Day 142. My check did come yesterday so that was definitely a relief, was able to go get my vegan foods and fruits and almond milk. I think that was mainly why I was so upset, I’m on day I think 10 of meditations, and so far it’s still definitely improved alot for me. I am way more calm and attentive to others, the white light I talked about only happened twice and haven’t had it since. My girls come home today, so super excited about that, and that’s about it. Have a good Weds everyone
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I’m glad to see that you are doing well. We can do this together, just remember to take one day at a time. I’m not the best example of that though because I’m constantly looking forward worrying, but I feel like this app is very helpful. Keep fighting for it, and eventually you’ll reach your goal. 
Day 210. I’ve been thinking about drinking more often. I need to be mindful about it and work on those feelings.
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Checking in. Struggling now with my decision of enrolling my little guy (recently turned 5) into summer camp. It’s the “school” he went last year, a Montessori, which had been incredible for his growth & development; he’s come leaps and bounds socially after some struggles in past. That means I go back to commuting; to working from my office (his school is in my work town) and the cost is a bit of a struggle, but it’s sooooo good for him. It will be a group of 8 for the camp. I’m just full of self doubt reading about parents saying there is no way they’d put their kids at risk of the virus. I’m notorious for self doubt, mom guilt, second guessing myself. But I dunno. I feel it will be so good for him. Ughhhhh. Serenity now.
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27.28 days… My divorce got continued again, so it will be another few months. No biggie. A form was missed, so they brought it to me yesterday.
Not a great day with my 14-year-old yesterday. I’ve always been insecure about my relationship with her. From the time she was born, she strongly favored her father. It was a really hard pill to swallow and has always bothered me. I feel very disconnected from her. My drinking has only hurt that. She lives with him and his wife now. I found out that she follows her stepmom on Instagram, but not me. I mentioned it and it turned into this whole thing. I understand it seems stupid, but I feel unloved and replaced/forgotten. I know some of it is my BPD, but I still have so much work to do there. I went to sleep with so much shame that I couldn’t control myself and confronted a 14-year-old about something seemly so stupid. I was sick with sadness though all day yesterday when I realized. Then I started to think about what other people would say if they noticed, and it was just a downward emotional spiral of a day. By 7pm, I ended up calling my other daughter hysterically crying. I’m just crushed. I felt a lot better after talking to her. I shouldn’t have bothered her with it either. Sigh.
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That sounds like it would bring up a lot of emotions, I can see why you would be concerned. Of course you are doing what is best for your little guy. My daughter is going thru the same with our grandson (just turned 6) and sending him to summer camp. He starts next week. She has to get back to full time work outside the home (she is a painter and designer). She struggled with the back and forth as well and hears the same from others. This is the right choice for them tho. When we talk about it, she frames it as not living in fear of the unknown.
I hope you can find some peace in your decision, which you deserve.
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Day 2! I struggled to sleep last night, but past that I’m feeling motivated. I’ve got productive plans for after work and I’ve got plenty of work ahead of me today, so being busy and productive should help with careless thoughts on drinking. Have a great day, everyone!
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Finishing day 4 onto day 5. I’m sitting at work now thinking about how I’m feeling better but strangely the addict voice comes into my head and tells me how a drink would sound good after work. My plan is to acknowledge the voice and chose not to drink. Thanks but no thanks… not today at least. Day 5 here I come!
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Day 2 sober. Still very numb inside, one of the things I wish the most is to cry from my guts but I can’t
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@Girlinterrupted 
After all you are sober… you passed the test. And a mother is a mother no matter what. Stepmother is another thing but not a mother.
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Day 45 today this was next on my journey to make it to after 30 and I’ll tell u I almost didn’t make it yesterday my addiction came back and turned into an obsession wanted me back out but omfg I can’t believe I’m even texting this message that I woke up sober and off with the journey again I am soooooooooooo fucken grateful that the torch was next to me still when I woke up I can’t let this thing go for anyoneeee not even mysef when it says let go . Love everyone keep going
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Thank you so much my friend!
Glad it’s normal to have difficulty with the sitting part…definitely going to give the towel suggestion a shot.
It was tough yesterday, and my legs are sore today just from stretching in ways that are different from my norm. Going to have a go at it again today, different video 
It’s challenging, but it’s added something new to my days.
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Thank you, this looks great! Going to try this video as well!
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Ugh and now the off and on inflammation in my hip turned into an OUCH during my morning run and I had to call my husband to pick me up (and wake him lol). Guess I will be doing lots of yin and resting from HIIT and running for a few days.
Enjoy the yoga! Adrienne has lots to choose from!!
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Oof! Good luck with your hip, I’ve been there. Pulled something in the socket, took a few days to get out of that one.
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Thank you! Fingers crossed that a bit of rest does the trick.
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I think it was ok to bring it up; it bothered you and it’s a legitimate feeling to address. I am (try) to be clear and honest with my son; short and sweet is my usual.
I hop you have a great day hun!
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Day 00. Sorry Team 
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No need to apologize to us. Today is a great day to be sober.
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Thank you. Ugh…
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