25 days you guys, itās a rainy day here. Midsummer on Friday is still making me nervous but Iāve checked out some mocktails and a non alcoholic strawberry champange Iām going to try. So I think Iāll be alright.
Shared parts of my life history in another thread here yesterday. Iāve never shared it before thereās a lot of details I skipped to make it shorter and more simple. But it feels like a huge relief to have getting that out from my mind in some way.
After 18 months I thought I could be like everyone else and had a glass of wine at Xmas, this drink lasted 9 months and Iāve never been sober as long since.
We canāt ever have one.
Day 3 today i took my new meds last night and slept so well itās lovely to wake up not shaking I still feel lots of anxiety but hopefully in a few more days that will passā¦ Iām determined to stay clean and soba I just hate that my mental health suffers so much it like I battle each day with both illnesses. Sending so much love and strength to each and every one of you x
Happy Birthday!! Sounds like a much better one this year 
20.22 Daysā¦ I just canāt sleep lately. Iāve been taking melatonin and I fall asleep just fine. I just wake up so much. I toss and turn a lot. I gave up at 4 something this morning. No biggie as I used to wake up shortly after 4am before quarantine started.
Feeling a little funky on my meds, Iām sure thatās temporary. No biggie there either. My guys are now coming in to work on a regular basis. This really helps me not slack, sort of. Half the time Iām just sitting on my ass pretending to be productive 
. My motivation is such shit. The good news is that I have zero desire to drink and the meds seem to be helping with my ED too 
How nice it would be for my hair to stop falling out. Once my motivation for, well, life returns, Iāll get on my super sonic health kick lol. Itās all or nothing with me.
Anyway, a foggy pic from this morning. Weāve had ridiculously cold weather breaking records. We should be around 90s like last week. This week 50ās-60ās. Itās the strangest thing! Weāll be back in the 80ās-90ās by tomorrow I think.
Day 26 today 
Have a lovely day/evening everyone 
Day 135. So yesterday I tried just letting my friend know that I felt used with him only asking for help with weed whacking and it went kind of sour, he said āI canāt believe you just sent me this text after all the help I did for you in the pastā he made up of helped but I always returned the favor always. So yeah other then that I didnāt feel bad about it, and I didnāt have any sort of regret. I honestly felt really good and Iām moving on c ya later dude 
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Other wise everything is going good, I got a nice jog and bike ride. I donāt have any complaints itās been a while since Iāve had some of my emotional roller coaster lol and this vipassana meditation is awesome, it is the life style of Buddhism and it really is keeping me in my body and out of my head. Anyways hope everyone has a good day
Your doing amazing my friend I always feel better once Iāve shared my struggles I takes a weight off my mind . Itās great u have a plan ready for Friday remember to reach out at anytime were all here 4 u x
I havenāt checked in for a while. But checking in sober. Camping this weekend finally. Excited to get out, but also apprehensive for numerous reasons about the trip. Hope youāre all doing well. Thank you for continuing to inspire me 
Thank you dear, Iāll probably check in a lot on midsummer if it gets to hard. Most people here starts drinking in the morning or even the day before and keeps it up all weekend. The drinking tradition in Sweden is strong. We donāt really have the tradition of going to the pub to have a few beers after work. We stay sober during the weeks and get Viking drunk on holidays and weekends. Not a very helpful culture if youāve got a drinking problem. And Iām very happy that Iāve found this app with all the support that is here.
As I previously wrote in the other thread Iām not stronger than anyone else in here, and we all deserve to be sober and have a good life. Wishing you all the best 
Thank you, It does feel better. And it feels a lot easier to talk to people in here who actually understands whatās going on and can relate.
Iāll keep you guys updated, and I really hope my plan works.
I hope youāre having a good day 
Sunny morning here, coffee in hand. Wow, today is day 60
95th dayā¦
Waiting for 100daysā¦
Good for you. Being honest and open is the way to go. You demonstrated self love and compassion. You inspire me!
Thank you 
Day 5.
Still off work,waiting to be tested,Hopefully today.Stay Safe and Sober 
Day 2
Forgot how much alcohol is a depressant in the long term, recovered from the physical hangover but the emotional one, yikes. Tomorrow my friend with cancer wants me to help her Zoom call her family, she is too weak to hold the phone, or talk loud enough to hear over a phone. Visitors should only be family but I have special permission as her family is in Canada. Being there in such a personal and hard moment is going to be difficult, but so much worse for her obviously so will just do what I can.
What a blessing for you both that you can be there for your friend.