@Rob68 I hate head colds! So sorry. Hope it clears up soon. Thankfully a “cold” front is coming through this weekend so we’ll have high temps in the 80s instead of 90s! Glad you got a chuckle from my comment… it’s the truth.
Beautifully shared.
Today is amazing
I was triggered extensively yesterday. I was able to co-regulate with a trusted person. I woke up in extreme pain from armoring up (muscles).
I did EFT (emotional freedom technique) and started to release that somatic experience from the past to present. My muscles un-squeezed and no longer in PAIN.
Today I am regulated, calm and was able to come back and articulate to my Mom what happened and why. What happend in the past that triggered me. I am not angry anymore. She didn’t do it out of spite. She felt so bad. She immediately apologized when I came home. It was okay. I was a 4/10 on the emotional flashback but not I am a 0/10 now. I am back to homeostasis. It I beautiful to feel comfortable in my body again 
No ill pulls or feelings/threaten response towards my Mom.
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Morning! Have a fantastic sober weekend!
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Oh @LovelyLya I’m so so glad to read you are in a better place emotionally today! I know yesterday was quite a challenge. May today be filled with peace, love and light for you!
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Ah, Ludo. Well done.
You seem to be coming more aware of the workings of this disease and how it can be cunning, baffling and powerful. And how this is affecting you.
Stick with it. You’re doing ok.
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This sounds like addiction to me.
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@Girlinterrupted I understand that coffee may be something I need to quit too, along with diet coke, but I’ve decided I can only fight one battle at a time. So for now I continue. But your post has me wondering if I need to examine ALL of the addictions in my life, not just alcohol, to truly be sober. If I’m just replacing alcohol with coffee or sweets or carbs and having unhealthy relationships with what I consume am I truly sober?? Can someone even BE addicted to sparkling water and tea?? Because I’m drinking GOBS of those every day!
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Well, in my defense, I drink diet soda and I’m convinced the artificial sweetener is addictive. I don’t drink sugary drinks and use liquid stevia to sweeten my coffee just a bit. But I do need to get off the diet soda. So many studies show how bad it is. My husband is absolutely addicted to diet soda and has no intention of stopping. So that’s a problem I run into around the house. Like I said though, one battle at a time.
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Day 95. Sober life = my best life. I actually love the fact that I don’t drink. Life’s better when I don’t drink. I know that for sure.
Have a great day/night everyone 
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I’ve never heard of anyone go to rehab from drinking to much coffee. If you are early in sobriety just worry about keeping the drink down. You can worry about the other stuff later.
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Thank you so much for your kindness!
Felt like winter this morning on my bike ride. Not ready for cold. Wearing shorts today to thumb my nose at the weather. 70 degree cold 
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Coffee also has potential benefit to liver health 
so that’s a bonus!
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Early in sobriety the sugar thing is pretty common. I’m going to go off artificial sweeteners as soon as I’m done with my stash. I quit once for almost a year and didn’t notice a difference. However, now with IF, apparently they can mess with autophagy. Pretty much my main reason for fasting is helping my tbi and depression. It’s been miraculous, for me anyway.
Now, if I don’t notice a difference with my rosacea or whatever gut stuff my biome test is talking about, I’m so going back to coffee. I love that shit. My face is already a lot better though. Is it worth it? Ugly or coffee, ugly or coffee? Lol.
Yes, one thing at a time. The things I’m tackling right now kind of have synergies that support each other, so it’s working. When I was on here the first time, I focused solely on my drinking and then slowly widened my health focus. That comes naturally with time 
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- As useful as cake in a crisis.
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Day 6 almost 7.
Getting ready for bed. Long day, but happy I was able to for my very first time ever NOT get drunk or even drink at a work party. It was hard. The party lasted 2 hours longer than it was supposed to and since it was on a boat I was kinda stuck. But I did it. Now I’m going to crash. Wearing my fitbit to bed tonight as I’m curious what is happening with my sleep now that I’m not having my 3am awakenings. Not a drinker. Enjoying life in Recovery …thanks to everyone here who has helped me this first week.
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Likewise. It was cool when you came back around here. Good luck finding a church! Would be nice to find a good one where you could meet up with some people your age.
I have 2 churches within 2 blocks of where I live and a shit ton of others around.
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I’ve quit them before but inevitably go back to them. The first week off it’s like a flu hits you. It’s awful. It’s not the caffeine… It’s the chemical they use to sweeten. I know I can do it again since I’ve done it before. I just have to decide I want to and that it’s worth giving up. I think all of the tools I’m learning quitting alcohol will serve me well when I decide to break up with diet coke! I started drinking sparkling water for the fizz and that helps. I’m down to only 2-3 cans a day on average. But that’s still more than I should have. Thanks!
Yay! You did it! I KNEW you could. Have a peaceful sleep!
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