Day 14 checkin in
Yesterday my boyfriend was a bit drunk and i couldnt stand it. Was furious that he wanted to put our son to bed, because he’s behaving ridiculous and the smell of beer and cigarettes was awful. I think I wasn’t reasonable that I was so angry with him, when I did drink I hardly noticed he was drunk, and thought it was not a problem if he puts the little guy to bed. After our fight he took a shower and sobered up a little, but we couldn’t talk until today.
Wishing you all a lovely evening! Stay strong and don’t forget to smile from time to time.
I reset a lot recently. Nothing to be ashamed of. The key is you are trying. It is hard to re-quit, but when you commit do it all the way. I am on day 10 (after relapsing) and feel fantastic. Hang in there!!
Still sober AF here at the beach. The last couple days there were drunks everywhere some were pretty bad. Reminded me of why I don’t drink anymore. Can’t believe just how much alcohol plays such a big role in holidays everywhere. But I’m hanging in there and enjoying the sun and sand. Sober on ya all.
Day 50. It’s a good Monday, work is good. Tomorrow I will hit 51 days and it will be the longest streak I’ve had. I’m starting to see sober me come around, a me that doesn’t have to have alcohol to feel normal. It’s weird, lol. Who am I?? Guess I’ll keep going to figure it out.
Yeah, no. I mean i tried the AA audio files from youtube last time but I don’t like the concept and don’t want to be judged for going. I was reading about the HAMS method and I like the concept better but eventually moderation got away from me. The most effective thing for me has been the pouring out of my stockpile. Once its poured out, the memory sticks and I don’t go back to that form of drinking. Did it the first time with liquor and now this time with beer.
There’s plenty of other fellowships available other than AA if you’re interested. Dumping out the booze is always a good first step but it’s not really a plan of recovery. Maybe look in to SMART.
Thank you for the words of encouragement! I didn’t even see the forum when I first found this app. And I was shy to try it when I did finally see it. But now I’m trying to leave it open on my phone as a constant quiet reminder to reach out and to support.
I’m 27, work as a project coordinator for a construction firm. I started drinking more than socially as a way to destress from work (and by “more than socially”, it was about daily for 3-4 years). It rapidly went downhill from there after my dad was diagnosed and died from cancer (last year). I’ve been slowly climbing out of the “I’d rather be unconscious” headspace for a few months now but still was drinking. On top of that, I started abusing my legal prescription of adderall to cope with the constantly being tired and hungover at work.
I want my energy back. I want to be clear headed at work and be able to start dance classes again. I want my drive back.
That’s pretty much it in a nutshell.
Thanks for sharing a part of your story.
I really feel that you’re doing the right thing at the right time. I wish I had stopped at the end of my 20s. It gets harder and harder to maintain as you move into your 30’s.
DFW is a no BS town. I can imagine the pressures put on you by the job as well as by your coworkers.
Add to that, the loss of your father and yeah, I think we all get to that “rather be unconscious” mindset.
Adderall is very hard to kick, after a certain point.
Its imperative that you do so though. The drug crippled it brain and eventually, you can’t function without it. (Thanks Big Pharma! )
I know exactly what you mean by that! It’s crazy that I forgot just how capable I am of a good time without the assistance of booze. With alcohol, I forgot how to be baseline content and normal without it. Now I go stretches of time being content in my state of being without any mood altering substances. I used to “need” alcohol to “enjoy” damn near anything. I just came from the movies by myself and enjoyed it. A few months ago I’d have needed a couple of nips in my purse.
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