Thanks 
looking forward to November, but not too forward (LOL), just one day at a time 
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Made it to day 7. Insomnia, headaches, depression, and cravings. Spent the last two nights curled up in a blanket on the floor. No energy. Barely made it through. Im lucky I know how good sobriety feelsā¦ I know there is a point to all of this. It only gets better from here. 
Keep going everyone!! Youāve got this.
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Good job on 7 days!!!
Keep going and fighting!!!
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day 188.
Today was a good day. I had my last time of aftercare from my rehab, because they think i can handle sobriety, and i think so to(credits to all you lovely people). Also had my first day of work in a year, was great, but clod because i had to stock the freezers. My stepdad got back from the hospital so thats great, but im sure that is going to be a stress factor in a couple days. Also followed the last bit of the TS zoom-meeting which was fun. so all in all a good day
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Iām so terribly sorry for your loss. Itās tragic. But as you said, you can honor his memory by your actions so choose wisely how you handle this grief. Give yourself time and space to grieve and continue fighting for your sobriety. Hugs 
from Texas.
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Youāre tough! The tenacity in spite of the stumbles is inspiring!
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I am very sorry for your loss Joost. I can somewhat imagine how you feel. My nephew commited suicide a few years back and i did not treat it right, which I still regret. Dont make the same mistake i did, but grief in a healthy way. The pain is awful, but its natural and healthy. Stay safe my friend :
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FYI as they were a regular to this thread, but a member again requested they be removed from the forum today. Weāve honored that request, and some threads around them may now be confusing/missing pieces.
Thank you to all who helped support their sobriety and reached out. Wishing them a long and healthy road, and all of you as well! 
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@050Nl my condolences on your loss. I do imagine what you are going through. Stay strong and sober. Time will heal wounds in your heart.
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Checking in highly excited as reached two weeks what is the longest time I have had no drink in a long long time.
Had some stupid thoughts that I deserve a drink because of the achievement but some nice voice in my head said āforget about it you sily idiotā
Well done everyone on another achieved sober day. Wish you strongly minded and sober Wednesday TS community.
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@Girlinterrupted thanks to God you are alive and checking here, hatred is all around and itās a world which worship violence. I pray for yo my friend I pray for your Country which I really love because I lived there six years of my life. 
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Missed a few days on this thread and over 400 unread posts! Gone 11pm so not the time for me to catch up on them all.
Just opened the window to let the cool air in and thought I would share the full moon on its way before I lay down for bed.
A good reminder of the cycle of things, the ebb and flow of life. The sun comes up tomorrow, and we start again. Night all 
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Thank you my dear Looks like Iām in for another night of it. I support the cause, sleep loss is a small price to pay. But man, Iām getting loopy.
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619 days since my last drink. Feels like a life time ago. I have a hard time connecting with who I was, which is strange to me because it really wasnāt that long ago; in the grand scheme of things. Iām having a hard time making sense of it. Is it a good thing?
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So sorry for the loss of your friend @050Nl
Wishing yourself and all others affected by their passing peace and strength.
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Just completed 3 days, and feeling good. Have a fruitful day everybody. Xx
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Iām so so sorry. This is heartbreaking. I wish there were words comforting enough. 
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- Thereās a lot of mixed emotions on here and in the real world. I am trying to be in a good frame of mind and I hope that doesnāt come across as insensitive to others.
Life has been evolving for me and Iām really at peace with the direction itās been going. Itās not for a lack of continuously trying to find balance. Itās been work. But slowly I am stabilizing. I have high hopes for the upcoming changes in my life and Iām not scared to be in that place. Usually I am pessimistic, so I donāt āsufferā too much from disappointment. Itās nice to be accepting that wherever Iām at, thatās where Iām supposed to be.
I mentioned going to Europe on my own previously and now Iām considering trying to go to Hawaii with my sonās this summer instead. Something to look forward to 
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Going to Hawaii with your sons sounds really nice, a good goal.
And I can relate to kind of hedging my bets (being pessimistic)ā¦if I donāt get my hopes up, I canāt be too disappointedā¦I get it.
Always good to see you here.
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Hi @SassyRocks! Always good to see you too 
Isnāt it a hard habit to break? But it really keeps a wall up which hinders a lot of growth (for me at least).
Iām a little concerned about changing my flight and then not being able to fly this summer, with COVID-19, but I might as well try
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FWIW, I cancelled, booked and changed many flights over March and Aprilā¦the airlines are generally giving travel credits instead of a refund, but you may get lucky and get a refund if you ask nice. As an aside, you can usually cancel very easily online without talking to a rep. Also, there are no cancellation fees or rebooking fees, so that is a plus. My parents just cancelled their August trip to New Englandā¦flights, car, airbnbsā¦no problem.
The travel credits I got were all good thru December of next year.
As for being a pessimistā¦it can keep me stuck sometimesā¦I try to allow my sunnier nature in when I can and just give myself a break when I canāt. Baby steps are still steps!
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