You are strong and resilient! What an amazing inspiration!! Stand tall, you deserve to feel proud of yourself and your parenting and your sobriety 
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Hey. Checking in day 33.feeling anxiety kicking me today. I also woke up with a flash backs and feeling really akward. My minds arent good. I feel like I have been drinking last night and I did not!!!I dont know how to explain. Its just strange… Like a control taking from me while beeing sober?!?. Does this sound strange? I really dont have the words how to describe it. Feeling lonely and sad. Even when i write this I feel like Ive been drinking while I did not and im so prou at myself. Does anyone can relate what im saying here??? Or am I really mad? 
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Yesterday was 365. I almost forgot it was my soberverssary. But today I woke up, checked the app and saw 366 and Im beaming. I feel comfortable now in my new life, heart, body and mind. I feel like today is the first day of the rest of the life I want and was meant to live. 
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Great news!! Congratulations on your hard work and first year!!
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That is SO wonderful!!! Congratulations on your first sober year! What’s your favorite change so far?
Checking in on Day 16.76. Ready for the weekend!
Have a strong day!!!
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Hello @Ish
I will occasionally catch myself in a thought pattern, or maybe even stub my toe or something, and the first thought that pops into my head is “Geez, I gotta quit drinking.”
I haven’t had a drink in 5+ months, but sometimes apparently my brain thinks I am.
Go figure.
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Congratulations @jms.
Sober for 1 year!
Congratulations @aircircle.
Sober for 300 days!
Congratulations @nick_1985
Sober for 400 days!
Congratulations @Fireweed
Sober for 10 months!
Congratulations @Dejavu
you’re having a baby!
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@Ish in my first several months, I would often have that feeling. I would describe it as an emotional hangover. I felt tired, unfocused, distracted and foggy. It’s ok, you are doing great! Keep it up!! 
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Day 5 here. Waking up super sleepy but I’ll be good after coffee. Have a Great day all!! some really big numbers on here it’s very encouraging! Good job everyone 
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I was going to recommend this the other day. What better way to feel alive than to check some bimbo face first into the boards?
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Checking in. Day 143. Sigh.
I’m not feeling positive right now.
Depressed about my work life balance. Working 70 hours a week and still can’t pay all the bills.
Can’t sex away my bad feelings anymore. The fantasies are fading away in my life because I know better. They’re just fantasies that will never come true and its been clicking in me. And it sucks.
Used sex as a God, a cure all, hoping that I would discover that the world is one big orgy, and it’s not!
Not really content with my life right now. Dont like my bank job and I want to find something new. I’m just too chicken to look.
My phone locks have a 1 minute period where I disable them to add any apps or make changes to the settings. Usually, I just let them automatically renew. Have not touched them in over a month. But last night, I disabled them to try to get voice dictation working again. Unsuccessful, but was so down about my life that I contemplated watching some documentaries in YouTube.
boundary violation
Okay, bad idea, so I thought I would put my locks back on in the morning just in case I missed some important updates that I need to take care of.
another boundary violation
The locks were reapplied last night 15 minutes after I disabled them.
My addiction is cunning, baffling, powerful.
Glad I stayed sober. But it still sucks.
So I’m faced with 3 choices.
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Delve back into my addiction, the only world that I feel comfortable in, and feel good for a temporary moment until my life comes crashing down on me.
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Do nothing different watching myself live a sad existence with little happiness until I die.
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Make some major changes in my life with the hopes of being more content in my situation. That would include getting a different job.
Nuff said. Thank you, everyone.
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We require baby updates!
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Update #1: the hospital denied us our right to sleep in and want us to check in at 7am. We are not morning people and still slept in a little, we’ll blame it on traffic.
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Take it slowly. You seem to need a big change but do not hurry although it feels crappy right now. And remember, frustration, not feeling comfortable etc are a part of recovering. Start with one thing that needs a change… job searching is stressful job itself, but start with imagining what you wanna do next. If you know that already, then next step, and then next and…
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Oh no, so theres waiting to be done. Hopefully not very long time. ,
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