Great job @MrsOdh. I admire your strength and will power.
@anon79808082, prayers for your son and family @Desire2ChangeToday OMG, me too! I find myself craving coffee in the evening and it hits the spot. Is that typical for others?
Last night was the toughest so far. The day was gorgeous and I spent it working outside on the deck, took a long walk with my dog, then relaxed with a book. It is a typical day that I would be enjoying rose wine in the . Reading this forum made all the difference and I successfully resisted the urge. I wanted to go on a long bike ride but Iām nursing a blister from a new pair of sandals and couldnāt make it work yesterday. I picked up some mole skin today and this evening I will try again. Stay sober my friends.
Iām so glad it turned out positively for your step dad! Good job keeping it together and feeling the feels without the desire to want to numb it. Thatās called growth!
Itās not even typical for me tbh! But lately Iāve been wanting coffee not for the caffeine but the taste lolā¦
And I know what you mean about gorgeous daysā¦ itās def a drinking trigger for me. It was always the perfect excuse for me to ārelax and enjoy the dayā, but it never did result in the most relaxing and joyful day lolā¦ playing that tape through always does the job for me lol
Hey guys/ fam. Checking in on day 3. Suuuuper depressed. And sadly I WANT to be here. Sad. At least I am sober, I know I will climb out of it eventually. Man, my birdy getting squished really broke my heart. I know itās stupid but the darn thing trusted me. And I let him down. Took 25 days of turning his egg 3x a day and regulating his temp and humidity, and then he hatched on mothers day and then 2 weeks later he goes squish. What is the meaning of life. I use alcohol as a way to torture myself. I am going to stay strong. I know what it takes to pick myself up and I will when I am ready. Sounds stupid, lots of people have bigger problems. Benzo withdrawal also sucks bad too. My head hurts. I will try to check back in when I am feeling better mentally.
You need to be careful with alcohol and benzos deer . I have a close friend that got hooked on both and made his recovery much more difficult. Like prolonged anxiety that lasted months. Please, reach out before you drink next time. I thought I was gonna cave a few weeks back and was able to get back in it. Take this as a growing experience and learn from it. Donāt beat yourself up its really not your fault. Just do something different next time
I didnāt realise you were 17, your going to have such a different life than the one we all have, Iām immensely proud of you. You have great foresight and this community must show you how much you could lose and what joy you will gain.
I am glad you did not give in after all of your hard work. You smartly reached out which I did not for my last reset. Keep posting and working to stay sober. I am pulling for you buddy!!! Reach out if you need to!!!
. Reading this forum made all the difference and I successfully resisted the urge. I wanted to go on a long bike ride but Iām nursing a blister from a new pair of sandals and couldnāt make it work yesterday. I picked up some mole skin today and this evening I will try again. Stay sober my friends.
. I have a close friend that got hooked on both and made his recovery much more difficult. Like prolonged anxiety that lasted months. Please, reach out before you drink next time. I thought I was gonna cave a few weeks back and was able to get back in it. Take this as a growing experience and learn from it. Donāt beat yourself up its really not your fault. Just do something different next time 
