Checking in at a sleepy 6.28 days (still riots). I feel like I have my sober mojo back. My sober confidence and desire for sobriety has returned. I don’t know how or why I lost it, but I have a feeling my BPD played into it. Had a great first meeting with my therapist yesterday. I’m excited to work with him. He specializes in all the things that makes me such a fuck up. That is so rare to find. I need a very specific personality in a therapist, and he has it.
I had a really nice long chat with my first husband about my treatment and the kids. He’s being incredibly supportive and is doing what he can to work with them to help my relationship with them. My mental illness ruins so many relationships, most impactful, my kids and first marriage. I want all those years back, but I can’t. I can only move forward and focus on the future.
Bizarre day at work yesterday. Did a long walk last night to shake it off. Layoffs are starting, so prepping mentally for that possibility. Surprisingly got some good sleep last night.
Everyone have a great and sober hump day!!!
170 / 10 = Base 10 (17) (not sure if there is a meaning there. )
Day 466. I seem to be gradually moving out of the funk I’ve been stuck in recently. I have periods where I just feel like things will never change, that this is my life now and always will be. It really drags me down and sucks the life out of me. I really need to work on this. I had therapy all lined up and ready to go but then Covid hit. Fingers crossed it wont be too long until I can get a face to face appointment. If not i’ll have to start online which I really didn’t want to do.
Good morning TS folks rough night last night since it was hot and our a/c is not working very well at the moment 🤦 Checking in sober at the beginning of day 5. Time is flying by. I’ve been really working on and practicing staying in the moment. My new mood and stress supliment is helping along with tea. I’m having really bad cravings this morning but I’m gonna just ignore that stupid little voice of addiction. Have a great sober Wednesday everyone
Day 266. Struggling today with not wanting to go to work. I miss being able to work from home. But they are requiring us in the office now. I’m also stalled on my step work. Everything seems like a chore. More issues with my youngest daughter and the depression/anxiety she battles. She had a rough night last night. Night time seems to be the worst for her. I’m just feeling a bit blah today. I’d rather stay in bed all day than face life today. But I’m going to go on to work and do my duty. It just sucks today. Still sober and not craving so that’s good. I’ll try to hold on to that.
Day 10 checking in. I started to take steps to build new habits. I read for 20 minutes last night, set my alarm to wake up with enough time to get a workout in and be at work 20 minutes early. I’m going to avoid sleeping on on the weekends until I get in the groove. I’m starting to really like not drinking.
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Congratulations!!
rough night last night since it was hot and our a/c is not working very well at the moment 
🤦 Checking in sober at the beginning of day 5. Time is flying by. I’ve been really working on and practicing staying in the moment. My new mood and stress supliment is helping along with tea. I’m having really bad cravings this morning but I’m gonna just ignore that stupid little voice of addiction. Have a great sober Wednesday everyone 
