Thanks Nat!! 
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Day 93. its good to be me.
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Day 54 
feeling great today!
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absolutely awesome!!!
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GREAT accomplishment. Keep it going. 
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Apologies at the outset for the length of thisā¦ I was sooo busy at work yesterday and then slept 9 (bajillion) hours and now Iām all jacked up on 2 cups of my special dark roast coffee (Princess of Darkness 
) and some of you touched on things I wanted to respond toā¦
@Girlinterrupted About being torn about divorce? Right after my ex and I decided to end things (almost 10 years ago) we started getting along well. Marriage counselor said that in some cases, this is normal - because the pressure is off to make things work. And we were working on a common project again (of dismantling our marriage, house, etc.) We still get along - we share the now aging dog 
when either of us is travelling for work - or was, pre-covid, but Iām very glad we didnāt give it yet another tryā¦ I agree with the others: thereās never an excuse for abuse. Keep rockinā the sobriety!
@Salty 2nd anniversary of my late Dad was in May. I can relate - I still get tears almost every time I walk into the hardware store - one of his favourite places 
and I expect it will be a long time before I donāt, and thatās ok. (Though my home projects, er, need some work!) I think the fog of grief is starting to lift now because Iām not trying to cope with a glass in my hand - it made it worse, not better. Sending you virtual hugs and super soft kleenex. Iām guessing your folks are pretty proud of you and adore the little guy 
@Four2020 Yep, I can relate again. Iād get home from work, do some kind of exercise to rationalize that I had a healthy lifestyle, and then pour a glass. After Dad died, Mom (with dementia) was moved into a seniors home, and weād talk on the phone every night, about all of the changes (HARD) - me with glass in my hand, as you say. I would visit her every month, since I live in another city, but I havenāt now since Feb. because of covid - also HARD, so there were even more glasses, and by springtime, I knew I needed some help if I was going to change thingsā¦
Despite my stops/starts/sputter-sputter-cough-hiccup/bonk (a colleague said I ārelapse liteā, but they are relapses, no matter what you call them) - itās definitely better, and I know I want to do it differently. Sh*t is always going to happen, but unless Iām sober, Iām afraid how far down rock bottom could be. Iād rather say Iāve found it already, it was low enough - and that I can do this sober, whatever life puts in my path. I go to the hardware store for the tools I need, I will come to TS and my good pals for help when I need it too, but no more glass in hand. That tool didnāt work. Letās keep shaking off the shakey!
@Bootz About the caregivers at your Momās place? I can relate again! (Though honestly, they have done an amazing job - thank goodness). That is my big stressor right now, and one that is out of my control. Emotional sobriety is going to be most of this journey for me, I think - learning that the only thing in my control is how I react and respond to the things around me. I have my work cut out for me
@Fargesia_murielae Beautiful post. Thank you for sharing.
Wishing all of you a beautiful, sober day!
M
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Oops - I meant to send my last post to all of you, but replied to @Fargesia_murielae,
but now that Iām typing againā¦!
@Hidden I wish you peace, joy, inner acceptance of who you are - all those good , healthy things you want, that we should all strive for. Thank you for the example of you. And oh my hell, what I wouldnāt give for 5 weeks off too! Havenāt had that since around grade 9 or 10.
@Mno and @MrsOdh I think most North Americans go crazy when you tell us these things 
Happy Canada Day to all. Glad that I have no craving to celebrate with a glass in hand (it helps that it is cold, rainy, bbqās and fireworks are cancelled due to covid! ). Glad to share my journey with you.
M
I am writing this from Treaty 8 lands. Treaty 8 was signed in 1899, spans approximately 840,000 kilometres, and is home to 39 First Nations communities in BC, Alberta, Saskatchewan, and the Northwest Territories.
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Congratulations 
this is absolutely amazing. Itās an honor to follow your story and to be a part of it. I hope you had a great sober day 
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Iām so happy to hear that, your response made my soul happy. Donāt worry about it being long, all my posts are usually. Iāve got a writers soul, I always write half of a novel. And yes I do talk just as much in real life once I start talking. For the most part I observe first and then I decide if I want to talk with the people involved or not. Mostly not 
but those who are closed to me would probably say that I donāt ever stay quiet.
Finding yourself is hard, I think itās like an eternal struggle because everything changes all the time and we as humans changes with it. But thereās defenitly some things that we can find, like things that makes us happy, things we like to do or things that makes us happy. Or sad, because no one is happy 24/7 every day all year, not even the people on Instagram. Thatās why this app is so awesome. We donāt fake it, we all struggle, some days are crap and other days like your day today is lovely. And most of us have the same goal. To stay sober no matter what. I think the pink cloud thing is different for everyone itās complicated like most other things in life.
Also Iām certain that thereās a lot of people here caring for you and how you feel.
And with that Iām wishing you a goodnight. 
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Day 217. Life is good. Goodnight
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Doing fantastic! Went on my morning hike and meditation time. Did group therapy, had a healthy lunch, now debating with to lift weights before doing some step work!
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Thank you!
Sliding in on day 40.
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@Fargesia_murielae thank you so much for asking and sorry for the delay.
I am finishing day 5 really tired but with good spirits. I am taking my time to live well 24 hours. I donāt want to think in the future because I get very discouraged
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Thank you Sassy! I havenāt actually shared this accomplishment with anyone in my āreal lifeā as yet - just on here with the wonderful Sober Time community. So, it feels really good to see so many ppl reply and be so supportive and proud of me on here, it means a lot To my family friends, itās not that big of a deal really, I donāt think; they donāt āget itā so to speak. Which is fine. I am the one that has problems with alcohol and itās my choice to be sober. I know itās a big deal, because I feel it in my heart. I am so happy to have been sober a whole year, and I look forward to ending today sober too. You have been a wonderful inspiration and support for me along this journey.
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Day 21, I have set my intentions for tomorrow. I WILL meditate, use breathwork, and practice yoga. This is my priority for the next 30 days. That is the time it takes (+ or - so many days) to make something into a daily habit. One of my devotions this week has focused on habits. I learned some requirements for putting habit in place:
Healthy identity
Ask for help
Be kind to myself
Investigate
Trust the greater power
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You should be very proud!!! A year sober is no joke and a huge accomplishment. I know sometimes family or friends donāt understand what it takes or why we do this and that can be frustrating, but it is what it is. In the end we do this for ourselves. But I agree, it does feel good to be among others who understand and have been there and have shared so much of our journey. Be proud because you are a warrior It takes so much to get to a yearā¦heart, sweat, self love. Keep moving forward. Your journey inspires so many others. Such a blessing!!!
Together we are stronger.
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