Ouch, that sounds sucky. I am sorry you are feeling rough. I don’t want to invalidate your feelings, but I do wonder if you will feel even worse if you drink. I know I would. And you know, I really really HATED how I felt about myself when I was drinking.
I hope you find some clarity and peace. You deserve that. Maybe just get thru today without drinking. Start there? Sending strength to you.
Ps…it is okay to cry, in fact, sometimes releasing emotions helps free up space in our selves. 
Paul, I totally get it, beer is my vice too. I’ve tried this a few times but this time is a little bit easier going for me. I know if I have one or two it’s over.
I like how it feels without that awful feeling afterwards. Try to remember why you came here too.
Life is really much better without it!
Day 164 is over. I am a little stressed about an examination in 3 days. Can’t study much as the kids are at home and my husband is working. The examination is also on Skype and I have never tried a Skype exam before.
But I am also feellng light and happy these days. Maybe because of the sun, the flowers and the blue sky. It is really spring time in Denmark.
Wish me luck. Then it is over, it is time for my Easter holliday.
Day 535. Today is a good day. It’s been snowing and hailing all day, but the ice is moving out, which means it might finally feel like spring here soon. Times have been difficult, but I am grateful to be sober through it. 
Another post made me notice how structured my sobriety was in the beginning, and how little I need to think about it now. I used to have to watch a sobriety video first thing, but it must be weeks since I last watched one. This makes me happy, I am living, not just being sober, but also don’t want complacency to creep in.
Thank you.
You’re right, the self-recrimination would just make me feel worse. I just don’t want to think/ dwell on today, but drinking would just make it worse.
Thanks Donna!
Nice Numbers @C_8 … right back at ya!!!
Congratulations on 160 days and 2 days off nic gum!!!
Whoooooohoooooo!!!
Thank you Conor!!! 
It’s interesting. 
I haven’t been able to successfully create new healthy habits since I’ve been AF. I have then in my head, but… no results.
So maybe, my HP was making me wait!! I think my HP wants me to get rid of this habit first - Then others will come mire easily.
Note: i took my new (prescribed 7days ago) sleeping meds at about 8pm I can barely see or type this, so please excuse errors / ramblings …
So now I’m craving nic gum when by body is saying GO. TO. SLEEP. YOU. FRIGGN. MORON.
Night nights 
Oh boy…sleep!! Go to sleep!!
YAY @GVLNative … a Tele-tubby Hope isn’t one of the ones that got bad press 
… and congratulations on your numbers!!
I must have missed the bad press?
Congratulations!!! Love, Love your numbers
I had no idea. I deleted the tele-tubbie.
Sorry!!! I won’t use the T-T’s again. That one was so cute though,
Seriously, do uou want me go back and remove the Gif? Not a problem, just let me know
Ooops, too late.
BUUUUUT, now that I know you don’t like them, BUT, don’t really mind that, that much…
Like I would be a meanie 
Love this post. Definitely brought a smile to a stressful day. Happy for you, thank you for sharing.
I had a lemmon tree for 6 years, it was like my pet!
loved that tree. Then one summer a massive hailstorm thrashed the poor thing to pieces. Still miss the sweet smell of that tree.
