Way to go, sober is the best way to celebrate your birthday. Wishing you all the best. 
Blessings and sobriety!
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Oh, I can so relate!
It takes a lot, I think - to rewire this part of the brain - but that was my last relapse. To undo the associations. But actually - the company of good friends and family, beautiful hikes, outdoor meals in the sun, whatever it is - this is the summer I āgetā to just enjoy them all for what they already are. I know, itās going to be a lot of work sometimes, and other times - I bet it feels amazing.
Hang in there! And have a fantastic weekend. 
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Checking in on day 35. 
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Day 18 and I have never felt better. You guys are all kicking ass, stay strong!
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Checking in at 90 days sober :)
itās been a whirlwind thus far, but Iām feeling better each day
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Congrats on 90 days!! Thatās awesome. Keep up the good work.
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Checking in, sober. Day unknown, several months. I stopped counting because it makes me feel like I have a destination and it will end some day. This way is easier for me. I just donāt drink.
Second time in two weeks I am invited to a bithday party. First one was one of my old hangouts, walking distance. I did fine with club soda.
This one is a restaurant for just the party. The expat group is constantly making plans about music, dancing, food and booze. The birthday girl is my friend, she knows some of my sttrugles. She immediately asked me with a pm and I said; I think it would be too tempting for me at this point. She was very supportive and we agreed on a tea date.
I avoid social situations. It has helped. I still donā t feel comfortable being open about drinking. A few does know and one of them is judgemental. Once we were at her house and she offered wine, drinks etc. to everyone but asked me if I wanted tea. I never went back. This is a decision you make yourself, for yourself. No need for a babysitter.
I felt hurt.
Anyway, I am not going and will be happy at home watching TV tomorrow.
Wow! Felt great to vent. Thank you for listening.
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Day 9 hereā¦oddly satisfying. My friend commented the other day that it looked like Iād lost weight. I certainly donāt feel it yet, but I must not be as bloated anymore because I did lose weight when I checked this morning 
itās the little things
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Perfect. Well done making this decision!
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Day 5ā¦I set up my day counter thingy wrong prob because I was still hungover.
Today will be ok. Trying to start a healthier schedule for at least 30 days by getting up, working out, doing the self healers journal and watching about 20 minutes of Dr. Nicoleās videos on YouTube. The sabotaging voices in my head were telling me this morning that I donāt need to get up, just stay in bed and do it later. Iām surprised Iām already struggling at Day 5. I really thought it would come later. Itās actually a really good thing though because Iām becoming more aware of my self sabotaging behavior. I really thought I wasnāt that bad but I have obviously just been lying to myself. Anyway, good luck today everyone! Push through with positive thoughts and behaviors!
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Checking in on day three!
Last night was hard. I was horribly pmsing and felt emotional about a bunch of things I had been trying to escape. I had trouble falling asleep because those thoughts would just swiral around in my mind. I knew I had to address these issues with healthier choices. Last night I decided to try and accept how I was feeling, but to dwell on the past doesnāt do anything productive for me. I cannot change what happened in the past, but I can change my future.
I plan on going for a run today, do some yoga, spring clean my clothing (out with the old), and then I have a small weight workout at the gym with a friend.
Also, during withdrawalā¦ has anyone experienced really itchy skin? And how long do night sweats last, along with the trouble falling asleep right away?
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Hey, day 4 here, had no sweats last night, but still hard to fall asleep, but already better then last day. Felt fresh this morning for the first time. Worked out 3 times in the last days, I guess it has helped a little with that.
Good job on 3 days 
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Itchy skin is very normal. No idea why. Night sweats are too. Just washed my sheets so hope they stop soon. Withdrawal is awful. Typically takes me to day 5 to start feeling normal. I just finished day 3 this morning. Glad youāre here, and good for you for hitting the gym!
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Late evening check in. My weekend started. Mailed the psychologist, she offered me a place in a therapy group in another town where I could start soon instead of the 8 months Amsterdam waiting list. Itās 50km away, about an hour travel one way. Thinking about it. All around feeling a lot better than yesterday. Love form Amsterdam where slowly itās getting busier. A town needs to live I guess.
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Hope the pooch is ok! Take care!
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Day 20 here, checking in to keep the focus.
Have a great day all.
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I think I will but Iāll sleep on it first. Itās group therapy so they want me to commit to the group. So no transfer to Amsterdam later. I can understand that.
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Thank you and the same to you. Itās the rewiring part thatās the most difficult one I think. Especially when you drink out of habit, and thatās definitely a thing I need to work with. I just wish it was a bit easier. 
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Thanks I know that I need to choose to not drink, and I will. I just wish it was a little easier. But youāre right, itās hard for everyone to quit an addiction. I hope you get an amazing weekend.
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Likwise 
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