Well there is here. Why doesn’t she want us to move forward, why tease me all this time, it’s not fair.
Funny, some people are going to read this and think wtf. 
It hurts me so.
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Is there an online meeting that could help? 
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yes I’m now logging into Tinder.
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I wouldn’t get your hopes up. I’ve been blown out and I haven’t even tried yet. Story of my life.
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Thank you 
and yes I need and want to start reaching out BEFORE I use. That’s the key. To get support before I pick up. I know I’d be so proud of myself the first day I say no to drugs
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It’s really helped my general state of mind. If you can cut back a bit give it a try. I was on here hours a day and I just can’t do it anymore. I’m doing ok. I’ve been doing more Zoom AA meetings with my home group and that really helps. Take care of yourself - inside and out. 
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Day 77.51
Inching my way to 90 along with my sober twin Marie (@Hopeful777).
Back to work today. Trying to get a big presentation together for Thursday.
Watching the spring European bike race 2020 Omloop Het Nieuwsblad on FloBikes out of the corner of my eye. Love the spring classics brutal and beautiful at the same time.
Hopefully everyone is having a good and sober Monday!!!
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Thank you
You’re right. I am on my second Zoom AA meeting today 
Also had a teleconference with my psychiatrist this morning too 
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I’m just checking in, day 125. Still craving off and on today, but I’ll manage.
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Lisa @Lisa07
I just ran across this today. I am sorry you are going through this.
I am pulling for you and your husband!!!
Any good news?
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live YouTube Stream #3
URL: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Al46eXHaCI
Joost Lancee - Spoken Word
Obed Brinkman - Piano
Dutch mostly, 1 in english… next stream mote english !! @Dolse71 and @anon79808082 @SoberWalker @Dutchie @ThajokerNL @Fargesia_murielae @Dutch058 #050 up north
20:00 / 20:25
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Day 258. I wish I were a bit more stoked to be off on Friday, but again, I’m already home. Got the news today that all North American and Canadian employees, who aren’t furloughed, and are below Director level, are getting a 15% salary reduction for the next eight weeks, so, that’s fun. It’s temporary, it’s not going to be that big of a deal, and honestly, if it helps keep the company floating and me in a job, go for it.
Other than that, it’s just business as usual around here.
Have a strong day!!!
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Sorry to hear that, but I think there will be a lot more of that coming to all of us 
Like you said, I am just trying to stay employed.
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Sort of. Company wide/world wide, the senior leadership are taking 50% salary reductions for the next two quarters, and VPs and SVPs are taking 30%.
I think they’re trying to do fair and right by everyone across the board, even though the market is being affected differently from country to country…even state to state.
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Day 542. Things have been a struggle, having been in some combination of compulsory isolation, self-quarantine, and under stay at home order for 3.5 weeks now. I’ve been physically cut off from everyone that I love and am close to. I’ve slipped into depression and anxiety that has prevented me from accessing some important coping skills, which in turn becomes a downward spiral of “why can’t I just get a grip and force myself to do the things that I know will help?” It hit a point where I was guided to the realization that outside help is needed, in the form of medications advised by my doctor, who was careful about the recommendations she made due to my sobriety. Having taken some positive actions, I feel a sense of relief already.
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So very glad to hear Ariel. There is no shame in accessing medications for a time. I also am working with my doctor to help me thru this time and I am thankful that is available to me.
I hope you feel a lightening soon. Always here if you want to vent.
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YES!! My world too. 
I’ve been off work for 9 weeks, and I don’t feel any different, actually worse. I’m trying to figure out what will elevate me to better help myself, but I can’t find it in me. I don’t have a Sponsor, but I do have a psychiatrist for the meds, and have been seeing a Therapist for 18 months. They both know I’m frustrated,
I feel lucky that I do have a job, but for how long? 
Sorry for sharing. I hope we all find the strength we need
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That was fun thanks for the invite Joost
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Um, what? Your sharing is a gift, even if to you it doesn’t seem like it. Don’t apologize, let us thank you instead! (That goes for all of you people) 
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