That’s gonna take a lil time, I couldn’t think of much either. I forgot what I loved, so I just went with exercise.did I like it? Hell no, but I started out slow and now I can’t get enough. Baught myself a mountain bike and hit that everyday. It starts to become and feel natural, I’m still trying to think of what else I might like. I want to try swimming along my lakes shore this summer. I bought a couple toy car models to put together, but I’ve yet touched them.but it will all start coming back to you soon, and you’ll be like oh yeah I use to love doing this.congrats on day 6 man
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18 months sober today, 547 days. Like many others, I am stuck at home, trying to keep my sanity in these trying times. Wife and little ones are doing a puzzle, oldest is playing minecraft with her BF, and who knows what the boy is doing, he just stays in his room… 
Stay beautiful gang.
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I’m gonna say something you’ve never heard.
Dan the man 
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Day 93 (booze) Day 0 (food)
My friend with cancer is back in hosp, only one or two more weeks now. Very hard to see her so frail and scared. Her family is back in Canada, so up to me and another friend to do a lot of practical stuff. The husband is AWOL a lot of the time, perhaps busy with their disabled son, perhaps just finding it all too hard. Of course, all thoughts should be with her. But this being a safe place where I can selfishly think how this makes me feel…I feel conflicted. In terms of alcohol, I don’t want to drink, I know it will make me feel worse, and I want to be there fully. In the past I have drunk in much less dire situations (hell, I visited her drunk in the hosp before), makes me realise how much wanting to drink is internal. If you have internally decided to be sober, then nothing external will trigger it. If you are still undecided, then any trigger will do it. (I am not looking down on others who have been triggered recently, I remember how real those triggers felt at the time, also am aware with only 3 months sober, I maybe should STFU). But with food, my first reaction was ‘everything is shit, fuck it’. How can I have understanding with one issue and still be struggling with another? Food won’t help either. In fact, one reason my friend’s cancer was so advanced when it was discovered is she was so large she didn’t notice the tumor. And they couldn’t operate either because she was too overweight. If I want to honor her, healthy eating is the way to go.
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Many thanks!!!
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Huge Congrats on 18 months Dan!
I thought it was amazing when I hit 6 months recently but wow, I can’t imagine having a year and a half under my belt. Stay strong!!
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Woo hoo! Congrats on 8 months Thomas!!
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I’m so sorry about your friend. I’m holding you both deep in my thoughts. She’s very lucky to have you 
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Awesome number Dan 
Congratulations and stay safe 
Congrats!!! 
Still on day 47… gonna run out of internet on my phone (I don’t have WiFi and just streamed all 10parts to the fall of the cabal on YouTube 
) so may not be checking in so much…stay safe and healthy…and it’s gonna be alright.,so long as I do not choose to drink alcohol ,gotta stop my sugar intake, totally addictive behaviour,hiding chocolate and devouring biscuits,not healthy.
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Thanks Lisa!
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Thank you!
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- The air is really clear right now. It’s really strange looking up at the sky and not wondering where the planes are going. I’ve not looked up at the sky much recently. Tonight though, I looked up at the sky and Venus was already showing quite early and I said to my stepdad “Looks like a nice place to be right now, eh?”
A couple days ago, I was in a meeting with the bosses and the assistant manager came towards us with the phone with the phone in her hand somewhat distressed. She explained that there was a woman on the phone in tears and would I speak to her; I thought it may have been my mother or sister or someone but no, it was a woman who lived locally who was stuck inside.
I took the calll to a lovely lady, very much on a nerves end. She explained to me that she, her husband and 14 year old daughter were isolating for 12 weeks. Her husband had a heart condition, type 2 diabetes, high blood pressure and asthma. They had all been pretty much ordered by their general practitioner to stay indoors because if he caught the virus, it would surely kill him.
Mrs Thompson told me that she had been to the supermarket to get supplies but there was nothing left. No fruit, no vegetables, nothing to meet their dietary requirements; her daughter was coeliac and she was desperate for help. I listened to her carefully and with no hesitation, my boss (also a fully trained chef), grabbed the biggest box we could find and loaded it with fresh fruit, fresh vegetables, gluten free products, gluten free flour, low salt products, toilet paper, cleaning products… she told me her daughter was complaining she had no fizzy drinks so we gave her a few cans of Sprite. She told me she wishes she could have a glass of wine with her husband… so we gave her a bottle of red. She told me they had recently taken up drinking beetroot juice … so I gave her 3 packs of beetroot.
One of the bosses drove to her house about 5 miles away. When he got back, he said to me; “Chef, she was in tears with a wad of cash in her hand. And what put it into perspective was it was the biggest house in the street with 5 cars on the drive. It just goes to show that no matter how much money you’ve got, when you’re stuck - you’re stuck.”
The next day, I went into work, cleared out my fridges and freezers and stocked up on bread and milk, we bought all the basic essentials needed for the local villages to come and get what they need or if they need, we will take it to them. I have gutted and disinfected my whole kitchen and we are offering a takeout/delivery service. This morning, I sent over a plan to my directors to help our local key workers by cooking meals and delivering them to local doctors surgeries, hospitals etc. I’m absolutely praying that it gets approved but if it doesnt, I’m going to buy the stock myself and do it anyway.
I’ve offered my knowledge on how to meal prep, stretch food out and also my time to local vulnerable people by offering to bulk cook for them. I’ve been personally contacted by the local community asking if I can spare some stock - My parents kindly delivered it to their houses.
I’ve had a rough week this week - My self styled Loner name tag is bent to fuck. I didnt want to wear it anymore… I really dug deep and found the confidence to take it off. Then we we were given the order to close shop and I was ready to bin the fucker and spend some time with my family. But the following day, I was told that if we didnt find a way to keep the pub open, we would all lose our jobs permanently. I’ll be working alone for the foreseeable in an empty pub but getting my full salary for it - I’m very fortunate for that. I dont have a problem with being a self styled loner but the fact that I’m essentially being cornered into being it when I wanted to try and integrate just a little bit more… it kinda hurts. And I want to stamp my feet.
I dont want to sound like I’m looking for praise…It wasnt difficult giving away some food to some people that needed it. It was the easiest thing I’ve ever done. I just wish we werent in a place where it had to happen in the first place.
I hope everyone here is well
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Checking in End of Day 12… Can’t complain about the weekend. Nothing going on for work anytime soon so I think I’ll find my way around this forum. Hope everyone else had a decent weekend too!
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Congratulations! I can’t even fathom that number, lol.
How long will it take for results?
I’m hoping to have them by tomorrow or Tuesday.
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