Checking in on day 9! Hope you all have a great day!
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I am truly sorry for your loss. My condolences. My heart goes out to you. I have had three long time best friends check out along with my brother. It is unbeliavably hard, I understand. Please feel free to pm or let me know if there is anything I can do for you.
Please hang in there. It will take time.
Much love.
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I might take you up on that pm. After my parents, child and many Friends this one really came out of nothing. We laughed for hours when he called me in the hospital just agoā¦ fortunately i cant moveā¦ and even of i couldā¦ I will not lose my own fightā¦ that would not honour him.
Greatfull for your reply, and thank youā¦
4 real.
With love and blessings
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Iām so sorry, I donāt even know what to say. Sending love and prayers.
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Anytime. I will be here for whatever you need.
Hugs.
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Iām so very sorry for your loss. Iāve lost a few good friends over the years, and I know that there really arenāt any words to make you feel better. Just please, please donāt drink. Reach out if you need, or vent here. Deep breathsā¦it hurts, but you got this.
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Imma b allright. What I said, it would not be honourable and besides that, iāve been thrue hell and back but this time i only took a one way ticket to happiness. Thnx bro and yes, i will keep reaching out!
Thnx TS peopz, you make a difference!
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Day 146. 5 months. Tuesday.
Strange times. Covidā¦ the Black Lives Matter situation thatās going on in the US.
Some could say reasons to drink. But no.
Today my instagram and facebook feeds turned black.
From a foreign perspective I was shocked when I heard the news. But in all honesty not surprised. I donāt live in the states but I do love the country.
I hope this was their wake up call.
Again I donāt live over there I can only loon at it with my own eyes here in Belgium.
Please stop racism in this world.
Exuse me for my rant.
Hope you all are having a good sober tuesday!
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Oh man Joost, thatās a tough thing to deal with. Iām so sorryā¦ my heart is sad for you and his inner pain he mustāve been feeling. Hugs hun.
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sorry to hear this my friend, its one thing after another for a few people at the minute. Have yourself a dam good cry and carry on with the hand we are dealt and make em proud. Your an amazing person who doesnāt deserve what life has done to you but now you got us and weāve always got your back. 
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Thnx m8 and @anon79808082 also.
Indeed we have to take the road that has been set for us. Pain is pain, loss is loss and living is beĆÆng alive and faithfull to the heart you own yourself.
Cryed my eyes out, cant do nothing, no funerall i can attend bit his smile wil be singing along the angels that carrey him now
God bless my friend !
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Thatās a great picture to have of him. I just said a prayer and farewell.
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So very sad. Thinking of you both.
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Checking in on day 26.
Yesterday, was rough. I really wanted to get messed right up, but I didnāt. Up all night with stomach issues from stress, so now I am exhausted and feeling like Iām back at the bottom needing to put all of my pieces back together again. But, Iām still sober, so thereās that.
Yesterday was a big eye opener. I have such a loving husband, but although my brain knows this, I just never feel loved enough. It isnāt his fault, itās because I just donāt love myself. I nag, and criticize, and try to control every situation to protect myself from hurt, but ultimately I am the one bringing on the pain. I really want to stop all of this. I really want to trust in others love, to feel deserving of it, and to learn to love myselfā¦ I just donāt know how.
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Iām so sorry for the loss of your good friend @050Nl! Very sad! Youāve been to hell and back lately. I wish I had words to comfort you. Sending you big hugs and lots of love. 
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Hang in there ladyā¦ The weight of other peopleās stuff can be suffocating and exhausting. Iāve been taking breaks when I feel my life force being drained by someone. Not sure if that is an option. But I fell for you xoā¦
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I am so sorry this happened. My heart breaks for you.
Condolences. Remember the good times you had together.
Please hang in there and do not pickup to honor your friend.
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I would call them out as a downer and tell them I unfriend them for the day (and not to come around until they get their shit together). Kick them to the curb if you need to. We all have enough going on to bother dealing with life suckers.
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