@M-be-free49 Sorry to hear you are starting over again today. We are all here for you and 
you!! Whats important is you get back up and keep going!! You’ve got this!
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I wouldn’t know if there was any, I tried the body scan thing but that doesn’t work for me
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That is seriously impressive timing !!!
Congratulations! I can remember when 15 days seemed unachievable to me. Great job. 
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Thanks! Was good timing for a screenshot lol
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Day 598.
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Wow! Congratulations!
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Checking in on day 81. So glad I stopped poisoning myself daily!
Out and about exercising this morning
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Yes this is for real, your recovery and sobriety is for real, you’re 15 days sober is for real. Congratulations that is a great start… Stay focused and determined in your resolve. The “promises” do come true and that is for real.
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Honestly? When I read your posts and what you have been through, are going through, and how you are facing it - with courage and honesty and authenticity - please just know that I’ve put you in that group of people whose example I want to follow, whose strength I will summon when mine is waning… hugs to you, thank you for sharing your journey… 
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@Clarity , @SassyRocks, @Charlie_C, @LeeHawk and the rest of you… thank you for your encouraging, non-judgmental, supportive replies…
End of Day 00. I need to go back and figure out how this happened. I know there was/is a perfect storm of “life stuff” going on right now - but there will always be that to some extent, and I know I need to find a place in myself that is safe and sheltered and sober and it doesn’t matter what is going on in life - that I can trust I won’t reach for a drink to try to deal with it all.
The truth? I didn’t want to belong to this club. I didn’t want these challenges. I guess I just wanted to turn it in, like a membership to a gym or yoga studio that I chose not to belong to anymore. But I have to accept that I either belong to this club - with you bunch of amazing, supportive, crazy (I mean that in a good way), beautiful humans, or I belong to the lonely club of me - trashing my life slowly, one day at a time - jeopardizing my health, the job I love, the friendships I adore, the opportunity to live my life to the fullest.
So, if I have to pick which club to belong to, I pick this one. Also? I missed you all when I was making other choices. I missed the support, the companionship, the total understanding and non-judgment I get from others who know something of all of this…
Thanks for being here. I will keep showing up. I will try to do better this time.
M
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Let’s start at the beginning, again… Thanks for being here for me - and I am here for you too!
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Spent 6 days out of my home country. Left alone with my thoughts a lot, both good and bad. I thought coming home would help but it didn’t. I feel distant and unimportant. Trying to remember to live for me but feel like “me” isn’t with it.
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I’m kinda badass, and yep - I’m back 
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280 Days. My sisters have Covid. They’re in Florida where they’re experiencing an increase in cases. They’re doing well so far. Keeping fingers crossed it doesn’t get worse. On a better note, my brother in law is getting a lil better. Still on a ventilator most of the day. He’ll be transferred to a rehab facility in a few days. Then they’ll focus on getting him to breath completely on his own. His progress has been slow but his spirits are up. Today we had the memorial service for our friend’s daughter who passed from an overdose. It was very difficult to watch these parents suffering. I wish I could have done more to help them feel better. My sobriety continues to be tested but I’m finding it easier to get thru these tough times. A drink or a drug will not bring anyone back nor will it heal the sick.
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Oh Lisa! Sending you love and hugs and strength and gratitude for the example that you are for me, even just today -
Please take care,
M
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Thank you Emm! 
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- Coffee and work. Found out yesterday I really need to quit this job. Stayed here at least 2 years to long. I’m scared. But in a way relieved I truly realise this. Action is needed. I need to move. Which is my weakness. Just keep breathing right. One step in front of the other. Have a good day all. Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam.
@Lisa07 that’s a lot to handle lady. Take care. In my thoughts.
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Early checking in in the morning before work. Day 19. Wishing you all a great sober day full of sunshine 
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Day 196!! Today was pretty good. Finally got my haircut and beard trimmed after 4 months of quarantine, so glad about that 
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