Day 137. I went out with my coworkers last night and had a great time. I am so happy I didn’t drink, and am not hungover this morning. It was the first time someone directly asked me “why” I don’t drink during dinner in front of a group.
I told him directly if I have one, it will turn into twelve, and it would be a problem. He wanted to pressure me a bit, but most of the other people said it was smart not to drink and were supportive. So I watched everyone else get drunk and had a really good time just chatting.
I really wanted to go because I think my coworkers are good people and I wanted to spend time with them. Nobody speaks English, so it was an excellent chance to practice Japanese as well. It was tough, but worth it.
Day 1 checking in. Really trying this time. I’m so tired of drinking and snorting cocaine and dont know how long my body will keep taking the stuff in. I need to make the change. I’m going to AA tonight and gonna make an effort to do daily meetings and post on this forum daily. Thanks and hope for all the support as I will do the same for everyone else.
Day 1 again. Made it to my 4th AA meeting today,
and two of those were back to back. I dunno but something feels different this time. Cautiously optimistic…
Day 17…tired, hungry and tired. So glad this work week is almost over. Mostly thankful that business has slowed or I’d really be cracking from stress. I reached a goal weight today and my husband was like “way to go, wine down Wednesday!” He replied with a “just kidding” before I could even ask “really?” Guess it slipped from his mind that I’m not drinking. Speaking of slipping, since I have done it so much this past year I’m sure he expects it sooner or later. He doesn’t say it, but that just what I figure. Hope everybody enjoyed a “wine-less” Wednesday.
Probably does. But do you blame him? I’m sure my wife thought the same after its taken me 2 years of continuous slips and relapses. She’s even said a couple of times that she doesn’t believe I’m not drinking.
But I know. That’s what matters. Honestly with yourself.
Your doing great, just concentrate on you.
Day 339
Not awake and I don’t think coffee is going to help today. Late in bed after the long drive from Germany and early out of bed because of work.
But off tomorrow so gonna focus on that
Have a great sober day folks
Day 76 (which in my book is the 76th day of my sobriety, so I’m 75 days sober. Might be a bit confusing so might switch to my sober days). Anyway, slept way too short. The dawn was nice though. Remember seeing it like this and feeling this way from when I quit smoking September 2015.
It’s still my long weekend. Looked at AA meetings to go to. Again. There aren’t too many in Amsterdam. Somewhat surprisingly. Might go tonight. Going for a walk now. Have a good sober day all.
Day 180. The app calls it half a year so ill roll with it. Im beginning to find out who I really am after years of hiding away from life. Thanks to everyone here for helping that happen
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