@zzz day 1 for me too! Let us don’t loose hope, let us learn and don’t be defeated. Union of prayers brother
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That makes me so angry and sad. People who prey on vulnerable people, it is despicable. I will send up a little vibe for peace and calm for your brother and you. You are a good sister. 
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your doing great mate. I used to just watch your numbers go up but now like many others you are starting to give me inspiration. For that I thank you. 
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Thank god you still gotta day 1, many won’t even get that far.
Proud of your determination. 
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Day 24.
Everyday has its goods and bads…
I’m trying hard to focus on the good, but I feel like it is in our nature to focus on the bad.
A good thought never truly “festers” quite like a terrible thought. 
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Amen to that, well done on your sober days.
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@zzz and @Bomdhil, I see you both on the hamster wheel of wanting to get sober. I commend you both for keeping at it despite your struggles and doing it so publicly here. I hope you will continue to work to string together more days and that you will be successful. I know it can be a process and I just wanted you both to know that I see you and keep working toward what you want…today is a good day to be sober.
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Thanks Sassy. That means a lot 
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Day 79. Almost 80!
I’m feeling okay. The corona crisis is going strong here in Belgium too. I hope it will be over soon. Life needs to continue at some point. How are you guys holding up wherever you are in the world?
Finally have internet and TV in my appartment after 2 weeks!!
Have a good sober friday!
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Many thanks! I know we have to do this for ourselves, but you never know who’ll take notice along the way, and find that inspiration!
Keep on keeping on, one day at a time!
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My heart goes out to you, get well soonest.
Blessings and sobriety!
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Day 50. Yesterday, I hit a turning point. Up until then, I felt like I was just drifting and not fully committed to my recovery. Yesterday I started to see things differently. I’m still taking it one day at a time but I’m starting to focus on the future. Honestly, it’s been easy to remain sober during the quarantine but what happens when it eventually ends? I’m going start laying the foundation to make sure I remain sober. I’m in this for the long haul now.
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Checking in on Day 67
Chugging along, using the lock down to do some necessary work on the garden whilst the sun is shining
Wishing everyone strength and Sobriety and a safe and healthy weekend
Marie
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as if things wasnt hard enough
Hi @Leveller, haven’t seen you around in a while. Hope you are safe and sober.
Blessings and sobriety my friend!
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So checking in day #4. Yesterday was a toughy, due to all the things i had planned, but got nearly every single step done. Today im tired and anxeity lvl is stepping down a bit. Went to get my medicine (antabuse) today, so check i have done that twice since my relapse, next time will be thuesday and its actually nice to get down their have a talk, see some other people than my boyfriend and then have a walk in the Sunshine.
Shame and guilt is still feelings following me. I have found out that it wont dissapear, at least not now, but as time goes by. Therefore i have tried to accept that its there and try not to think more about it. But those feelings have a tendency to kick me in my stomach a couple of times a day and then i have to think of someting else to do, than just start thinking about it.
Today i have 0 things planned - except that i went to get my medicine - and that is something i planned on purpose after yesterday. I just want to do Nothing today other than be me and be with my boyfriend. My boyfriend soon have a weeks holiday and i really hope that we can have his kids for a couple of days. I miss being with someone (other than just the two of us, which is lovely - but you know what i mean) i have lost nearly all my friends because of addiction and the lies that has followed me through my addiction. So i feel lonely - miss the friends i used to have. But that is just how it is and the consequences of my addiction - maybe one of the hardest to live with.
Other than loneliness im doing okay. Thanks for taking the time to read and thanks for your support. Today i choose not to drink, but stay sober. Stay strong guys
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102 alkohol
23 ciagerretes.
This whole isolation is devastating for my mental health.
Also already relapsed cus I started playing video games again.
I hope only until this covid situation will settle somehow.
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How’s the little one doing?
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Day 25. My binges used to be reserved for Friday-Saturday. That’s how it started, anyway, and continued, for several years. My husband and I enabled each other. I truly thought that he was the pusher most of the time. Since I stopped drinking, and he has cut back significantly with ease, I am realizing that I had at least equal and more likely much more influence on how often and how much we drank, especially in recent years. All I can say now is wow. Yikes. Ughhhh. I am glad that I’m on this path and that he is so supportive and joining in at his level. This is the start of my fourth sober weekend.
Today I’m grateful for:
- a break in the gloomy weather
- a break in the neighborhood road construction project (it’s peaceful again!)
- neighbors who say “good morning” like their life depends on it while I walk my dogs.
Edit: and most importantly, my back is much better today, phew!
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I have had the same thought, as bad as this all is at least I have been forced to quit my DOC but will I be able to remain strong after? 🤦🤷
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