Checking in at 60 days! 2 months, I feel like a superhero.
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Forgot to add, son with ADHD having meltdowns about homework isnāt helping. He forgot books at school, and when I said we would have to go pick them up together he started hitting himself, which he picked up from me anyway. And then I did it too, just to try and make him stop and because of the guilt he does it because of me. I know the best way to be a good example, but it is so hard.
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Day 1 
I had my first reset a few days ago after hitting day 15. It happened when a friend and his daughter were over. His daughter was drinking beer all day, which didnāt bother me. Then when we sat down that evening to watch a show he opened wine, poured us both a glass and sat one by me. No asking, no discussion, he just sat it down be me and I just drank it, and then a few more glasses ā¦ then a few glasses each of the next 2 nights. Alas. What I learned is Iām not strong enough to be around others having drinks yet. That will take time and I should have known that. I do believe if I picked up my phone and spent some time on this thread I would not have just blindly drank it, which is another lesson learned. Thanks to all of you for your ongoing inspiration.
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Checking in day 3.
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Well done on your sober days and good luck with no smoking your more than likely going to be very irritable to start with but it sonn passes and for many day 3 can be a bit of tearful moment. Youāve already shown us what you are made of so itās just one more fight and so far your the one still standing.
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so proud of you, its amazing what you can achieve with self belief and a little bit of support. 
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another lesson learnt, itās all part of the journey and the most important thing is to log it in the old grey matter with all the other triggers and stay aware 24/7, I could easily have got wasted yesterday and Iāve been saying for over a month how easy it is this time round bc Iāve learnt so many lessons I canāt be fooled again but keep your guard up bc your mind is the most dangerous trigger of all. Someone could pour us 10 glasses of wine but they never picked it up and poured it down our throat. proud of you for coming back for another crack at the old sobriety gig.
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Just do like Tom Hanks in āCast Awayā and pop that sucker out with an ice skate 
In seriousness, Iām sorry to read youāre having a rough time. Know what its like when it feels like everything is gone to shit and you just want to breakdown. Its awful.
I like @C_8 idea of just trying to get to bed. 99% of the time, there will be a big difference in the morning (maybe not for dental pain, but stress etc yes). Its like a cheatcode to fastforward through the bullshit. You know you can always message me if youād like to talk as well.
Hope youāre feeling a bit better by the time you read this!
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Day 579 and checking in ā¦so much to say and yet canāt find the words to writeā¦
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Almost 250 daysā¦
Went out yesterday to the beach and had kind of a spiritual goodbye for My lost friend.
Putted his name in the sand to be washed away by the tide so his soul could travel along with the current to places unknown.
It was my first trip since the operation and felt really good.
Have a great day everybody
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Day 4 check in!!Iāve deleted all social media except forTS, I need this tribeā:v:t2:
.Have a good Sober day
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Day 122. Had a good evening with my girls yesterday. Got a nice 5 mile jog before they came, and today is my Friday got a nice lil 4 day weekend. Hope everyone has a good day. So many of you are rocking the shit out your sober days. Proud of all you
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Ugh, sorry to hear. By now hopefully youāre resting up. Sending strength 
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Iām looking forward to starting testosterone when I turn 18
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Way to go! How wonderful of your 19-year-old to offer to help with the littles. I quit over 20 years ago cold turkey. I was a heavy smoker. The first three weeks I was a raging bitch, emphasis on raging. However, once it was over, it was over. Iāve been an obnoxious ex smoker ever since lol.
Now Iām working on obnoxious ex drinker. How nice it would be to be totally repulsed by it!!
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7.29 days. Struggling with motivation to work. Itās so isolating not having my guys with me even though I talk to them all day long. I just miss being around them. Iām allowing myself this week to rest and trying not to judge myself. Iāve doing the bare minimum. I just got out of the hospital Friday, no sleep there, then no sleep since Iāve been back due to the riots outside. So Iām sure being exhausted has something to do with it.
On a positive note, Iām so grateful to be sober right now. I donāt know what funk came over me that I didnāt want it anymore, but itās gone. However, I know it can come back at any time and I need to prepare myself. My BPD diagnosis gives me great insight into myself. The medication they have me on has already helped improve my ED. It will be a long road, but Iām more aware of my thoughts and actions if that makes sense.
Have a great sober day friends 
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@Misokatsu
Nice work on 3 weeks plus!!!
Great job.
@Nvbookthief
Wow, almost to 6 mos. Great job!!!
@Paulaloha
2 months is fantastic!!!
You should be proud.
@CharlotteGal
Weāve all been there, the main point is getting back up after you fall down.
Good luck on Day 1!!!
@Fargesia_murielae
Great post!! Nice work on 301 days.
@joyce19
3 days down, keep pushing for a week
@girlinterrupted
Nice work on 7.29 days
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Day 20. Have to have an uncomfortable conversation today with someone I called while I was drunk. When I drink, I get very chatty and call people. Then I have to deal with the fall out of that for the next few weeks. So embarrassing and anxiety producing.
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Checking in at the beginning of day 6. Feeling pretty good just tired. Itās weird how the first couple days I feel great then I just sort of fizzle out, Iām sober though so thatās the main thing. Sure Iām behind on laundry and housework but Iām sober and that is what truly counts. I was doing well with staying in the moment then suddenly the last couple days itās been more difficult. Iām having cravings waking up again this morning but I am going to ignore that and keep it moving. Just seeing how much money I have left and tomorrow is payday is incentive to keep going for sure. Have a wonderful sober day all and strength to anyone who is struggling, stay strong TS peeps 
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