get that! But you kept focused thats really good well done. I never cleaned so much but starting to love my home again. Instead of living in a mess… have a better Sunday and breathe deep 
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Absolutely Sarah! We are rocking!
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Day 454. One pound? Lol.
A very full, mixed day. Don’t feel like talking much about it. So here is an emoji story.
What I hoped for: 
What I got: 
Trying not to let the bad parts ruin the whole day. Tomorrow had better be pretty chill, I don’t want to start the week already drained…
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Day 52! Today wasn’t so bad, I got a lot of homework done which made me feel good and got to chill out a little during the day which was nice. I’m definitely in “the wall” stage of recovery and I can feel it now that the honeymoon is over. But I’m still committed to sobriety and going forward in my life!
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