Today is going to be another sober day. That is all I know at the moment. Will work some in the garden before the sun gets there. Last night all of a sudden I felt this dark cloud coming over me. I was laying in the couch watching some minles netflix stuf and got really agitated. But the interesting thing was I could sense it, seeing myself in my mind looking for a story to attach to it so I could get worked up. But there was no story and I managed to sit it out. It was the darkness of trying to control, and actually the fear behind that. My controlling every move in the universe was an attempt to protect me of fearing to lose more. But… I lost everything anyway and there is nothing to control. So maybe today my mantra will be the serenity prayer again. God… Grant… And of I go. have a good day all!
Wish I had the magical powers to make everything okay for you because I don’t have the words to do so. I really feel for you and my heart goes out to you. Hang in there things are bound to get better for sure. Sending you strength, comfort and hugs. 
Blessings and sobriety!
Hi everyone hope you all have a happy Easter keep strong x
You too! That picture just swooped me back to my 6 year old self, lol. 
- I got into a fight with the only person I have face to face contact with at the moment. It wasn’t much of a fight and I think we’re passed it but I’m not very assertive so I let this sort of thing affect me way too much. Also the only functioning bike I have left isn’t very functional any more. Seems to have used a bit too much power on the pedals and messed up the bottom bracket. I need a bike. And of course like so many of us I feel pretty lonely right now.
Well it’s life. I’m here with you. I got my kitty sleeping on the couch. Food in the fridge. A job to go to tomorrow. The sun is shining. Most of my brain and body seem to be intact and functioning.I’m moving in the right direction. Ever so slow but here I go. One day at a time. Have a good Sunday all. Clean and sober love from Amsterdam.
Lol, the end of the rainbow bit is a tad much, but choosing the people who a major part of ur life (can’t choose workmates etc)to be people who understand and accept u is a good message.
Checking in. The past few days I’m more conscious of thinking about drinking but I know I don’t want to drink. I think I need to redo some of the smart recovery exercises. I have the workbook and it is useful. Also need a walk. Outside time is so important right now when we are all at home all the time.
Day 6 sober. Happy Easter to all!!! Christ is Risen!!! 
@RX24 you are not alone in this. I am struggling with the same addiction. Courage my friend!!!
TWO DAYS! I woke up with some tempting thoughts and cravings. Then I opened up this app. I am feeling reeeeally tired today, but I know it will get better. I can make every day clean and sober and live the life I want. I won’t be controlled by addiction today. I won’t be controlled by fear today. I won’t be controlled by anxiety today. I know anxiety and fear usually lead me to using. I’m going to be brave today, strong for everyone who needs me and strong for myself. I’m going to make today awesome.
One month and seven days being sober and it feels good.
Thank you 
Checking in day 85 AF & more. Happy Easter. Coffee and choclote in bed to start my morning a couple hours ago now. Guilt free over that one its a holiday Lmao Doing my best to stay in a solid routine. Did some readings talked to my higher power. Sending out and receiving blessings this morning and getting a wonderful response. Wouldn’t of gotten any of that in my active days…some solid proof that its working and worth it… Made a big decision moving forward in regards to my relationship with the ex. It may be too soon to tell but I’m being told I’m worth It. Being loved again that is by friends, family and my sponsor. Losing her was one of my biggest regrets and having this chance to reconnect with a healthy happy clean and sober woman who is supportive of me continuing to work my recovery and work on us moving forward together I feel like I would be a fool to pass on this blessed opportunity. I got cold feet before and ran from her as we had a the wedding planned and date set back in 2001. Now I’m fighting the urge to run right back. I pray that I can take it slow and do this right…am I crazy or is it simply that I never stopped loving her and never will. I guess thats part of it.
Breathe and slow down as the tears are staring to flow but happy tears for another chance at life thats what my recovery is chance at life. Will it actually include her again I can hope. If it doesn’t at least I will know. I can and will use what I know to keep Me happy healthy clean and sober.
On another topic my apartment is getting crowded. One of my biggest supporters and best friends is back from two months of treatment and needed a place to crash lmao He has been a I pray will continue to be a positive force in my recovery and me in his. Look out folks that puts the three of us my other roommate and solid friend in life and recovery back together. Together we can. Feeling strong and content today regardless of the emotions you gotta feel them and work through good or bad and do the next right thing for You. Thats what I have been taught and believe!! Pray for me I’m praying for all of you 
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Same! You are not alone! My heart starts racing, I never say what I wanted to, can’t remember what I wanted to say, and then lose focus on the meeting for a while after. Ugh! Glad you are doing it though 
It does get easier with practice
Congrats! And good on you Mr. Beardy McTallman for catching the negative self talk 
Checking in at 4.78 days
Got drunk and high this weekend trying to get make it through the day
It feels like 7 mths has flown by… Very slowly. I’m proud of myself for making it this far. But at the same time I’m cautious about getting too complacent in my sobriety. I still need to work my program and deal with some underlying issues I have. I don’t feel like I can let my guard down for one second. Especially now. I’m so grateful for this forum and all the people who post and share their thoughts, struggles etc. Want to give a special shout out to @Conor689908 @Frantasticooo @Shell @anon35096624 @adeygaga49 @Dolse71 @Lisa07 for all the support you continually give. I wouldn’t be sober without you bunch. There are many more but I can only tag 10 in a post. So I’m going to just stop there. To all of you just starting out - press on. It does get easier. And you get stronger. 
Love from Texas.