Did you take that picture from over by Stowe Notch?
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6M 19D / I have a rough draft of what I want to do by my 35th Bday. It’s extremely crazy how things I never saw before (because I was totally oblivious) are becoming crystal clear now. I’ve been putting my mindfulness to practice as well. I’m trying constantly to be in the moment. Keeping how I talk, respond and react in 
. I’m slowly but surely guiding my life.
When a problem confronts itself to me, I stop and think. Is it within my power to solve it? If it is, will it be practical to solve it? If the answer is no, I go around that problem and continue. If it can be solved, I focus all my attention to solve it, solve it and then move on. All the while I’m trying to be as open and charasmatic as I can. That part is a bit more harder though. I’m still trying to figure out how to be as open as I was when I was drinking. That’s a long term that is definitely worth working on. Have a good day everyone, Love you All!
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Near to, yes
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To this right there 
Thanks for sharing this. This morning I woke up questioning what should I do to quiet the voices or emotions that somehow attack me (intrusive/obsessive thoughts) instead of masking them with addictions. Because of the situation, I can’t keep being “addict” to all my usual occupation that I usually invest too much, and I can’t obviously numb it with alcool too. But re-learning (everyday) to being-self and being-with without escaping is confronting. Somehow the rest of these days brings me immense guilt, an insufficiency experienced as a carpenter’s vice from which I cannot get out. And I squeeze it and I squeeze it, without knowing at the time how to do otherwise. There is a gap between my lived being and my ideals of being me. I compare myself again to another that I cannot be, that I am not.
So even if today I’m looking into textbooks, I’ll still be having those feelings. And today I am grateful that I can experience them and acknowledge them and learn to cope better with (myself).
Thanks again and have a good day!
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Of course the one year lately with late snow the ski resorts can’t be open.
Wallingford is such a nice area as well. When I get too nostalgic, I try to remember the one Valentine’s Day I had to help dig our plow truck out 8 times before we got chains for it…that usually solves that! Lol
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Good morning. Checking in day 84.
Here’s my dilema. My ex-fiance and I got randomly talking just recently. I made some ammends and feel both good about that. Now it’s navigating where it goes from here as she still wants to talk. Boundies and more boundies says my sponsor. Very emotional stuff to be going through. Thankful for my higher power. Support through here and all the other tools… I.can’t.We. can…
A nice sunny day here still did my readings had coffee and breakfast. An online meeting at noon to discuss my local areas public reations and stuff (HIPR) chatting with mom. Trying to get out my head talking with my housemates and gonna crank some tunes. Have a great Saturday.
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Wow, you are really working that recovery and racking up some days!!! Great work!!
Must be beautiful there now…cannot wait til we can visit again!! 
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I used to be a really hot mess. Lol. Now I mostly just struggle with alcohol. Its the only thing that is just ready available at any moment. My last relapse on Ketamine was because (being the addict I am) I actually had saved some “in case of an emergency.”
I guess I felt one morning that it was an emergency and started doing the K again without even giving it much thought. That was when I ran 9 miles. Yep horse tranquilizer and pre work out motivated me to run that far and when I was done, I decided it was a good Idea to start drinking again. That I could handle it. Psh. Such a mind altering drug. That was when my last series of relapses started to occur. Safe to say the K is really gone now. Thank God. I dont know why I would do something again that ruined my life so badly. So stupid.
@Hopeful777 Awww!! Get back up and keep trying. Maybe you needed one last reminder of how terrible alcohol is! This time you wont forget!! Thats what I tell myself. 
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Assertiveness is a real problem for me too.
Growing up my mother made everything about herself, her issues were more important and I had to repress my feelings. She had my step-dad (actually biological father) argued terribly and I was the go-between. I am therefore totally conflict averse and unassertive. But living like that is impossive so especially with my husband I occasionally explode, then feel guilty, and compensate by trying to be even more unassertive. Genuine assertiveness, that is appropriate and fulfilling is something I really long for but doubt I can ever do.
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That is so great, congratulations. Negative self-talk is a problem for a lot of us on here, I guess, I know I do it a lot.
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Awesome number!! Congratulations 
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1 month Sober n Straight. The Sun is out and I fought the triggered whispers all day. I have held out thankfully n took myself to bed to check in here for the 1st time and tomorrow is a new day and I hope its raining 
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Checking in 
So the last two days has actually been good have dedicated my time to a severe round of housecleaning - deep down in every cornor. Yesterday the kitchen 
Today the bathroom
Its seriously a lovely feeling tomorrow will be the bedrooms turn to get shiny. 
I have only have the chance to speak with my mum, and her and i are good and she is Really proud of all the work i have got done at home - so About my parents im better now i only miss talking to my dad, but mum told me today wasnt a good idea because he has troubles with his computer and that makes him angry so i will wait. LOL.
Sorry for the picture spam, but im just so very satisfied with myself and my boyfriend really enjoy the clean environment and my happy mood - so for now im just going to be in this happy home and enjoy that
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Im having a good day. Im happy to see some great posts.
I feel a bit of anxiety but i guess it could be worse. I cant wait for this corintien to lift.
Easy does it i suppose
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I have talked to you once or twice here. I can look up to the progress you are DOING AND MAKING
i can tottaly see your making good choices. i feel good when i make good choices; maybe likewise for you 
im on a rocky day 3. im going to keep climbing though
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Just checking in. Today I am clean and sober. Had to go to Walmart for food and venture out in the snow and cold. Thankfully there were no line ups at Walmart that early and I managed to get everything done quickly. Now to head home and clean and put away laundry. No time for thinking about using today For those that celebrate Easter…happy Easter!
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