Thank you dear 
He is a jerk, but not worth drinking over. I’ve never stayed sober this long before and the best I can do is to keep walking the sober path.
Thank you for your words and encouragement, I’m sure Karma have something planned for him in the future.
How are you today?
Well for me I have to book way in advance because my colleagues want to go on vancation too and we can’t go all at the same time. I wanted holiday in the coming weeks but I was to late so now I have to wait till the middle of August. No specific weeks we have to take it . Only some specific lines of work have to take holidays in summer. Teachers of course, and people in the building industry, but that’s getting less and less.
Thank you sweetie. He did ruin my day, but with all those wonderful words of encouragement I won’t let it ruin my eve or night.
My husband just talked to his boss, and they are going to take the this guy in for an extra meeting. We provided the boss with the entire investigation but I’m not sure the boss have the legal rights to let him go because of that anyway. But at least he won’t work with my husband another day.
Unfortunately I’m sure that’ll come back to me in form of trouble but as you said, I’m probably the right person to tackle that.
Thank you so much for your nice words. I hope everything is good with you today 
I see, here the big industries like factories closes in the middle of the summer, and some workers like my husband (roadworker) gets the same weeks off because there’ll be to much people on the roads driving to vacation spots during that time.
Other places like the nursing homes or the stores have few weeks during this period, before and after where the workers can choose and apply to get wished weeks off.
Day 29. Late check in.
I know that feeling very well. I have the head full of knowledge for these feelings as well, and sometimes my brain just won’t let me use the tools. It’s really hard to use the knowledge for me know matter how hard I try sometimes. Hope you feel better
We’ve been legally separated for a year and a half now. The divorce keeps getting continued with Covid. Logically I know how bad it was, and I don’t know why I miss him so much. I literally have brain damage from the dude. I’m sure the BPD plays into this. I will talk about it with my therapist on Friday. I know in my gut, I should cut all ties. Thanks lady 
I attended my first AA meeting last night. On zoom. It did me a lot of good and I felt so peaceful afterwards. There is something about my shame that makes me desperately need anonymity. I did share with audio, but not video. My plan is to do another meeting tonight, right after WORK (my biggest trigger) and before picking up my cup, and maybe spend this evening sober.
Amazing work…so much to be proud of. 
checking in… my ego wants a drink. I’m doing what I need to do to stay sober, it’s not easy but we all knew it was never going to be easy just a case of how hard. I’ve tried this so many times and each time it has been different. This time it’s a total head fuck bc I can’t drink it must not happen. I would love it and hate it as soon as I had the first sip. I’ve got support where I need it but I must use it. Respect to all of you for doing this. Its time to make another miracle.
so pleased for you right now. 
Congratulations on your 30 days that’s brilliant Donna x
You know the drill, don’t fucking do it and play the tape, I know you’ve got this, good luck
cheers mate gonna eat, bath, podcasts, music and meetings. I’ve not got to get sober I’ve just got to stay here 
that’s the spirit
Day 344…closer and closer to the 3 day weekend. Nothing much going on, really.
Took the Axle bar for a spin today. Really pushing my grip strength, because it’s pretty weak at points.
Have a strong day!!!
U would love it and hate it at that first sip? That’s powerful I may have a diff substance but I can promise u I relate with that but think about once it’s in our system that overwhelming feeling of defeat and being petrified with the voice telling u that ur stuck again now that’s unbearable
Day 253.
Just took Josie for a 30 minute ‘walk’.
I think I did 43 steps 
I’m very well. Had a great start to my day. I am feeling more and more confident that I can handle any stress and unexpected event thrown my way without the need for a drink. I am so glad I found this app. The people on here are so encouraging and honest. I can’t go to real AA meetings right now. Hopefully they will be back soon, but I am not craving or desiring alcohol very often (mayne 2 times in my 24 days) so I feel confident that I can do this. The meetings are a help and I know there are online forums but I like face to face better. If I think I would slip I would jump right on here and ask for the help I need. You stay strong and let us enjoy this beautiful journey together. It is quite a wonderful thing. Pink clouding? I don’t believe that’s what is happening for me. I just beat the living shit out of myself enough times for enough years that I am ready to grow up and take the bull by the horns and wrestle it to the ground. To never forget the utter deapair I have felt at times and be grateful for each and every day of sobriety. I am not surging with happiness, just a real respect for how lucky I am to have this chance to find myself again after all these years. I hope you do to. Nice hearing from you and thanks for asking how I am. It’s nice to know someone cares. Sorry I went so long. Lol
