Having a difficult time. Making deals with myself.woke up with profanity and hatred in my head. I am doing yoga for the next hour to see if it helps. Thanks
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Day 320. Vacation is drawing to an end. Figured the best way to end it was with a dentist appointment tomorrow. Partying hard, I know.
Nothing major to report. Just cruising through the day.
Have a strong day!!!
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Idk why, but I always like going to the dentist. Youâre a party animal, lol.
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Hey thanks bro!! Hope things are going well for you.
Stay safe and healthy my friend! 
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Thanks so much!! 
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Whoot whoot !!! Big up en trots op je doorzettingsvermogen ! Go on bruv
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Youâre a great man, with a great soul.
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Checking in day 3. I have never been as pressured by others to drink as I was last night. It actually just made me feel physically sick, itâs so ridiculous how people act because someone wonât drink with them and i hope I never made anyone feel that way myself. Anyway I ended up packing up and just coming home and Iâm so glad I did. Now I can enjoy my day with no hangover and on my own terms. I was a little sad it went down that way at first but I actually feel grateful it happened.
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365 days today @Mno!! Thatâs about when I started using this app and I have greatly enjoyed reading your journey and watching you grow. I feel like I have been touring Amsterdam with all your beautiful photos!! Great job on 365! 
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That Iâm unfair, unkind, self-servingâŚ
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Day 3 check in here, thank you everyone who reached out to me. You guys are like family @anon79808082 @Mtrav0040 @Misokatsu @Matt @Mno @crystalclear @Girlinterrupted @liv_m @Fargesia_murielae and everyone else.
This restart has been a struggle. Which I think is a huge lesson in itself. You never know if a slip up will just be a âdusting off of your kneesâ or a 2 week+ (so far) mental and physical battle to get back up. Itâs been such a waste of my life Iâve been dealing with this when I feel like I was past all this.
Glad you are okay @GVLNative, that is so scary! How do you feel today?
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Congratulations @Mno on 365 days!! You are such an asset to this forum! You always share kindness, compassion and wisdom. Feel proud of yourself today! Your sobriety is inspiring. Love from Texas to you in Amsterdam 
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Day 27, whew! Had a rough night. Sleepless, negative thinking, and self hatred. I worked through by doing yoga and meditation, extra on meditation. I am a little balanced now. I will self monitor minute by minute!
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Day 6. Will be glad to get the first week out of the way 
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I have to enforce rules as part of my job. It is punishment, essentially. Being the person to make sure that amends are done appropriately to suit the ordinances/laws of the county and state that I live in is hard. Keeping my ego and judgement out of my work is difficult.
I see the value in protecting natural resources but itâs also hard to separate out the personal from the professional at times when my character is attacked. Being in a small rural community makes things interesting too.
But I am just too focused on the self, this job has given me a platform in the community too.
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Day 225. First day back to work, got this picture on the way in, if i wasnt on my commute i wouldâve missed it.
Congratulations on 365 @Mno thatâs an amazing accomplishment!
@GVLNative. Are you alright? Itâs a damn good thing you had a helmet on, wow.
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