Hell yeah the 300 club! Congrats
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Itās totally okay and normal to have a bad day, week, month. itās usually in how weāre perceiving things that decides this. Often if we really think about it the problem is because weāre not surrendering. Say the serenity prayer, Iām not in the rooms but i still use it.
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@Butterflymoonwoman
Welcome back and great job on day 1!!!
It is always the hardest!!!
Keep at it and good luck!!!
Happy Cinco De Mayo everyone! This will be my 1st sober Cinco de mayo in probably 15 years. Hope everyone is enjoying the wonderful weather 
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Oiijjj, great angels and spirits 
do exist 
It is done, iām for now thinking that the surgery went really good and catch up on some natural ZzzZzzZzzās
Be well everyone and thank you all for the great support and remembering . Thnxxx , for beĆÆng there / here on the forum.
Wish i could call someone right away but heā¦ cant have it all
@Mno @Fargesia_murielae @lisa07 @Beardy_McTallman @Butterflymoonwoman Mu9908 @SoberWalker @Dolse71 @Girlinterrupted @Jimieg @ nd all the other great individuals living the ways you chose to do !! BeĆÆng helpfull and kind 
you all rock , in many different tunes, and sounds but it really ment something to me.
Claudia je bent een schat and Paul, the card will find its way to me!!! Peace yaāllā¦ I cant sleep due lack of the right and enough pain meds but iāll make it workā¦ mos deff
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DAY 5!! First good day!
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54.32 tomorrow on the smokƩmon go (stop) app?
Bless
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Great hear it went well. Now for the healing process, hope it goes smoothly, youāve dealt with enough 
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Day 548. Yesterday was my 18 months, but I lost my internet connection while I was checking in yesterday so I never posted it. Been having tons of issues today as well, so while I still can, Iām popping in to say things are okay, still going strong.
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@050Nl glad u r out of surgery safely!
@Beardy_McTallman Really pulling for you that u get out of this slump. I canāt give advice, as u seem pretty self-aware and understand what is going on with u. But I know that understanding and preventing are different. I have watched myself do things understanding why, but like it was an out of body experience or something.
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A rainy day, doing homeschooling, work prep, etc. At first I found staying at home all the time stressful, but seem to be getting used to it. Even the endless cooking and washing up I can handle ok. I am drinking a crazy amount of tea and coffee tho. I seem to be always supping on something. At least it is not booze!
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Today wasnāt bad today. Just kind of sick of family asking me to do everything for them. And then when I just need a little help the responses I donāt know what to tell you. Just really feel like being away from people really family . Iām not using so Iām happy with that and you guys being around.
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Day 1 for me again. Feeling sick for my mentality and body.
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Iām calling it 170 days! I feel like I am on autopilot. I no longer think about drinking, sobriety has, once again, become part of my routine. But Iām good at routines, thatās why when I drank, I drank religiously, when I quit the first time 5 years ago I racked up 18 months without much struggle. But I was stupid, I was an idiot, I thought I had it beat and I was wrong.
170 days ago I quit once again and once again the routine has been my strength. But with summer coming on, the stress of Covid life, attempting to date again (donāt get me started on that) and just being honest with myself I know I need more than just a routine. Iām not sure what it is I need exactly, but I do know Iām searching to figure that out. Iāll let you know when I find it.
For now Iām happy to be 170 days sober, grateful for my kids and thankful Iām healthy.
For everyone thatās struggling right now, my heart goes out to you, so miserable to feel like your stuck in addiction. Please hang in there and keep fighting. I havenāt been contributing much because I donāt feel like I have a lot of great advice to give, but happy to try and help in any way I can.
Thanks for all the support youāve all given me. Stay safe, stay healthy, stay sober!
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all done and behind you!! Happy for you Joost that the surgery went well. Now focus on rest and heal!
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- Today our government is expected to come with a road map on how it will try to reopen society step by step. Iām feeling a bit anxious about it actually. Change of the status quo is scary whatever the status quo is. People are scared to give up what they have, even what they have is hell on earth. Itās why many people stay in abusive relationships way too long, either with other humans or with substances and behaviours they are addicted to.
Life changes and much of it is out of our control. But at least this part of our lives we can control: We can not use any alcohol or drugs, just for today, and be a better person and live a better life for it. Have a good day all. Love from Amsterdam in spring. @050Nl Hope youāre asleep friend. Heal well. @BeckInReal Youāre here Beck. Learn from what happened. Keep going. @Hidden Congrats Chris!
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Now you made me curious what a Cinco De Mayo is @Jmg 
Can you explain it to this stranger from abroad? 
@ifs congratulations with your 18 months, hope the issues will sort out soon.
Sorry you are struggling @Beardy_McTallman but you are still here in stead of walking away from it with āslamming doorsā. You are handling things diffrerent then last time.
You are growing, thatās progress, thatās recovery!
@BeckInReal the only way is up 
Make the circumstances as good as they can be: strip your house from your doc, fill the fridge with healthy food and drinks, buy loads of sweets (yes, you need them when you are craving is my experience 
), avoid people and places were your doc is (at least for the first 3 months).
Check in tomorrow and tell us how your day one went!
See you tomorrow!! š
Goodmorning @Mno!! 
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Mogge Clau! 
Have a good one!
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Day 597
Strange day yesterday. I made a walk with a friend in nature and organized a little picknic. It was relaxed and when we where laying in the sun after we ate she told me about her past and confessed me very personal stuff.
That made me do the same: I told her about my alcohol addiction and didnāt cover it up with roses. We talked about it and she asked questions. She was nice and seams to understand. But when she went home I felt restless and I had doubts if it was a good thing to tell her. Normally we hug and kiss eachother when saying goodbye. But because of Corona we couldnāt. So it was a bit odd to wave her goodbye after this day. Still feeling a bit strange about this day. Time will tell if I made a good choice ore not.
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I can answer this one if you donāt mind @Jmg . Cinco de Mayo is kind of like the Mexican version of 4th of July. Usually celebrated with lots of beer and tacos 
. We will just double down on the tacos.
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Cinco de Mayo, holiday celebrated in parts of Mexico and the United States in honor of a military victory in 1862 over the French.
I live in California so that usually means tequila and tacos all day 
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