Aww, sorry Paul. 
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I’m sorry, Paul. That’s hard. And you just celebrated double digits about 4 hours ago. Milestones can be real tricky. But you came right back. This addiction will not win. Never give up,… never.
Is there a learning experience from this? I know for me, I’ve had to make many serious adjustments to my life prompted by many, many repetitive relapses. It’s been quite a learning curve.
I have a question if you don’t mind. Where did you find the alcohol?
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in the shop.
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I’m checking in on day 116.
And it feels good. I’m still reminded of the first stretch of sobriety that I had on TS which lasted 115 days. I’ve learned a lot about myself since then. The desire to act out is there. But this quarantine is truly forcing myself to see reality.
Trigger Alert
My fantasy tells me that life should be one big orgy.
In reality, strangers should now stay at least 6 feet apart. My addict doesn’t like this. But it’s for the best.
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Ok thanks,
So I understand correctly that you got it from a nearby store.
Would it be possible to make shopping there a boundary? Perhaps find other places to shop that don’t sell alcohol or to commit to ordering groceries online and getting it delivered or picking them up without entering the store?
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Day 75
I am finding things really difficult at the moment.
A bit of background…
Cocaine is my DoC, I love it and I absolutely despise it. It gives me the best of feelings and the worst of feelings and it got to the point where the worst outnumbered the best.
Alcohol is my gateway drug, but was also a problem in its own right (until I progressed to cocaine).
I am now in a situation where I am struggling.
The current lockdown leaves me feeling like a trapped animal, trapped in a house with my 3 kids and a dog that seems to bark endlessly.
My days are spent working so fucking hard, I throw my all into anything I do, but by the end of the day there is nothing left for me and my head is screaming for a beer.
I have been in this situation for about 10 days now and it is killing me. I want to give in but I can’t give in.
The beer will never be enough, no matter how much I drink and it will instantly trigger the coke cravings.
I don’t want or need any answers, I just needed to share it with people who understand.
Thanks for listening x
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Day 68.61
Walk for takeout coffee this morning, 45 mile bike ride with 3K feet of climbing (burned 3K calories), washed car, made chicken Jalfrezi with jasmine rice and garlic naan for lunch. Now for the second half of the day. Mow lawn, trim, plant flowers, try to organize the garage, vacuum the house, din din, tv, and sleep.
It is unseasonably warm at 80 degrees here today. Pollen is rediculous, so my sinuses are going nuts.
Everyone have a great Saturday!!!
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Day 1. Returning to TS for some community and accountability. Feeling the day after heavy drinking exhaustion and anxiety. Grey and raining here today. Every time I drink I am gambling with poor health, broken relationships, anxiety, depression, and non-productive days. This is unhealthy and needs to stop.
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Sorry Paul. We are here for you.
Day 12.
Last night I really wanted a beer. The past few nights the cravings weren’t that bad, but last night was tough.
Getting 5-6 hours of sleep, which is a lot better than I have been. With work being so tumultuous I thought I wouldn’t sleep at all.
Really good to read through all your journeys. Realize that no matter what is going on with me, I am not alone. So glad I found this community.
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Happy birthday for yesterday dude ,
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Hey guys! Just checking in, turns out I am an alcoholic. 100% alcoholic. For the rest of my life. There is no cure. It sucks but the plus is that I will hopefully go the rest of my life without alcohol, I pray to God.
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Checking in on 14 days. Good morning all.
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Thanks 
Next stop - looking forward to 90 days 
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I had a productive day today! I finished putting in the new floor while listening to a few older Tragically Hip albums. I am tired as hell but it is nice that I am finally done with it. I hope everyone is having a great day!
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Good night. Day 4 done 
thanks to all here. Stay strong
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Only the Brits will get this, I think…
@Dolse71 Buck up, matey. Was it a bad binge or a slip? Everyone here is rooting for u.
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Yes!! Are they still 99p ? 
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