16.26 days. Feeling pretty depressed. Ordered 5HTP and SAMe, they come Monday. We’ll see. I’m doing everything you’re supposed to. So, doing the motions and maybe the rest will come. I feel like I really blew it with my whole life and I’m thoroughly uninterested in my future.
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It’s probably best you don’t go early on. From what I hear it isn’t as difficult later down the road a bit.
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Thank you @liv_m. I’m horrible at communicating. I expect my husband to know how I’m feeling and what I need from him. I need to work on changing this.
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That you. Great to see you putting together some solid days once again as well. Keep fighting!!
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@C_8 @liv_m @Fargesia_murielae
Thank you all so much. All of you have definitely had a part in helping me remain sober. Really appreciate all you have done for me and this community! Sober cheers!!
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not like you is he, 12 days is no light weight. Let’s keep this going mate we’ve got a load of sober days between us now. Well done.
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I’m sorry you’re so down Beth. I’ve been following your story for a while now and one thing I’ve learned about you is that you’re a fighter. It’s hard when you feel like you’re fighting the battle all by yourself, but you’re definitely not alone. Just don’t give up. The help you need for the depression you’re feeling is out there. Just keep searching for whatever it is that will eventually help you to turn that corner. I wish I had better advice for you. I am, however, in your corner and sending some positive thoughts your way. You’ve got a whole community of people here that care about you!
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@Dolse71 Nice work!
@Lisa07 That is hard, but glad ur husband is being understanding
@Girlinterrupted From the outside ur life looks so exciting and stimulating! But I know that how u feel on the inside can be totally different.
@CapriciousCapricorn Thanks 
. Glad to be back.
Day 4
Alcohol relapse came after some binge eating relapse so going to get back on the c25k. Wonder how much my arse will wobble today. 
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Checking in, Day 320 alcohol free 
I’m feeling grateful for my life and all the blessings in it 
gracias todos
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That has turned into the goal at this point. I love my gym, the owner is rad, and my a.m. crew rules…but yeah, I’m at the point now where I could make everything I have work.
Push comes to shove, I could do a day pass if I really wanted to get in there.
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Nah, it just takes practice and dedication. Eventually, it just comes naturally.
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Checking in number 2, I feel accomplished I feel happy. But a good friend lives across the street, and my 3 other friends that I talk about alot went over just now. I can’t help but feel sad that I didn’t get invited. I always preach it’s a good time to find yourself and be ready to see who your true friends are. But literally not one single person if I didn’t get ahold of them would of gotten ahold of me in this 103 days of being sober, if I never reached out I never would of seen anyone. I can’t help but feel hurt, I have zero friends but all of you and it’s not a pitty party but it’s true and yeah idk obviously staying sober. Idk have a good night everyone
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Good words of advice, im gonna do that. Thank you Jane
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28 days after today, but I’m feeling less confident. Even though I am reading books that tell me I don’t need alcohol to have fun and relax, I’m just really struggling with this belief. I’ve felt very down for a while now and it is tough not being able to numb the pain and being in my head all the time . The love of my life and best friend left me because I broke trust by trying to hide my addiction multiple times. Now my whole world is turned upside down and it just doesn’t seem like she will ever give me one more chance no matter how much I change. I’m losing hope and it is just making it harder and harder to stay motivated.
I’m sorry for the longer reply, but I just needed to vent. Im just trying to remind myself that I need to do this for myself…
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Thank you @CapriciousCapricorn. We did lego friends today and had a lot of fun together. I can’t remember the last time I had the patience to sit with her like that. Lego friends is a nice change from regular lego with all the girly stuff they have now.
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Hi ! I am continuing trying to stay sober … I had 10 days and I drink again. But I am here Because deep inside what I want is to really stop all this but is very hard sorry .
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Day 559. Flippin’ difficult day today.
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I feel your pain. I went through this the first time i tried getting sober. Now I look back thinking why did I waste my time worrying about those unhealthy relationships. You’re right that you do have everyone on here. Keep up the great work!
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