Day 458. Agggghh.
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Why the “Agggghh”?
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Well your days dwarf mine and give me hope to keep going… So I’m glad you decided to share what’s going on. Anything we can do to help?
Awww @ifs James… Not a Agggghh! Still struggling to balance it all? I know you’ve been a little concerned with how much you have going on and had a hard time finding down time. You ok?
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A jumble of things. Today is causing my emotion glands to overproduce.
It’s not very peaceful at home in general (for example, people shouting outside my door right now), so I feel like I only regenerate when I sleep. Also my siblings’ school went on lockdown all day due to a threat that in the end never materialized. Then something that had made me angry several days ago got brought up in my face today when I least expected it, which stirred it all up again and also ruined my piano time because I was just garbage after that. I’ve done nothing all day other than keep up with what I’ve scheduled because I’m so distracted, not to mention unmotivated to do much else. And my eating has been off/lacking for a while now, so between that and everything else I’m just wearing thin. Going to just hang tight and just do what I can for now. At least the eating is under my control, just hard.
Oh and I’m pretty sure I’m starting tomorrow by getting 5 teeth pulled (wisdom teeth + 1). So that’ll be fun.
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Thanks, I’m okay, just need to focus on using all my tools and coping skills to get through. The balance is part of it, but also just digesting the day’s emotions.
Yikes!!! That’s a LOT. I feel overwhelmed just reading it all, never-mind actually experiencing it. Glad your sibling is ok and good luck at the dentist.
This is probably a dumb question. Does your intense treatment feel like it’s going to get you to a better place, or is it too soon to tell?
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Great numbers, 
Congrats to 500 days of sobriety. Keep stacking them numbers, you’ve got this!
Blessings and sobriety!
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Haha sometimes I have my doubts! But just when it feels most overwhelming and my subconscious starts looking for an escape. I’m making so much improvement with it. There’s a ways to go still, but on the anxiety side, I’m already doing stuff I couldn’t before. And I’m still in the first half of it. A lot of my life is still locked behind mental health bars, I’ve got some pretty big goals that will open up if I can stick to this.
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Wonderful attitude! I want to be like you when I grow up. Son. 
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I have plenty of behind-the-scenes footage of my life that might make you reconsider that statement 
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Way to go, 400 days sober. Keep on keeping on!
Blessings and sobriety!
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Day 36 done.
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Day 56! 
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80 Days: Haven’t been checking in as much as I used to, but happy to have been sober for 80 days and haven’t felt this good in years. Work couldn’t be better. I’ve been hitting the gym 6 days a week, feels amazing getting back into shape and officially back together with my second ex wife, lol. Long story but it’s a good thing, she’s a recovering addict as well and supporting each other has been great.
Still taking things one day at a time. Consistantly working on keeping my ego and expectations in check. Focusing on the good in every day. Working out has done wonders on helping with the depression I was dealing with. Reading, journaling and meetings have been huge for my mental and emotional health.
So grateful for the support and advise I have received from this community. Looking forward to catching up with everything that has been going on here this weekend.
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- Spotted this reminder of winter ending. Made me happy. Made me think I did became sober in late spring last year. Made me proud. Keep going all. It’s worth it. And so much better then staying under the influence. Thanks for being here all. Together makes all the difference. Sober and clean love from Amsterdam.
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70.08
My dreams are coming true. 
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