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Thnxx
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Day 18 => 162 days until 6 months sober
Weird week at work, but I am not going to let it get in and start festering.
I can only worry about the things I can control.
Very good SMART meeting last night. There have been some good ones this week.
Work, cycle, dinner, sleep, rinse, and repeat 
Hopefully everyone has a great and sober day!!
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Day 23, waiting for the phone call to do a day surgery⌠carpal tunnel. Hanging out on the back patio with my daughter and her cats. Trying not to think about food or waterâŚmaintaining my fast until I hear from the hospital. They havenât received my Covid test results yet. The new normal.
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Day 0.42, trying to get back on the train after a walk in the woods. It is hard. Late at night, in the middle of the night and in the early morning, itâs a certitude that I want to quit and be better with myself, for myself and my relations. And then the hours goes on and before noon Iâm already thinking of booze. I did reinforce in the last 10 days those cognitives habit by acting on it, by going to the groceries, and binge-drink really fast - but not too much, so I can still look normal or just tired to my girlfriend at night when she comes back from work. It started like it always does: a cozy drinking at the chalet on the first night; then the right next day and the rest of the week drinking secretly. Unfortunately for me, I found peace with the guilt of secrecy, which gave me the sad opportunity to continu it towards the week. For a day or two I thought it was genius: âIf I donât feel guilty about drinking then I donât have a problem; isnât how normal drinkers think of their drinking?â What a pity. I was only lying to myself. Lies, lies, and lies. Now breaking this cycle of lies is going to be hard, because I am in the same environment, alone in my little appartment, having school stuff to do from home that I donât want to. I feel like I have to start from the beginning, like if Iâve never been able to be sober before: this is a weird feeling. Especially when I think that itâs only been 10 days since I picked back up. My thoughts are all over the place, and I think thatâs why I go so quickly on the shit food and drinks: to make it stop. But it wonât stop if I continu this. I gotta get through that first day first.
Wishing a good day to everyone!
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Be kind to yourself right now. Just try to focus on the sober, and your mindset will naturally improve. Iâm glad youâre posting and look forward to walking with you on your sobriety journey 
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When we get to the point of quitting, we have accumulated some really bad habits and emotions.
Pulling out of those is uncomfortable and hard. Our emotions are a wreck and so are we.
Take it one hour at a time in the beginning.
The longer you go the more your mind will clear.
Good Luck on day 1!!!
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Journal onâŚyou are helping yourself and others along the way.
Congratulations on your 158 days!!!
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itâs good to see you getting out and about, Itâll do you the world of good. take care mate.
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Been very depressed lately and very very unmotivated. Still sober and do pretty good the first part of the day walking the dogs and exercising. But the rest of the day I feel like shit.
Read this todayđand I hope I come back and read it again and again to stay hopeful.
Then one day we see: the reason we didnât get what we wanted was because God had something much better planned for us.
Glad yâall are here.
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Checking in on day 28.
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We need to be totally honest to be sober. With ourselves in the first place. Which will make us more honest with others too. You seem very honest here. Thatâs a good beginning. Build on it. One day and one truth at a time.
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No dental pain this morning! 
It has been replaced with the toilet sounding like an ornery Chewbacca. It starts suddenly and goes on and on, very loudly, but stops for a few minutes if you flush the toilet 
Itâs already been looked at/fixed at least three times, and still the problem continues! Agghhh⌠But I am determined to keep a positive attitude! I can let one loud nuisance detract from my day, or I can let it ruin the entire thing by fixating on how awful it is.
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Sadly, I am not surprised.
Iâm back to day 1 ⌠this week has been a tough week and rather then reaching out I reached for the bottle⌠Iâm so disappointed Iâve lost 8 months of sobriety this is the 2ed time Iâve got this far ⌠but I wonât give up the fight . Wishing you all a blessed day x x
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All things up ass sucks 
Thanks connor ,
I hope your good over there.
And yes, ( @Dolse71 ) Paul, of really die me well.
The wounds seem to finaly start healing a bit but imma gonna take it alle with my expaxtations before they run me down.
Be well peopz
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Oh sweetie, Iâm sending a big, strong hug⌠Youâre doing your best and youâre still awesome. Youâve been a rock for me since day one and you still are. Love youâŚ
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Hey, you came right back and that 8 months still counts. Be kind to yourself. I know how devastating it is, but Iâm so impressed you jumped right back on the horse 
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