Just checking in. Went today and smoged my truck, renewed my registration and received my 2021 tags. Tomorrow going to the DMV with my birth certificate that I just received in the mail to renew my driver’s license. Getting the California real ID driver’s license so I can fly. Handling business in sobriety. This is only possible because of the miracles of the program of Alcoholics Anonymous.
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Love the number, and love mindfulness too. Hope you have a lovely evening 
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Bad case of the fuck-its today. Hardly slept and I feel every bit of it. I lusted over some substitute material and I was pretty willful and selfish with my time over some persistent workplace resentments. I think it’s pretty closely tied to doing the right thing but having to deliver consequences to people you know and interact with often goes against my people-pleaser grain. Also, I have some absurd fears that my actions in my job will create difficulties for my family or that some crazy person will exact revenge because I had to be the bad cop.
I just wanted to crawl in a hole this morning and then join the circus, or move to neverland. (Like, the peter pan version not the MJ version) Hence, the dipping my toe into social media to escape.
On the upside, I’m still doing things to be of service. Going to chip in to help my church and see if my skills can be put to use. They house the local foodshelf and they host numerous 12 step groups in the building. If they need someone on to stew and obsess over insignificant details I’m pretty sure I have that on lockdown.
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just wanted to check in
everything is going smoothly
no relaps
easy does it
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Thanks to everyone who sent love during this tough time. My father inlaw was moved into hospice care after his bp dropped dangerously low. He has confirmed liver and kidney failure from years of alcohol abuse. He didnt remember me when I went in the room today and we’ve known each other for 5 years now. Its extremely tough to watch and they believe he only has days left.
I’m continuing to turn eveything over to my higher power. I remind myself that I just dont need to drink today. The serenity prayer has been and will continue to be used in my daily life. Stay sober everyone! Thanks again.
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Day 570. Everything is feeling like too much and I am not handling it.
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@ifs @Mtrav0040
Hugs, it really sucks when u feel bad, I hope u can hang on, and things improve for you.
A few hours until Day 15 alcohol, day 12 binge eating
Feeling good. Last night I was primed for a food binge, have been starving myself lately, which of course, just triggers a binge. But instead allowed myself to eat my fill of healthy food, which didn’t cause the usual side effects, and I could get up and jog as usual today (after a binge of chocolate, etc, too bloated the next day to do anything). When I am focusing on food I can easily not drink, but when I binge all bets are off. But as yesterday wasn’t a proper binge, didn’t think fuck it, and still on track with both.
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@Misokatsu
You are doing so well and over 2 weeks now!!!
Keep working your tools and avoiding the binges.
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Day 12. Feeling pretty great. I have intermittent depressive moments but they pass relatively quickly.
Impermanence.
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Day 619
Joined the “early risers” today 
Got out of bed at 4.45! It’s a challenge my daughter suggested so here we are: me, my husband and my daughter downstairs at 5 
Long day ahead!
The idea is we are going to do this for at least one month!
Never could imagine I would voluntairy do this.
Not in my drinking days but not in my sober days as well. But here I am and feeling fine 
Let the day begin!! 
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James, you are handling it because you’re on this form and expressing your feelings. This is one of the healthy ways we handle life. If you’d ever like to talk one-on-one let me know?
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Checking in day 79… long work week, Two more days to go. As tired as I am I’m so glad to be back at work. I was really looking toward Day 100 but now that I see how close I am to 90 I have 2 big #’s to look forward to reaching.
Have a great week everyone!
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It was okey, not a favorite. 
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Checking in as I wrap up day 12. Last night was a nail bitter as I tried to refresh TS during the several hour downtime and finally gave up. So glad to have the thread back!
Seattle had stunning views of Mt. Rainer over Lake Washington today. Being sober has given me a new appreciation for the beauty in this area. I get out for a long walk or bike ride daily, and take my laptop outside to work on the deck whenever the weather gets above 65F, which was all day today. I find my cravings decrease and mood improves with the amount of time I spend outdoors.
@Clarity The plus is you are back, and we are here to be on this journey together. You’ve got this.
@jmg and @dolse71 1 month, you rock!
@anon89207786 Congrats on half a year.
@802 stay strong Blake.
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Day 58. I did another smarts meditation today. It was so nice. I actually had thoughts of drinking and images of certain drinks in my meditation today. Also distracting noises from next door. I made space for those annoyances to pass and continued meditating. That was such a relaxing hour. How often do we say “man if I could just get 15 minutes of peace and quiet!!” What a blessing that calm focus is.
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Godmorning, another sunny day here. At least it seens like it. Both kids are supposed to be back ij school today so I’m planning a long walk in the woods or along the river today.
My husband is coming home early from work and have tomorrow off.
My friends that was supposed to come tomorrow and stay the weekend doesn’t want to come because I don’t drink. I never said they couldn’t and we’ve been friends like forever, and done a lot of shit together. It’s all upto them of course and especially up to him. Unfortunately I can’t help but feeling a bit betrayed, we’ve grown up together, messed life up together, got on and off drugs together and lately drinking together. I never had a thought that he would turn the back at me now when I finally really trying to get on the right track. It might just be temporary but it does put a little cloud in my soul.
Anyway I’m about to start day 5,and wish y’all an amazing day.
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Once upon a time way way long ago back in the olden days of BC… you know before corona. I was an early riser. Getting up at 5:30 for a couple years even on weekends was my routine. It does change your perspective of the world and you will enjoy the calm mornings. Not feeling rushed through the day. Also sunrises 
! Let us know how you like it. After some time its routine and not difficult at all.
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I will keep you posted Jeff. Just got back from a small walk with my daughter. Hoped to see a deer, but have to walk earlier next time I guess. Maybe tomorrow 
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