Waking up to a misty morning here, we’ve have a weird week of gorgeous sunshine mixed up with thunderstorms and heavy rain. Think it’s due to dry up a bit soon and get onto something like Summer!
Hey, @CapriciousCapricorn ? I’m catching up since yesterday on posts (it’s like I’m reading a novel and can’t skip a page! gotta read 'em all) and your post from a few days ago? Please just give yourself the same compassion and love and cheerleading that you give to all of us… please?
And @Misokatsu ? Same same thing as StellaLuna said…
Day 187! Birthday today, and honestly it was a pretty good one in the end. My birthday last year was kind of my rock bottom, as I blacked out and have no memory of my party at all. It was awful, and I woke up just completely disgusted with myself. That was kind of the beginning of me getting sober, and although I relapsed about 2 months later I am happy that I kept at it and am where I’m at now. It’s nice to ring year 23 in sober.
It’s a huge relief!! I feel like I can finally move on.
I like your idea of tiny habits. I’m going to start this. I have a bad habit of making the bed at bedtime. What good is that?! lol. Tomorrow I will start doing it in the morning.
8 days, 11hrs, 41mins…
Last I really checked in was Day 4, Friday for me, before I was about to leave my home and drive to meet friends for the weekend to go hiking - the first time in 4-5 months now that I would see my friends.
Friday was hard. I had to overnight in a hotel on the highway (fine), but normally - I would have something cold and “rewarding” moments after check-in. I know this is the re-wiring that the little electricians in my brain are madly working on, but it’s going to take a lot…
Saturday, I was glad to wake up feeling good, I finished my drive, met my pals, we drove even more, and by late afternoon we had hiked up to a glacier - beautiful. Something about being in nature, always, makes me feel like a kid again, when I was safe and healthy and just myself… But it gets better! At the top, the clouds blew in, and an electrical storm came - with small hailstones - and we had to run down in the mud and hail and rain. Impossible to keep the feet dry. Impossible not to feel completely alive. We overnighted in a cabin out of cell range, and then hiked some more on Sunday before heading back to the city, where I worked from their home for a few days. Now I am halfway back to my home in the north.
My time on the highway got me thinking… so much of my earlier efforts were aimed at what I would not do. This time? I will reach instead for life, for moments that make me feel so alive they could only be sober moments. I will keep climbing this mountain until I can see, and maybe even then there will be higher peaks yet to climb…
I will not do this alone.
Thank you for your strength and courage and companionship.
With love and wet feet from the Canadian Rockies!
M
Now im really intetested, what kind of project you have in mind.
I guess its important to fill up the “extra time” with new things we like or we love to be doïng.
Personaly i have side project as well and id saved me in more then 1 way, also the social part en effects were a blessing.
Anyway intreged
Imma do a quick check in… nothing really new here… really bored and want to go home. Maybe next week…