Thank you!
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Sorry youāre struggling, a you day with ice cream sounds perfect. Sending love 
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Hope the new meds help! I feel you on the mood swings. In a bit of a low at the moment. Weāll ride this out! Hang in there.
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I like this!!! Ice cream will fix anything.
Hope you feel better soon!!!
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Right on sizzz
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Day 106
Still going through the final arrangements for my father inlaw. Many of his wishes cannot be met due to Covid. I know he would be understanding.
My wife is so strong. Its been challenging dealing with her mother who has turned his death into her show. She is a terrible person but my wife and I have accepted the things we cannot control.
I would be lying if I said I havenāt thought of a drink. I played the tapes back and know a drink would be a terrible idea right now. I would definitely be off to the races after one. Everyone here helps to keep me sober. Not sure what I would do without this resource.
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oh yeah. Iām lovin it well done
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Great job on 106 days!!!
Hang in there and donāt pickup
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Thanks Kyle. Always great to hear from you. I dont have any intentions of picking up, just the crazy alcoholic brain thinking too much. I have such great accountability partners here and around me.
Keep up with the great work you do. Youāre an inspiration to me.
sorry I got distracted and wanted to say more than just well done soooo
You rock 
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Thatād super awesome!
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D 725
So if youāve followed my story on here, you know part of what I am trying to do is get back to doing things that I like to do, things that will give me fulfillment, things to put my energy into ā and if I can meet new people at the same time, two birds at once.
Today it dawned on me that there is a significant lack of creative outlet in my life, especially for someone like myself who loves the opportunity to be creative. I thought about it, and I think I would really love to get into improv/comedy/acting. I have always LOVED it when Iāve gotten the chance, and have actually been really good at it when the opportunity arises. Iāve been told as much, and I recognize it myself. I love making people laugh.
I worked at a summer camp in college and we used to do skits etc for the kids, both on the fly and scripted in advance, sometimes involving a musical number. I was really good at writing those and acting in them. I also do really well in those āteam buildingā type things that most people groan about, where you get to role play and play out improvised scenarios. When I started at my company we had to do a whole day of those and I ate it up, and I was great at getting laughs out of people. By the end, everyone was having fun. The woman who ran it actually asked me to come back and participate in the same program for future new hires, which I did for a bit before moving to another building for work. It felt great, I felt confident, and I was good at it! I want to get back to being that person!
When Iāve gotten to participate in things like this, I am very good at creating and playing characters, have a real knack for comedic timing and can be quick/witty, great at keeping a straight face when called for - even in ridiculous/amusing circumstances.
The only thing I canāt do (and not really interested) is stand-up. I do much better when I have people to play off of, and in scenario-based things rather than just telling jokesā¦so think like SNL-style type stuff.
Iām not sure where to start, as I havenāt been able to find anything that just lets people joinā¦but Iām really surprised this hasnāt dawned on me before as something to do, given how much I loved doing and that it was something I was good at. I just sort ofā¦forgot about it, as that person I once was faded away. I feel like I can be that again, as I begin to socialize more and rediscover my old self. Hoping I can find somewhere to startā¦Iām really excited!
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Thanks Beth. The dentist is only taking emergencies and Iām not considered one. They told me to get orajel and take Tylenol. Itās working and I feel much better today.
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@TMAC
It sounds like you have been thinking to find something you are passionate about. I almost moved to Chicago to do that very thing. I knew someone that was working at The Second City. The plan was to move there crash with them and give it a shot. However, I was ultimately too messed up to make it happen. Where I was at the time, I would have been dead in a couple of months of moving. Needless to say I started working locally and the rest is history. You a young enough to give it a try. You never know where it will end up, but at least you would be doing something creative.
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Look into some improv places with amateur night? That would be really cool. Good luck in your endeavors towards that! It actually sounds really exciting. Iād croak on stage. 
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Day 15 was a huge struggle with stress and tiredness. I have been sleeping a total of 12 hours in last 3 days and today was so close to pick up a drink. Had my alcoholic thinking it will help me to go through stress and I will sleep well after but somehow I won with these cravings. I am in the bed already and will try to have a nice long sleep but looking at the last three days this wonāt happen and 6 hours would be enough.
I hope you have a great sober Wednesday.
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Thank you! I feel like itās going to stick. Iām tired of letting ādrinking meā holding me back. No more.
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Day 19. Flat tire 60 miles from home. I just bought that tire last week. No road hazard protection.
They couldnāt put on the spare because the tools to drop it are missing
Impermanence, I embrace you.
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